My role

I am in search of my role in this world. One may preach to me as per ones thinking. It is the easiest job to perform. The onus of outcomes of my role will be solely mine. I may bear it. I will have to bear it. But my next question will crop up for further roles. So my role appears to be unlimited. Then I may search limit of unlimited for peace.

I have played many roles in worldly affairs at certain times as per destiny. Does my destiny fix my role? Destiny has given livelihoods and relationships for nurturing the future of self and generations to come. I have played my roles, like an ant to hoard before the rainy day, like a cow to give milk to rear offsprings, like a lion to protect my supremacy and like a rose flower to spread good fragrance etc. I have played my roles during thick and thin. I have played roles for the happiness of my dependents. They have accepted me as per their need and they have become independent. I have donated to religious places to express my gratitude to the almighty. I do not know the fate of this act. I have given alms to the poor and needy. I may have not been hundred per cent successful for all. I have tried to go beyond my limit for all possible efforts but I am to play a role other than these roles to prove my birth’s meaning as I am the most developed creature of nature. So my question is valid, despite all roles being played.

I am searching for my real role and meaning in my birth. I do not want to be limited but unlimited to all and sundry. I want to be like the wind for breathing to every needy creature of nature. I want to be like fruits bearing trees to cater to the needs of all. I want to be like a flowing river to ultimately meet the ocean and lose my existence in it. I want a role to be part of the ocean of almighty like a drop of water. Before that, I want to be light to remove the darkness in my heart and mind.

My almighty this world has several distractions to curtain your presence. So in my next birth make me blind with your glimpses in my eyes only, as I am fed up with worldly affairs. I want only one role to be yours and for you, forever. May this be my last birth and I rest in you my almighty, in the deep ocean.

They Laughed

When I smiled at flowers, they laughed.
When I cried at my fault, they laughed.
When I wept on my fate, they laughed.
When I fell because of them, they laughed.
When I slipped due to ignorance, they laughed.
When I missed a chance, they laughed.
When I remembered you, they laughed.
When I excused their faults, they laughed.
When I enjoyed my loneliness, they laughed.
When I shared my views, they laughed.
When I cared about their systems, they laughed.
When I failed in my attempts, they laughed.
When I passed the hurdles, they laughed.
When I changed myself, they laughed.
When I worked for them, they laughed.
When I slept in peace, they laughed.
When I wanted a favour, they laughed.
When I wrote my grievance, they laughed.
When I lost my beloved, they laughed.
When I worshipped my God, they laughed.

They judged me. They commented on me and my feelings. They expressed their attitudes, faith and hate. They killed me in their thoughts.

They have different moralities. They have developed their standards. They are doers. They are decision takers. They are implementors. They are assessors. They govern. They are true by themselves. They have a complex of greatness.

My almighty call me back. I have crossed the tolerance limit given by you. Even you have been defined and limited to their whims. They know how to twist your teachings.

Almighty! may you delimit your existence. I am to live in this world as per your wish, but your existence is at stake. You are being exchanged with their attitudes and dictatorships. Fear of your wrath is their strength. You are like a rubber stamp. You are a seal, taken for granted. They are two-edged swords. You have been divided for their convenience.

Now the question comes – who is supreme? Who is the controller? What is the reality? Who will bell the cat? Only darkness appears to be a distinguished reality. Your light is awaited again. You matter the most.

Finish

The finish is an important word which is for the beginning of the next. It is an encouraging action and acts as a bridge to cross the hurdle. We always listen or are given instructions to finish first in many activities, in day-to-day working at different places – homes, schools, offices, factories, game fields, businesses and battlefields etc. This word has a cosmopolitan culture and universal acceptance.

The emotions, attitudes and style of saying this word may differ according to time, relationships, mood and places etc. If a mother says this word to her child who is unwilling to drink milk or wants to miss the meal to play with friends outside, the emotion will be mixed with love and a little bit of fictitious anger. Father’s attitudes toward finish may be different at the time of the study, play, entertainment, eating and sleeping etc. for the same child. There may be love or anger or both. Here, the finish has the hidden attitude of preparing the child for the future with discipline and many more to assume as per traditions.

In offices, emotions and attitudes related to finish may be as per hierarchy, quality of work, importance, target, achievements, emergency, behaviours and timing etc. In schools, the finish word has very important relationships between teachers and students as the future of the students and the nation are shaped there. Their love, attitudes and emotions etc. change frequently or remain for longer durations. This never changes the feelings of students toward their alma mater. On the battlefield, the finish word is mainly related to life to win the war for the safety, security and progress of the country.

Such is the difference and vast implications of word finish. It is the time tested that only the finished, may not return but bring new options.

Finish may generate ideas to be good and give lessons to improve. It may be inspirational and may be the reason for innovations. Even the finishing of life, termed death, of someone, beyond return, imparts spiritual knowledge, thinking, meaning and aim of life. The finish is path maker as per profession and path breaker as per action. The finish gives space. The finish gives chance. The finish is always with the beginning. The touch of the finish line in a game gives many things – name, fame, inspiration, money and a new beginning. In life, the finish may merge with God for salvation. Even incomplete FINISH is worth it for the future.

The ” Who “

One day,
Every day,
Happenings happen.
No one may be fully confirmed,
About the world’s formation,
What does come first?
What, why, when, how,
Questions start from them.
But I think,
” Who ” is more important,
To begin with.

This ” who “, defined, as per faith, is behind all….. This all may range from tiny, invisible to visible ones.
This ” who ” has all commands and knows the secrets of – why. ” Why ” may be because of commitment or intention or anything beyond our analytical skills.
” Why ” might have given way to – what. This ” What ” might have a large canvas to be used to translate the whole document into reality. The timing and sequence of origin and evolution of creatures along with specific roles might have been decided by the controller ” who “. That might be relevant to ” when ” and ” how “. This ” when ” might have been the most important in space and time for origin, growth, development and modification etc. and ” how ” might have defined the method or path of appearance in the world.

The ” who ” might be having very sophisticated and ultramodern laboratories, beyond our imagination for all creatures. There might be many supercomputing and analytical technologies as assistants to the ” who ” to take a final decision on the shape, size, role and importance of every creature to maintain balance and sustainability.

I think, to make the creative world competitive, attractive and creatures engaged in doings, the ” who ” might have given ‘ hunger ‘ to every entity. This common hunger has been playing a vital role since the beginning of life and the present changing world is the outcome of this.

This hunger is an important aspect in completing the purpose of the life cycle in every creature. Because of this, we are together in relation. This hunger changes its requirement when it comes to satiating the brain which has been given by the ” who ” to every creature to explore the secrets of the universe – the playing field of the ” who “. If we think, assume and analyze from the beginning of life, we may find that the hunger of the most developed brain is the main reason for present-day problems in respect of different nations, religions and attitudes etc.

It is beyond doubt that earlier humans might have developed humanity after several fights and knowing their futility. We should think about the ” who “, to make the world lovely, romantic, and liveable for all, together with good thoughts. We may do it if we think of that almighty ” who “.

Beauty

The flowers have a beautiful rose,
its beauty is protected by thorns.
Life has games,
its beauty is shown by emotions.
Speech has motivation,
its beauty is decorated by words.
Nature has actions,
Its beauty is expressed by habits.
Touch is the beginning,
its beauty is to allow for allurements.
Memory is to the brain,
its beauty is to forget.
Knowledge has wisdom,
its beauty is known by the implementation.
Time is powerful,
its beauty is to always change.
Grief is teaching,
its beauty is removal.
Failure is a lesson,
its beauty is the path to success.
Power is to protect,
its beauty is to pardon.
Religion is a path,
its beauty is to show the truth.
The relation is needed,
its beauty is to have faith.
Sound is vibration,
its beauty is the origin of music.
Parting is treacherous,
its beauty is a reunion.
Liberty is cosy,
its beauty is discipline.
Love is God,
its beauty is to sacrifice.
Death is the conclusion,
its beauty is to be unforgettable.
Beauty is beautiful,
its beauty is to be meaningful.

Almighty has beautified nature by creatures and for creatures, to be optimistic to do beautiful things for all. Though everything is beautiful at its respective place, in time and space, the real beauty is adjudged by an individual as per liking, attitudes and needs etc. Beauty is a binding force for the amalgamation and continuation of God’s desire. It is hope. Beauty should be beautified for the sake of humanity and God. God has beautiful desires for humans.

My Experience with Truth

I have had alarming experiences, in many aspects of life, with my growth in age and growing needs. But my experience with truth has a special place because it was compromising with the situation, despite having respect for morality. I have regrets for me revealing the facts that I have compelled myself many times to get the favour from virtual truth, in fact, the untruth.

I have followed the concept of flexibility according to convenience to fit into the so-called congenial atmosphere to abstain from falling into oblivion. Perhaps this concept is true for every field of work. Even path showing, knowledge imparting education system is not spared. That system of education which started in childhood at home has always emphasized following the right path of truth for happiness and generosity for society.

I am in my sixties but still remember the truth of the time when I was taught to understand and speak the language with my childish, entertaining, and joy-giving smile and imitating styles. I learned a lot depending on my retaining mental ability. Everything I interacted with and encountered during that time appeared to be true to me. The story of tortoise and rabbit was lesson-giving. The fairy tales and stars in the sky attracted me the most. I always waited for the magic to happen anywhere. Every day I got truth in various forms but the most valuable truth was my mother, always with me, forever for me. I still remember the day when I was sent to school to start earning certificates to be eligible to serve the country, my mother was with me in my comfort zone.

In my early days at school, my fabrication of the truth of home education started getting modified and I tried to adjust to a new environment. My mother waiting for me at the door and preparing my favourite dishes was my shadow on those difficult days. At last, I understood that all religions have the same principles for truth but for survival it was changed by us for situational practicability.

I have learned a lot from my mother’s views. Later both in student life and service life, I found two faces of truth, one hiding the other for benefit. Both appeared to be essential in day-to-day problems and dealings. Alas! the real truth got less volume in time and space. I could easily recognize victims of real truth followers, having a place in a dilapidated corner of the building, holding the high flag of satisfaction and peace. A ray of hope that truth always prevails in every situation, was witnessed many times with such victims. When one day any pious man noticed and recognized their values and importance then they were rescued and got the relevant status.

I have no hesitation in accepting that I have seen the flourishing candidates in all walks of life having upper hands due to their positions and relationships with men made extraordinary VIPs and following immoral, unlawful and unacceptable practices. But in the end real, defined, truth prevailed and the sufferer smiled. Those places where joy-giving sounds of untruth were entertained by masters and family members, ultimately succumbed to their truth and got ruined by the powerful time. There is a delay in his ( almighty ) house but injustice is intolerable. God’s mill grinds slowly but surely.

I have in my memory many examples of rising and falling in a single generation both in student and service lives. Such situations prevailed in past, are prevailing in present and will continue in the future also. I may give many examples from my experiences where truth ultimately won.

I, since my childhood, have been inspired by the story of a fairy tale- cinderella and always waited for such an incident to happen in respect of truth for its spread and acceptance the world over, for peace, love and sustainability.

I know the truth always prevails, I am sure it will always remain. It is in nature’s law of survival of the fittest. It is in the universe for the origin and existence of life on earth. It is in my thoughts. It is a string of untrue events being followed in all fields to excel and it breaks to expose as an eye opener for access to truth.

Truth is as important as breathing.
Truth is the worship of God. Truth hides but never sinks. Truth is a tool to distinguish between love and sorrow. Truth has to prevail for all. Truth is an individual’s habit. I have never searched for truth in fair weather friends and relatives. I am indebted to my mother for truth and its necessity. I am continuing to be with her in memory and experience.

The real truth may never change with technological advancements. Truth is a true inspiring tool to bring heaven on earth.

Am I unbiased?

It is but natural that I pretend to be unbiased. It is also natural that it is not true. NATURE has the only option for survival of the fittest as a selection procedure. The weaker one succumbs. So unbiased is not possible. Hence, for survival, I am biased too.

It started early in childhood when I got the full support of my parents to know the facts of life for survival. Because my parents knew that the world would give the opportunity through competition for selection of path to excel but in a biased manner to maintain the quality and ecological balance in the society. So, I made myself intelligent enough to fool as unbiased but in a biased manner for survival.

Present days world’s configuration concerning the difference in social and economic developments, various religious and political thoughts etc., is due to unbiased business for mankind in the name of humanity but in a biased manner. We are divided but unbiased. It is a true but pleasure-giving fictitious and deceiving concept for inviting trouble to humankind. Even the world’s written history, whether ancient, medieval or modern may not be unbiased. All are written based on available resources which might have been influenced by the then mighty and biased kings, rulers and administration or by the interests, helplessness and nature of the writers too. This possibility may not be ruled out in any Era because we are human and need survival with comforts. Sometimes, the sword guides the pen. Indeed might is right. It is always true and applicable everywhere. In modern times, we may notice it from local to national to international level.

This quality is necessary for existence in God’s created universe. So, I am unbiased for the goodness of all in the present requirements, every time which waits for none and its opportunity knocks at the door but once-in-a-lifetime. Time and tide wait for none. I could not avoid being unbiased for self’s biased attitudes. I am too biased to be unbiased.

I think there should be some norms in various fields of life to assess the unbiased and biased nature of all. In nature, we may assess the effects and actions of natural agents in the history of earth based on their present-day’s activities. I think they are unbiased in their attitudes. Such is not the case in the human kingdom. Humans’ actions, most of the time, are biased in the present day. So, this might have been the case in the history of humans. Since humans have developed brains capable to think,  conspire and do many things, they may articulate their activities in a sophisticated manner, hiding biased attitudes with the help of modern technologies and developments. The intensities and magnitudes might be different more or less with the anticipated results of somewhat same types as existed earlier in the old time.

Our attitudes may not be exactly interpreted by humans or machines but only God may know our nature of the biased or unbiased category because he is to settle our scores of doings in his created materialistic world. He is the only player who is always unbiased to impart deserving fruits of one’s actions. 

MOTIVATION

We have the capacity to cite many words and sentences for motivation among listeners. We may tell stories from religious preaching and may quote successful people from different fields in the world. These may ignite in your mind but you will bear all consequences of your journey from the time when you loose your dream for the sake of your life and society, in turn affecting your name and fame. You have to carry on with cautions because one thing good for someone may not be suitable for you. One has to have emotions for filtration of such thoughts for self.

We have many schools of thought categorized mainly as two schools, one in favour and another in opposition. There may also be a third category as neutral. But in actuality, it has under current and is deciding factor. It has to incline any side for survival. So it is virtual for safety measures. This category is like the elephant who has two sets of teeth – one to show off and the other to chew with.

Accordingly, motivational speech may be classified but all with one common quality inculcating results. In modern times, this is true for both, meant for terrorism and good causes. They may change their mind and thinking, resulting in a good, positive, and encouraging environment or negative, devastating, harmful, and dreadful activities in the societies.

A motivational speech is necessary for satiating the hunger of both the mind and belly. The hunger of the belly may even change faith for needs. This is a basic requirement for survival. Anyone may motivate a fragile hungry man for own interest. Most of the negative motivational speeches hammer on this need. They express sympathy and mention reasons for plights from their standpoint. They show a journey towards upliftments, comforts, and superiority and even to heaven if someone follows them. At present days, most countries are covertly supporting such motivations for political, economic, and religious mileage.

However, the hunger of the brain may be of different types, depending upon many aspects. It may be aspirational, emotional, professional and situational, etc. Motivational speech for this must be to remind the strength and capability, to awaken the sleeping emotions with positivity and eradicate depression.
Spirituality also needs proper attention for positivity. We may not ignore this aspect of life.

Excellence in one field is always better but lacking in other fields may not bring satisfaction in life. Whatever the way of motivation, it should be for emanating the best from the concerned and for the overall growth of every aspect of life and maintaining the social bindings, moralities, traditions, humanities and spirituality.

The last lesson of motivation should be about paying back to society to whom everyone is indebted. It is found in our old pattern of teaching that during Gurukul’s time students were educated about all aspects of life and society- knowledge, administration, economics, moral values, spirituality, behaviour, etc. At last responsibilities towards society, nature and nation were also taught.

The modern education system is based on grading patterns of the achievements of students, lacking knowledge and practical approach. It is like cramming, copying, writing and forgetting in the next class. A few teachers only entertain their written notes in examinations as such for grading and checking the analytical power of students. Motivational stories may get seldom space in such a system. At last, we blame the younger generation for devaluation in social life, knowledge, and elsewhere.

In life, responsibility is enhanced as per position and growth. Everyone at every stage and every position in any field need the motivation to excel. Motivation may be situational but is important. It excites, ignites, instigates, guides and encourages the betterment in all situations where you become helpless with your plight and your life. It may be very psychological as we get a great example in Sanatan Dharma’s holy book “Ramayan” where Hanuman Ji was reminded of his hidden strength to cross the vast ocean and he had done it for a pious cause. This is the motivation to explore the inner strength by self through the reminder of someone. Impossible may be possible for a good cause.

Motivation, nowadays, has become essential because of many complicated, interrelated issues mainly pressure to excel, financial problems, depression, cut-throat competition, etc. Where medicine and knowledge have limited effects, motivation may act as an energizer.

Concentration,  positive thinking,  satisfaction, spirituality, etc. are requirements of good results-oriented successful life of someone. It is better to motivate towards an approach that life is personal but it affects all and is meant for all in society. Many problems may be solved.         

Me of Mine

I have “me” in myself. This me of mine is the root cause of all types of greed, distress and diseases.

When I was an infant, I was with my mother only. I always wanted to be with her only. She was my world for everything.
She was my life jacket in the world of problems from my first day on this earth. I learned to swim in this oceanic world under the supervision of my mother. She was my heaven. I was only comfortable with her.

   When first time I was sent to school I felt alone. My troubles started with learning the first letter of the alphabet in my mother tongue. I started facing worldly vices. My mother made me acquainted with such affairs and gave me lessons to cope with them.

One day my mother left me alone in this world for her invisible journey to another world. I became an orphan and easy prey to all nuances of society. I turned from good to bad and from bad to worse and worst.  I forgot to control my tongue and master the time for the sake of me. I could not behave like a sieve to be like a sage.

I was always right on the wrong side. Earlier, I had searched for myself in my mother but now without my mother, I had been a demon with harming tendencies. All earlier teachings were futile. I changed as per my needs and became more selfish. I had lost myself in me.

My love for myself had been a curse later in life. I wanted to regret and regain my childhood notions and thoughts. I wanted my mother to be with me again. But this was not possible.

I did not know the history of souls. My mind had a plethora of thoughts like waves in the ocean. I wanted to use my waves for me and for peace in life. I had recalled my mother’s teaching, –  “the new path starts from where you become helpless and confused about life and devote yourself to the almighty. Then he takes care.”

I have surrendered to almighty for his shelter. This time my me is not for myself but for selflessness. My me has submerged into almighty. I have restricted myself to a minimum for living and requirements. My thoughts start with him and end with him – the almighty. My me is for your cause.

Now I am yours. Sorry, I have never asked – ” how are you “? I am pity on myself for losing you. My repentance may please be accepted for me.   

Honeymoon

Ouch, you have orchestral touch. I have heavenly pleasure.
No words, no sound, let the music of silence spread.
No boundaries, no pointed indication, let liberty be enjoyed.
No enticing, no sensation, let me be imbibed.
No memory, no repentance, let me be lost.
No more chance, no revival, let me be forgotten.
No objection, no-obligation, let me be admissible.
No permission, no hesitation, let only be submission.
No feeling, no thrilling, let only be healing.
No sorrow, no joy, let only be happy tears.
No summer, no winter, let only be spring.
No solace, no arrogance, let me be in an embrace.

My almighty, I want to mingle with you to forget my entity. You are the reason for my separation from you. I want to restrict to you but you are the reason for my – me, mine, myself – deviation from you. I want to be your object and you are the reason for my devotion. I want to leave but you are the reason for my continuity.

As I am part of you, I have the remorseless right to have demand to be with you. I have many wishes to be fulfilled by you. I have seen your natural world, turning into an artificial trench, holding supremacy on the pretension of your intentions. You are under unprecedented questions by self-declared Gods on earth. Everything is confusing. You have been interpreted on earth, according to the will of the mighty one. You are the virtual means of threatening, in the name of the creator.

Abstaining from all confusion, I want to be with you, on your honeymoon forever. No relation, no self but the spiritual honeymoon. You dive deep into me for spiritual ecstasy. You see and I will sink. Your breathing is my sensation. Your indication is my message. Your grace is my treasure. Your target is my surrender. All celestial bodies will be our homes. We will fly on clouds with windy wings. Sun and Moon will be our path showers. Stars will illuminate our nights.

You are my limit. All wishes start with you and end with you. Let me revolve around you. I want to be no more.