I want to be

I want to hate for love,
I want to  check, to  be speedy,
I want to loose, to be suitable,
I want to be rare, to be common,
I hide myself, to cast shadow,
I want to be myself, to be yours,
I want to fill, to be meaningful,
I want to be a gap, to be a way of flow,
I want to shrink, to cover the whole world,
I want to be criticised, to be heard,
I want to be quiet, to be useful stone,
I want to be hated, to be a star of magnet,
I want to be independent, to be restricted,
I want to be famous, to be handled,
I want to be rejected, to be acceptable,
I want to be an entry, to be used,
I want to be part, to be with me,
I want to be silent, to be known,
I want to be real, to be tried,
I want to confine, to be overviewed,
I want to be being, to be into the aggression,
I want to be dark, to be enlightened,
I want to be serious, to be individual,
I want to be gathered, to be distributed.

I want to be, to you my God, without any lust. I want to be secured in this competitive world, my lord. I want Your hand of love as my destiny. I want to be fixed in you, by you for your abode.

God, you sent me with everything, without anything. I wanted to take everything from your world, despite nothing to carry at last. I craved for everything but missed you. I knew much to remind, than to serve others. You loved me but I forgot you. I muse to be good but it is too late. I may be useful in instalments. Who is responsible? I have used you. You are God of all, for all. I want to be poor, to be rich by you.