One day, I turned to my body and found that desires are like many suns. As the Sun is in the centre of the solar system, my desires are the individual centre and all activities in life revolve around them. Desires like the Sun are energy givers in the form of attempts and determination, in turn, control waves in the ocean of my mood because of tides arising with different intensities at different times.
I recall since my childhood and find that my desires and moods are interrelated. In fact, my desires have a very strong gravitational force to attract my mood vehemently and shape my future. The rotation of my activities brings results day and night. When the target, as per desires, is accomplished, it is like a day full of light but at the same time, failure is like a night full of darkness for me, as if life is rotating like earth on its axis. Rays of hope, in the darkness of night, are like rays of light of the moon revolving around the earth. It changes mood, energises will, and rejuvenates the mind to catch the moment before it is too late.
I find that all my senses controlling my activities and located at different places in the body are like planets revolving around Sun-like desires. I am directly concerned and influenced by them. They bring both happiness and sorrow to life. They move my moods. My depression, loneliness and sorrow are like eclipses happening due to my moving moods and coming in between success and hope partly or fully overshadowing them.
In this world, I am sailing my boat without a life jacket. Here, the prevailing nepotism, regionalism, superiority complexes, different faiths and favouritism, etc. are like uncontrolled moving asteroids of different sizes and they may hit me at any time to sink my life’s boat. If I am saved from them, then probabilities of bad habits, addictions and other vicious thoughts may act like black holes and may not leave me from drowning in the darkness.
Here, everything is changing. The position of the Sun changes because of the earth’s rotation. Love, peace, affection and relationships, etc. are changing like twinkling stars. They change with thinking and age. Their light may or may not reach me or may die before touching my horizon.
However, in this changing world, the position of only one star, the North star, is fixed, static and reliable in the sky because of its never changing position. It shows the real direction towards the north. It tells something to every observer regarding the facts of life. It is indicative of fixing the static faith in you, my almighty. You are never changing creator of the universe and this world on earth. The motherland has been brought into existence by you. Everyone should have static and continuous faith in you. It is also interpreted that one day, the bright and hot sun will change into a cold star of another size before death. Life is like that. One day, everyone has to change into inert and leave this world. Life will cease to merge into you, my almighty. You are my galaxy where individual life is controlled by you in all respect. All my desires should reduce, die and lead towards you, my almighty.
The infant is sleeping.
We guess –
Gift of God.
Baby does not know the language.
when a baby smiles, chuckles and weeps.
We guess –
Baby starts knowing the language.
Restrictions’ imposition activates.
When baby grows older.
Courses decide target.
Cycles complete meaning.
Repentance occupies space.
Reviewing changes life.
In the sequence of growth –
Wind swings mood.
Life meets life to begin.
That is the end ?
I am not beggar by birth. You, the almighty, have written passion, desire, compassion, peace, attitude of submission, inclination towards omissions in life and many more on my memory card in your language for survival in this world. I could have had your treasure intact for sailing the boat of life in your world after translating your wishes into reality. However, the memory card remained the same, but the language developed by humans has overlapped your expectations. They have corrupted it. They have become their own God to formulate favourable rules for themselves.
I am sure your language’s code has not been understood completely and misinterpreted as per will and situations by humans. They have jumbled letters to change meaning. They have changed positions of words to confuse. They have transformed and punctuated sentences to make them passive for the whole life. The memory card has been activated through artificial intelligence for worldly vices – greed, lust, falsehood, anger, fear, hate and selfishness, etc. They have modified themselves to compete with each other to be equivalent to God and influence humanity. They have intentions to squeeze the fears of humans in the name of destiny and desire of almighty. They highlight the dark side of any event to prove their relation with you, my almighty. They twist your teachings. They mend your concepts. They have unveiled many secrets of world and universe made by you, but they are not honest enough to change the age-old beliefs and superstitions for their sake. They use all comfort providing scientific advances but have grudges to change concepts because of you, in the name of your happiness and acceptance. If you visit your world sometime in the future, you may notice the gender inequality and status differences in humans only because of you. They have assigned gender specific duties, only for your desire’s fulfilment. They have status differences for their egos. But they are not capable of turning upside down. Whatever they are carrying forward, are only in your name.
They have restricted the meaning of your love to all. They love their followers for your sake. Their hate from others is an expression of love for you. They fight with each other to carry forward and to keep intact faith in their respective beliefs.
Any true follower of you faces all worldly hindrances to examine and deviate from your real teachings and is considered as a threat to old but useful and beneficial beliefs from their point of view. If he or she continues, despite all odds and shows something miraculous happenings by your grace, they treat him or her like God to worship. However, they fight with each other, for that as per their beliefs and mould his or her achievements for glorifying respective faiths. They use it as another source to dominate over others.
Your memory card is overlapped by cunning thoughts of humans from time to time, my dear almighty. Your puppets play on their own tunes in your name.
I imagine that you may be confused whenever you try to understand your world during the next visit. If you give your introduction, you would have to fit into their different types of moulds made because you have been changed by shapes, sizes, and colours. You are sometimes without shape, also. Here, wrong is right. Here, might is recognised. Here, number and gender matter. Here, every thought is to take over and change the world in your name. Here, human conditions are because of you. You will find that you are the most used and loved one in many ways.
One thing is common everywhere, that you are the inspiration and armour for all beliefs and bellicose. You will find that humans are controlling you. You will find peace broken into pieces. You will find our search of peace in materials, but in vain. You will witness that they have classified your world and made it circus. They are ring masters in your name.
Ultimately, I am drawing pleasure from the changed world, but it is not real. I am having love but not real. I am deceiting myself and only it is real. I have faith in you and want you to spread love with such a weapon that no one may write over or delete it from any type of memory card. Love should prevail. We should be media. You are the source of all.
I have the desire.
I have dreams.
I have pain.
I have persuasion.
But I have fear –
to leave midway,
to crave more,
I need you because –
You give courage.
You are my partner.
You are my companion.
You are my friend.
You are my teacher.
You are my guide.
You are my emotions.
I have a body and a soul. I have fed my body to keep it healthy to meet the worldly affairs, but I have forgotten my soul’s need to be near you my almighty. I am in dire need of you. I have faith in you but am about to face failure. Your faith in me may shatter. I know that you have been behind me in every action. So let me not be down. I want your blessings on the advent of my death. I pray you to be my sailor in this world and be my porter to carry me to your world. My rest is there. My peace is there. My life is there. This world is full of uncertainty and negotiation.
Many human-made indices in the world are assumed and are used to determine the quality of life of humans and rank a nation. These may not be unbiased or non-controversial. These are human-made standards. But I think that, in humans, maturity and saturation determine the quality of life and are the best indices. Both inculcate interactions with living and nonliving things in the surroundings. Both have no upper limits but govern life. Maturity and saturation limits may be interrelated. In most cases, maturity controls saturation. When maturity increases the limit of saturation may be ascertained. Though it may vary from person to person yet it happens.
Maturity never comes in one day. It takes a lifetime. History teaches many lessons to be mature to get favourable results. Even then the age of an individual may be a maturity factor but this may not be true every time. There is no doubt that maturity changes with age but the level of maturity, matures based on experience, incidents and surroundings. An individual facing many tough situations in life from childhood may be more mature than someone who has not seen rough weather, being of the same age.
Whatever the reason may be, maturity is a must in life. But the immaturity of children should not be missed. Their saturation in getting anything of desire after long persuasion gives peace for a while. Their desire to get to the moon reminds our helplessness and limited achievements in this world. Their immaturity reflects saturation in stories of animals and fairy tales, sufficient for their good sleep. Their immaturity teaches us to be happy with limited desires. Every child with growth and increasing analytical power leaves behind all saturation to be part of the crowd and search for the maturity of various kinds in life.
Maturity gives chance. Maturity creates opportunity. Maturity gives satisfaction and saturation. Maturity claims its cost. The more we become mature the more we have a chance to lose our well-wishers and relationships. At last, maturity inculcates and gives direction to life if saturation is attained. Minimum needs bring satisfaction and saturation with maximum maturity. This stage, on arrival in life, affects the most.
Maturity may ultimately instigate an inclination towards good deeds which may lead to living up to the expectations of God. When saturation, as the aftermath of maturity, will prevail then the nearness to God may approach.
Without maturity and saturation, everyone is like an aimless wanderer and may mislead into wrongdoings. I think, despite all views on maturity and saturation, we should remember the highest level of the fact of maturity that we come to and go from this world empty-handed. This fact of maturity, if learned in the early stage of life, may control all vices, common in the world. This emptiness is the maturity followed by saturation. This emptiness is the guide at every stage and in all spheres of life for maturity and saturation.
Everything is transferable from one hand to another hand in a life of desire. Nothing is permanent. With this concept of maturity, We may always be nearer to God and enjoy life fully. Everyone will be happy if we forget ourselves for others.
No tears please,
Let the eyes be treasury.
No distance please,
Let the gap vanish.
No separation please,
Let life be pleasurable.
No anger please,
Let the bud turn into a flower.
No hurrying please,
Let me last with you.
No mercy please,
Let me die in your love.
No confusion please,
Let the tree bear fruits.
You talk to me –
With Your heart,
With your silence,
With your smile,
With your eyes,
With your sound,
With your face,
With your touch,
With your fingers,
With your pleasure,
With your joy.
You have meaning,
You have string,
You have emotions,
You have feelings,
You have mystery,
You have light,
You have descriptions,
You have destinations,
You have everything.
I do not want to lose you in my dreams too. You are to realise our dreams. You are my gift. You tease and deserve it at the same time. But you are my life. You are my present and my future is in you. You write. I read. You have made me optimistic through your heavenly body. Let me be honoured. Let me be devoted. Let me be reciprocal in love. Let me be liberated with you.
It is the nature of humans to reiterate the common favourite lines to be said on a particular occasion. It has to be, as we wish someone on a birthday, new year and anniversary etc. Those lines are used with somewhat changes, having the same fervour.
I have always heard many beautiful lines on such dates, in my case, also but one line being told at the time of retirement from service, has attracted me the most. The line always being told during wishing for happy retirement life is that – age is a number. Though this notion instils positivity yet we forget that facts reflect their shadow. The fact is that with every day, a number of changes in the present life and body, along with mental health occur. Such changes have effects. Otherwise, the retirement age should have been different or something else.
It is true regarding age, but we should remember that every number has a face value and has increasing or decreasing value relations with preceding and succeeding numbers. Likewise, the number in age has only increasing value in the preceding year in terms of experience, expectations, aspirations and responsibilities etc. The time, for self, decreases and attention towards a name or position, in most cases, gets priority over the future to be realities.
This phase of service life is getting professional advice in the present situation when the longevity of both female and male have increased because of congenial developments. The retiring persons are being imparted knowledge on savings, investments, expenditures and careful handling of lucrative offers in the digital world. These are important, because of limited sources of income and changing social and personal relations.
The most important requirement for the earlier active person after retirement is the engagement for the routine period earmarked for official engagement in service. There becomes a sudden vacuum.
They are considered exhausted.
Many suggestions for their engagement may be given but dignity, flexibility in duty hours and respect etc. should be taken care of. Most of the time, they are emotionally blackmailed and become prey to cheating people in the name of engagements. We forget that they are treasures of experience and are ready to share them. They may easily be ready to return to the society to which they feel indebted. A fully respectful system, for engaging them, is needed at the time.
They need care with the passage of time also. They should not be left unattended to feel neglected. Their healths deteriorate faster because of this. They become more dependent as the number in age increases. They become helpless and take shelter in old age homes, because of family problems or otherwise.
There is no controversy in considering that age is a number but this appears to be true in the case of such professions where separations are to be decided by self. In every profession, whatever engagement, separation has to happen and age has to reflect its effects.
Age is a number for counting. It has demands also. But positivity is there. Everyone should have it, as age has many things in store to return.
We should not forget that God is there and love is life. We should not forget that we are successors also, so we have ideas about age.
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2023 TO ALL MY FRIENDS
Am I a broken soul? Do I have an entity? Why do you not break the news related to me, as breaking news, showing for many hours on your TV channels?
Such were dialogues in a stage drama in which a boy was pleading before the judge on the fates of children facing the separation of parents because of the so-called heinous divorce. It was that part of the drama in which the boy was to choose one between his father and mother to live with after their separation.
The boy was fully prepared to open his plights of life. These were social and psychological problems. The boy told with full emphasis, ” he is a living gender in the world of so-called civilized society. He should not be treated as a commodity meant for sale to one person only. He has a soul that is on the earth because of two souls who have decided to increase their family – my parents. I am not ready to miss any of them naturally or unnaturally. My mother is like earth to me, and my father is like a mentor to show me the world. I want both of them for my growth, development and sustainability.
I am a witness to the heydays of my parents’ lives. I may not accept them separately because I am not a culprit, if their attitudes change toward each other later in life, I should not bear the brunt. As a child, I have my dreams to be in life. My future is related to both of them. I need their guidance, support, and togetherness for every moment.
My parents are the judges who have decided to bring me to life. Now, I should be given the right to decide their separation which I never accept because of their changing attitudes. I do not want to be like a helpless and hopeless boy who does wait for a predetermined particular day and time to meet one of the parents having a tag of divorcees. I do not want the part-time love of my parents. I do not want to be seen in society with pity. I know a few friends facing such situations. They are having many problems, especially psychological ones dealing with day-to-day work. Even classmates and friends change their views towards a child like me while talking. I do not want to be distinguished like that. If the father or mother remarriages, the condition of the stepchild becomes more pathetic. The condition of a girl child, who is supposed to have lion’s share to carry forward all the stigma of family, religion, traditions and society, is worse in this situation.
In my view, no parents should be allowed, in any condition, to be separated if they bear a child. Their relationship should not affect the future of a child. I know nowadays, due to social changes and so many opportunities present, parenting is also changing but the ultimate sufferers are children. These are taking a toll on children. Such persons who want to marry and also want to be parents in the future are supposed to be mature enough to know their responsibilities in life. A child who witnesses their affection and well-thought approach should not be a victim in the future, in their lives, if any kind of problem arises. I am not a child of an animal. I need to fight differently for existence in the changing world and I have to learn from and live with my parents.
Our society does not have any system to tackle such children. A child like me is also the future of a nation. I want to be a doctor. Who will bear my expenses for the same? A projected cost of studies, in case of no solution and ultimate separation, should be deposited or otherwise in the direction of a respectable Court, with direction to the automatic, timely release of funds to the concerned child like me. A third party under the full supervision of the court should be given the onus to look after such children. I do not want to go to any orphanage or shelter homes where situations may not be congenial, as I have read about many unhappy incidents in such dwellings in news. I am supposed to be the best but I do not want to be the definite worst.
I should not be prey to the unnoticed reasons that culminate later in the married life of my parents. This is not the judgement that is on my price. This is a kind of death warrant for my life in the world that judges everyone on its standard. No child is ready for this. I may not talk to God but I may tell my mind here in this world. I am not the only sufferer; society is to suffer also and bear the consequences of this human-made crime. Psychological and social studies, on children like me, are of no use if not giving lessons or redressal to stop such venomous acts.
Finally, I think that this story may be repeated in a second marriage. Then again, a child may face the same situation.
At last, I want to live with both of them so my parents should be punished to live together forever in life or till I become able and become independent. I am positive in the hope that I will be the reason for the revival of their togetherness.”
The message in the drama was very clear to settle the differences in married life in view of the future of children.
Hasty decisions should be avoided and separation should be last to come to mind with the closure of all options to be under one roof. Moreover, decisions at every step in life, mainly after marriage, should be well thought out, discussed and analyzed to avoid future problems, especially those related to children. The future of a child should be ensured until he or she becomes independent.
Trees fly chirping,
Birds, rooted in the earth,
Heroes, as stars in the sky,
Stars, twinkling on earth,
Clouds, in our hands,
Water, sprinkling on the sky.
We want shortcuts.
Time is in our control,
Birth needs submission,
Death needs permission,
We dig water,
We eat air,
Our heads are down,
Our wishes are willing.
Do we dream of these?
A full topsy-turvy.
Why do we want such things?
Our imaginations and aspirations play roles in defining life in all eras. We may not accomplish all, in one life. Our unfulfilled willingness is the hunter of hunger. They are crusaders. We want to change but not ourselves. We worship but sail our ships.
We never examine our roles. We assess others’ roles. We have made God- many Gods for our use. Real God is money. We have aspirations for a virtual world – full of fictitious things in the name of pleasure and comfort. We have written our chapters of life on our terms, satiating our whims. No one wants to surrender for peace and love.
God! your lessons of love and grace are bookish and in practicality are used for fears, curses and pretentious attitudes.
God! You are being tested every day. You are needed. Your silence is taking the price of humanity. You are supposed to tell that you are the creator and you are the annihilator. One day your existence may be questioned. No one has seen you? But we love you for our sake.
You are the only hope. Otherwise, I am the best. God! You will be only a concept. A concept for the supremacy of a few.
May I give thought to myself? I don’t want to disturb you every time. You are precious. But I do not know whether your time is yours or not. I think I should not know everything about everyone. This may cause psychological disorders and I may forget many things which need my attention for exploration of this world. Firstly, I have to explore myself. If I meet success in this journey, I have worth. But who will decide my success? I may have a series of questions. Decisions should be free of all encumbrances. Is it possible? Is it like art or creativity that everyone has something to deliver controlled by one’s concepts? Concepts do come from where? Who does give concept? What is the basis? It is sure that someone has deep exploratory thinking and gives some concepts. We accept that to avoid confusion as we do in examinations in student life. We write the accepted concepts to pass them. We may not give our thoughts because time remains limited and knowledge has to be assessed for future rat races. We are like lamb and think unidirectional. We may not think of compartments, to make whole. The system never allows us to be independent and to be ourselves. So when we start thinking of ourselves, it becomes too late in life. We spend maximum time analyzing others, both critically and affectionately depending upon relations or our comfortable approaches. We aim to get favour from every resource. We become selfish and forget ourselves.
I think we are having inner shadows veiling our realities, which may give more to the prevailing concepts. We may not get rid of such shadows until we have time for ourselves. I think creativity requires privacy, corner and zero disturbance. Life is not a business that may be sold with a sweet audible slogan. There may be an investment and someone is the investor. I think that the almighty is an investor. The almighty invested in us. He never asks for anything in return but only loves. Love of speaking truth, love of kindness, love of pardon and above all, love for each other. I think if we love each other we may explore anything. We don’t need someone to teach us, love. The best teacher, I think is a baby who loves unconditionally, not willing anything from everyone except the mother who is a multiplier of love. I think so. Mother does with love, in love, for continuity of love of hope of exploring the meaning of life someday by son or daughter of almighty. Mother is a path. Mother is a link between the invisible and visible worlds.
Love is an accepted fact for peace we should not spoil time and love each other. I think this is the only way to know oneself. The almighty will be more generous to bless us in this life. Firstly, one should judge self and assess others later. Life is like sand, not holdable at a fist. One should not wait and watch for others to take lead.