May I give thought to myself? I don’t want to disturb you every time. You are precious. But I do not know whether your time is yours or not. I think I should not know everything about everyone. This may cause psychological disorders and I may forget many things which need my attention for exploration of this world. Firstly, I have to explore myself. If I meet success in this journey, I have worth. But who will decide my success? I may have a series of questions. Decisions should be free of all encumbrances. Is it possible? Is it like art or creativity that everyone has something to deliver controlled by one’s concepts? Concepts do come from where? Who does give concept? What is the basis? It is sure that someone has deep exploratory thinking and gives some concepts. We accept that to avoid confusion as we do in examinations in student life. We write the accepted concepts to pass them. We may not give our thoughts because time remains limited and knowledge has to be assessed for future rat races. We are like lamb and think unidirectional. We may not think of compartments, to make whole. The system never allows us to be independent and to be ourselves. So when we start thinking of ourselves, it becomes too late in life. We spend maximum time analyzing others, both critically and affectionately depending upon relations or our comfortable approaches. We aim to get favour from every resource. We become selfish and forget ourselves.
I think we are having inner shadows veiling our realities, which may give more to the prevailing concepts. We may not get rid of such shadows until we have time for ourselves. I think creativity requires privacy, corner and zero disturbance. Life is not a business that may be sold with a sweet audible slogan. There may be an investment and someone is the investor. I think that the almighty is an investor. The almighty invested in us. He never asks for anything in return but only loves. Love of speaking truth, love of kindness, love of pardon and above all, love for each other. I think if we love each other we may explore anything. We don’t need someone to teach us, love. The best teacher, I think is a baby who loves unconditionally, not willing anything from everyone except the mother who is a multiplier of love. I think so. Mother does with love, in love, for continuity of love of hope of exploring the meaning of life someday by son or daughter of almighty. Mother is a path. Mother is a link between the invisible and visible worlds.
Love is an accepted fact for peace we should not spoil time and love each other. I think this is the only way to know oneself. The almighty will be more generous to bless us in this life. Firstly, one should judge self and assess others later. Life is like sand, not holdable at a fist. One should not wait and watch for others to take lead.
My role
I am in search of my role in this world. One may preach to me as per ones thinking. It is the easiest job to perform. The onus of outcomes of my role will be solely mine. I may bear it. I will have to bear it. But my next question will crop up for further roles. So my role appears to be unlimited. Then I may search limit of unlimited for peace.
I have played many roles in worldly affairs at certain times as per destiny. Does my destiny fix my role? Destiny has given livelihoods and relationships for nurturing the future of self and generations to come. I have played my roles, like an ant to hoard before the rainy day, like a cow to give milk to rear offsprings, like a lion to protect my supremacy and like a rose flower to spread good fragrance etc. I have played my roles during thick and thin. I have played roles for the happiness of my dependents. They have accepted me as per their need and they have become independent. I have donated to religious places to express my gratitude to the almighty. I do not know the fate of this act. I have given alms to the poor and needy. I may have not been hundred per cent successful for all. I have tried to go beyond my limit for all possible efforts but I am to play a role other than these roles to prove my birth’s meaning as I am the most developed creature of nature. So my question is valid, despite all roles being played.
I am searching for my real role and meaning in my birth. I do not want to be limited but unlimited to all and sundry. I want to be like the wind for breathing to every needy creature of nature. I want to be like fruits bearing trees to cater to the needs of all. I want to be like a flowing river to ultimately meet the ocean and lose my existence in it. I want a role to be part of the ocean of almighty like a drop of water. Before that, I want to be light to remove the darkness in my heart and mind.
My almighty this world has several distractions to curtain your presence. So in my next birth make me blind with your glimpses in my eyes only, as I am fed up with worldly affairs. I want only one role to be yours and for you, forever. May this be my last birth and I rest in you my almighty, in the deep ocean.
What is mine
The sense of belonging may be considered the universal truth. This sense is the bonding for togetherness. This sense has repercussions on the development of thoughts of ownership, conservation and preservation.
Those who pretend as relinquishers also have interests. I have in my memory the childhood story told by my beloved and handsome grandfather. I was a very stubborn child and used to cry about not getting the desired toys or anything till I got it. I was not knowing to give or share anything, even with my siblings. Then, it had been by habit. One day the same thing was in progress, but this time my grandfather was not in the mood to succumb to my habit. He took me to a house where a child was playing with self-made local and cheap toys given by his father who was not as wealthy as my grandfather was, it appeared. The boy was very happy and invited me to play with him. I played with him in the open ground, ran all around and learned a lot about sharing and giving. I was happy that day. Still, I remember, that my grandfather did not say a single word. I had got a lesson that sharing had real joy. After a few days, I was given another lesson that I came on this earth with nothing in hand and whatever I had, were earlier others’ belongings. So nothing was mine.
We get nothing from ownership of worldly materials but temporary satisfactions followed by cravings for another item. It is a never-ending process. Though we know all from our forefathers we forget it in the nick of time. Any power gets the work done.
We may compare ourselves to the construction of a building. We get construct buildings at selected sites with the erection of frames having holding and sustainability capacity with a particular life period of existence. We construct buildings for different purposes and uses. Accordingly interior of a building is designed which may differ from each other. The tastes of the master and members of the family are also reflected.
At last, after all, worldliness, the fate of a building depends upon the nature of its dwellers and other unexpected situations. But who is the owner of that house? In an actual sense, everyone is the owner because ownership is passed on from one to another at a suitable time. The house is one but the master changes so no one is the owner but everyone is the owner.
Likewise is the case with all of us. The almighty, before whom we all have to surrender someday, indicates that we are having none of our will to say something or do anything without his permission.
He has put the soul in a strong frame of a skeleton with an outer protecting skin cover and many functional systems comprising several organs fitted within the frame. Some of the systems are functional from birth while some become functional at a particular, appropriate time of need and age. The control of all systems is coded in a complicated brain which makes everyone different from each other in behaviours, compassion, submission and protection etc. All scientific developments have not reached the level of solving the complex structure of the controller’s brain. It is a simple looking most complicated structure of almighty.
When a simple creation of God may control the whole body’s systems then think of the unimaginative power of God in controlling the world. We may think of other creatures of God and should be thankful to him for the fraction of controlling power given to us. But alas! this gift of the body is not permanent and is taken back by the almighty at the defined time prescribed by him. The time of departure may or may not be the same for everyone but it is certainly played.
At last, my body is not mine. I am a custodian of it. Then what is mine? Why am I involved in worldly affairs? Why are all these show businesses of might, fight and supremacy? The almighty knows and enjoys.
Once again I am remembering the story told by my grandfather when I was a stubborn child. Nothing is mine.
I have come into the world without anything and will leave it with nothing. I have come from the invisible and I will return to the invisible. Whatever role I play is not written by me but is being played by me and written by a controller, the God.
Is soul mine? The Indian Sanatan religion in the pious book, “the Gita” says that the soul is also because of the almighty. So the soul is also not mine. Whatever, I do, all because of that almighty. Then what is mine? Nothing is mine but everything is mine for satisfaction and happiness for a short duration.
I am grateful to almighty that nothing is mine. Everything and everyone is from him and for him. I am at his disposal. He is my master and I am free of all encumbrances. May God bless all.
They Laughed
When I smiled at flowers, they laughed.
When I cried at my fault, they laughed.
When I wept on my fate, they laughed.
When I fell because of them, they laughed.
When I slipped due to ignorance, they laughed.
When I missed a chance, they laughed.
When I remembered you, they laughed.
When I excused their faults, they laughed.
When I enjoyed my loneliness, they laughed.
When I shared my views, they laughed.
When I cared about their systems, they laughed.
When I failed in my attempts, they laughed.
When I passed the hurdles, they laughed.
When I changed myself, they laughed.
When I worked for them, they laughed.
When I slept in peace, they laughed.
When I wanted a favour, they laughed.
When I wrote my grievance, they laughed.
When I lost my beloved, they laughed.
When I worshipped my God, they laughed.
They judged me. They commented on me and my feelings. They expressed their attitudes, faith and hate. They killed me in their thoughts.
They have different moralities. They have developed their standards. They are doers. They are decision takers. They are implementors. They are assessors. They govern. They are true by themselves. They have a complex of greatness.
My almighty call me back. I have crossed the tolerance limit given by you. Even you have been defined and limited to their whims. They know how to twist your teachings.
Almighty! may you delimit your existence. I am to live in this world as per your wish, but your existence is at stake. You are being exchanged with their attitudes and dictatorships. Fear of your wrath is their strength. You are like a rubber stamp. You are a seal, taken for granted. They are two-edged swords. You have been divided for their convenience.
Now the question comes – who is supreme? Who is the controller? What is the reality? Who will bell the cat? Only darkness appears to be a distinguished reality. Your light is awaited again. You matter the most.
Finish
The finish is an important word which is for the beginning of the next. It is an encouraging action and acts as a bridge to cross the hurdle. We always listen or are given instructions to finish first in many activities, in day-to-day working at different places – homes, schools, offices, factories, game fields, businesses and battlefields etc. This word has a cosmopolitan culture and universal acceptance.
The emotions, attitudes and style of saying this word may differ according to time, relationships, mood and places etc. If a mother says this word to her child who is unwilling to drink milk or wants to miss the meal to play with friends outside, the emotion will be mixed with love and a little bit of fictitious anger. Father’s attitudes toward finish may be different at the time of the study, play, entertainment, eating and sleeping etc. for the same child. There may be love or anger or both. Here, the finish has the hidden attitude of preparing the child for the future with discipline and many more to assume as per traditions.
In offices, emotions and attitudes related to finish may be as per hierarchy, quality of work, importance, target, achievements, emergency, behaviours and timing etc. In schools, the finish word has very important relationships between teachers and students as the future of the students and the nation are shaped there. Their love, attitudes and emotions etc. change frequently or remain for longer durations. This never changes the feelings of students toward their alma mater. On the battlefield, the finish word is mainly related to life to win the war for the safety, security and progress of the country.
Such is the difference and vast implications of word finish. It is the time tested that only the finished, may not return but bring new options.
Finish may generate ideas to be good and give lessons to improve. It may be inspirational and may be the reason for innovations. Even the finishing of life, termed death, of someone, beyond return, imparts spiritual knowledge, thinking, meaning and aim of life. The finish is path maker as per profession and path breaker as per action. The finish gives space. The finish gives chance. The finish is always with the beginning. The touch of the finish line in a game gives many things – name, fame, inspiration, money and a new beginning. In life, the finish may merge with God for salvation. Even incomplete FINISH is worth it for the future.
The ” Who “
One day,
Every day,
Happenings happen.
No one may be fully confirmed,
About the world’s formation,
What does come first?
What, why, when, how,
Questions start from them.
But I think,
” Who ” is more important,
To begin with.
This ” who “, defined, as per faith, is behind all….. This all may range from tiny, invisible to visible ones.
This ” who ” has all commands and knows the secrets of – why. ” Why ” may be because of commitment or intention or anything beyond our analytical skills.
” Why ” might have given way to – what. This ” What ” might have a large canvas to be used to translate the whole document into reality. The timing and sequence of origin and evolution of creatures along with specific roles might have been decided by the controller ” who “. That might be relevant to ” when ” and ” how “. This ” when ” might have been the most important in space and time for origin, growth, development and modification etc. and ” how ” might have defined the method or path of appearance in the world.
The ” who ” might be having very sophisticated and ultramodern laboratories, beyond our imagination for all creatures. There might be many supercomputing and analytical technologies as assistants to the ” who ” to take a final decision on the shape, size, role and importance of every creature to maintain balance and sustainability.
I think, to make the creative world competitive, attractive and creatures engaged in doings, the ” who ” might have given ‘ hunger ‘ to every entity. This common hunger has been playing a vital role since the beginning of life and the present changing world is the outcome of this.
This hunger is an important aspect in completing the purpose of the life cycle in every creature. Because of this, we are together in relation. This hunger changes its requirement when it comes to satiating the brain which has been given by the ” who ” to every creature to explore the secrets of the universe – the playing field of the ” who “. If we think, assume and analyze from the beginning of life, we may find that the hunger of the most developed brain is the main reason for present-day problems in respect of different nations, religions and attitudes etc.
It is beyond doubt that earlier humans might have developed humanity after several fights and knowing their futility. We should think about the ” who “, to make the world lovely, romantic, and liveable for all, together with good thoughts. We may do it if we think of that almighty ” who “.
Beauty
The flowers have a beautiful rose,
its beauty is protected by thorns.
Life has games,
its beauty is shown by emotions.
Speech has motivation,
its beauty is decorated by words.
Nature has actions,
Its beauty is expressed by habits.
Touch is the beginning,
its beauty is to allow for allurements.
Memory is to the brain,
its beauty is to forget.
Knowledge has wisdom,
its beauty is known by the implementation.
Time is powerful,
its beauty is to always change.
Grief is teaching,
its beauty is removal.
Failure is a lesson,
its beauty is the path to success.
Power is to protect,
its beauty is to pardon.
Religion is a path,
its beauty is to show the truth.
The relation is needed,
its beauty is to have faith.
Sound is vibration,
its beauty is the origin of music.
Parting is treacherous,
its beauty is a reunion.
Liberty is cosy,
its beauty is discipline.
Love is God,
its beauty is to sacrifice.
Death is the conclusion,
its beauty is to be unforgettable.
Beauty is beautiful,
its beauty is to be meaningful.
Almighty has beautified nature by creatures and for creatures, to be optimistic to do beautiful things for all. Though everything is beautiful at its respective place, in time and space, the real beauty is adjudged by an individual as per liking, attitudes and needs etc. Beauty is a binding force for the amalgamation and continuation of God’s desire. It is hope. Beauty should be beautified for the sake of humanity and God. God has beautiful desires for humans.
Life and Computer
My life has been like a computer, completely in control of others. Different software is controlling it at the fingertips. This software is often upgraded to be ahead of the competition with others. The CPU is inbuilt and invisible. I have no intelligence of mine. I am obedient but I am susceptible to outer polluting agents and need proper handling. Sometimes, I am hacked by mischievous enemies who want to corrupt me for their sake.
Humans have developed like a computer, from simple and huge to present day’s small, handy, complicated but easy to operate anywhere on the table or a lap etc.
Humans have intelligently handled situations but are surrendering to artificial intelligence in the interest of a brighter future. But we should not forget that God is super intelligent and we are computers, fully controlled by him. Our activities are as per his software. He, sometimes, upgrades software to show his miracles through extraordinary activities. He is a real refresher.
When we grow in this world, we become susceptible to our surroundings and try to adapt and adopt. In due course, because of our unsaturated lusts in worldly affairs, some hackers with their established thoughts in the name of faith in God, mislead. We get addicted and seek aplomb in those polluting agents. We forget the meaning of life. Even God’s artificial agents like wind, water, day, night and changing temperatures fail in showing the real path of peace and happiness.
God has encrypted his massages in every human to be studied in time. Those who understand them early, do something differently. They never become part of the crowd. They are real pathfinders. Every discovery made in the world was in existence but became known to the world because of differently thinking people.
In this world, God’s encrypted messages of trust, honesty, sacrifice and truth, never change. At any age, they never change. These are the hardware of God’s computer. They may be refined with time without modifying their essence.
It is our duty to fit into the changing world with the gifts of God. The day someone, who controls self wit and nerves, becomes free from others to be with God. No virus may corrupt the file of God. God has full control to crash any computer, at his will. He is supreme. He is the server of all servers.
Helplessness
Grief is my grievance.
Wealth is my mirage.
Wage is my incentive.
Pleasure is my flower.
Peace is my need.
The fight is my end.
Might is my dedication.
Honesty is my friend.
Jealous is my degradation.
Anger is my downfall.
Justice is my right.
Defeat is my firmness.
Failure is my path.
Comfort is my superstition.
Laziness is my enemy.
Proudness is my confusion.
Greed is my illusion.
Lust is my continuity.
Senses are my hindrance.
Knowledge is my weakness.
Wisdom is my foolishness.
Tension is my earning.
Wish is my loneliness.
Fear is my hurdle.
Word is my condition.
Expression is my emotion.
The mood is my sedition.
Truth is my problem.
Thought is my revolution.
The decision is my resistance.
Growth is my temporary phase.
Love is my will.
Generosity is my life.
Worshipping is my belief.
Religion is my faith.
I am sinking and the world is interpreting me like that. I am loosing my chance and the world is advancing like that. I am meeting the challenges and the world is changing. I am moving and the world is fixing like that. I am revealing and the world is assessing me like that. I am meaning and the world is reacting like that.
I am in the hand of the world. I am in the hand of circumstances. I want to be your pet my almighty. Here people hate living ones and love dead people. I am alive so they don’t love me. Their selfless love is nothing but show. Their respect is positional in working and conditional in notions. Their religions are situational and used as weapons of love and hate. Their worship is far from you – the reality. Greatness is their hidden agenda. You are divided. We are divided. I am helpless. May almighty make everything only one to avoid any conflict. May the world be in God’s reset mode.
ASSESSMENT
We are assessed at every stage in life from very childhood in terms of colour, height, health, physique, features, education, profession, behaviours, status, and many other qualities. Assessment is a process for the betterment of the concerned one. But this may not always be acceptable and true when humans are involved. We may find that in many cases of assessments in offices where bosses are all in all and assessments are targeted.
Assessment is a good process but the procedure followed for that differs in various working places of importance. In schools, the performance of students in board exams is the criteria for the assessment of teachers. It is acceptable as the futures of students and country are mainly dependent on good quality education. Professional institutions are assessed by students, parents, guardians and employers etc in terms of quality of education, fame, acceptability and employability etc. But the same is not the truth in the case of official assessment. There are certain criteria fixed for such assessment. This system is doing more harm than good. There may be an assessment at various levels before the conclusion. But it solely depends on the views of bosses. The most acceptable thought that the boss is always right, prevails in every office. That is the main criteria and other norms that are secondary for this job, affecting the careers of employees. The mood of the boss and the loyalty of employees toward the boss and his or her family play important roles in such a system. Even the dog of the boss plays a role. If someone is a relative or has good family relations with the boss, he or she has the upper hand over others. It is also found that an employee who has been judged excellent by one boss becomes average under another boss. If we research this system of assessment being termed as CR (Confidential report) in the official culture we may find many examples of ill assessment. This is also an astonishing secret to know as to how the assessment changes at different levels for the same employee and an excellent grade given by the immediate boss appears to be meaningless. Thus assessment may not be real and unbiased every time.
Sometimes, we may find the influence of affinity to the same discipline in such assessment. It is true in many cases where performance is linked with incentives. This system may allow the undeserving candidates to rise to the highest post, affecting the entire working culture. In this system, we may listen highest degree of praises delivered, even a comparison of the boss with the life-giving Sun from the universe.
This existing system is a deterrent to the efficiency and promotion of real, technically sound, good and honest workers and also affects the growth and achievements of the company. Negativity in the official atmosphere pervades and detaches from work. This, in turn, changes the working culture of devoted, enthusiastic, energetic workers into a depressed, time-passing, boring workforce. We may find that good workers are leaving organizations for better pasture.
In this system, the ultimate sufferers are the country’s progress and the citizens as this system is not flawless. So this system needs continuous evaluation with the progress of technologies and education in society. We should hammer on the right place for remedy and that is in the selection of a right and capable boss. The seniority in the hierarchy may not only be a criterion but also should have good records of achieving the goals of the office. The assessment of the boss may be linked with the performance of subordinates and feedback, as is the case in the education system. We should not forget that selection of candidates is made through very arduous processes and a single boss having vested interests in self may not be allowed to question the selection process by mere whimsical assessment, instead, the boss should be updated on the importance of subordinates in changing world. We should emphasize the hierarchy of ideas and not the fear of the boss for the performance of the individual.
Such types of assessments may be witnessed in many fields of life. We may get both sufferers and gainers. But the best continuous assessment is being done by the almighty and that is the final. He is the supreme who gives incentives, based on our actions. One human may not assess another human with limited thinking capacity, but he, the creator and controller of the universe can. We should wait for his assessment.
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