Me of Mine

I have “me” in myself. This me of mine is the root cause of all types of greed, distress and diseases.

When I was an infant, I was with my mother only. I always wanted to be with her only. She was my world for everything.
She was my life jacket in the world of problems from my first day on this earth. I learned to swim in this oceanic world under the supervision of my mother. She was my heaven. I was only comfortable with her.

   When first time I was sent to school I felt alone. My troubles started with learning the first letter of the alphabet in my mother tongue. I started facing worldly vices. My mother made me acquainted with such affairs and gave me lessons to cope with them.

One day my mother left me alone in this world for her invisible journey to another world. I became an orphan and easy prey to all nuances of society. I turned from good to bad and from bad to worse and worst.  I forgot to control my tongue and master the time for the sake of me. I could not behave like a sieve to be like a sage.

I was always right on the wrong side. Earlier, I had searched for myself in my mother but now without my mother, I had been a demon with harming tendencies. All earlier teachings were futile. I changed as per my needs and became more selfish. I had lost myself in me.

My love for myself had been a curse later in life. I wanted to regret and regain my childhood notions and thoughts. I wanted my mother to be with me again. But this was not possible.

I did not know the history of souls. My mind had a plethora of thoughts like waves in the ocean. I wanted to use my waves for me and for peace in life. I had recalled my mother’s teaching, –  “the new path starts from where you become helpless and confused about life and devote yourself to the almighty. Then he takes care.”

I have surrendered to almighty for his shelter. This time my me is not for myself but for selflessness. My me has submerged into almighty. I have restricted myself to a minimum for living and requirements. My thoughts start with him and end with him – the almighty. My me is for your cause.

Now I am yours. Sorry, I have never asked – ” how are you “? I am pity on myself for losing you. My repentance may please be accepted for me.   

Engagement

We have divided day and night into twenty-four hours. We have most of these times for ourselves. Even then, we think of some engagement for the rest of the time we feel free. The rest of the time is a main controlling enzyme of the quality of life we lead. This controls the “me” time of an individual for the whole life.

Everyone has complete time for themselves in childhood. That time decreases as the age grows but twenty-four hours of day and night remain static. Everyone has to adjust the life every day within this stipulated duration. The making or devastation of life depends on self-controlled activities. So the activities should be well planned considering all  prospects. If they are governed by moral values, the future of individuals and society, in turn, will be progressive, free of all sorts of shortcomings. Otherwise, the reverse is also possible in life, due to immoral practices.

The moment selfishness overshadows all positive norms, the trouble starts, greediness occupies front seats and life becomes hell. These types of thoughts ruin the present and future of family and society.

The past of life is mainly influenced by the behaviours and attitudes of parents, friends and relatives. The best of those should be taken for building the life in the present. This legacy is passed on like that from generation to generation. The dominance of positivity in actions, emotions and attitudes etc. makes life heaven and peace prevails in the surrounding. The godly environment inculcates thoughts – live and let live- everywhere. There may always be additions in life. This type of engagement we may get from religious thoughts.

Engagements should be both professional and personal. Personal engagements, controlled by mental ability and maturity, give direction to all types of engagements. Professional engagements give means to survive and do good for society. Purposeful life depends on both in the changing world.

Sitting idle without ideals is harmful. Engagement is a must. Otherwise, life will be like stagnant water. Stagnant water becomes rotten. Thinking, for the betterment of humanity, should be a continuous process with respect to developments. Short goals pave the path for large goals. These are steps on a stair to reach on top to see the world and give return gifts to the society which has given opportunities and meaning to one’s life.
What the world, we find at present, is built by deep thoughts of ancestors in a progressive manner. We should have similar types of thoughts for engagements.

The negative thoughts may ruin self-life. Selfless is always better than selfishness. The present is the gate to the future. The present demands utmost utilization. What we sow so we reap. The fruit of action may not be personal.

Engagement is extremely private and a privilege of every individual. But its effects may be long-lasting. We may take a few qualities from nature’s creatures for timely engagements. Engagement is the necessary content of life. We should be engaged both mentally and professionally. Engagements as per interests fetch pleasures and satisfactions. The best engagement is forgetting self for others’ welfare. Even God loves it as the first step towards salvation.

Gratitude

I am not creator. I am contributor. I have always expressed my gratitude in my applications, written to the appealing authorities with selfish professionalism to extract favour from their arrogance, in  holding a God like position, in their senses.
Professionalism is always for the self first. I have done all this for my self growth and for satisfying my ego. My ego has been a driving force in my professional journey. It has shown me both short and long paths to tread in this journey of life. I opted the path as per situational demand.

I think my sense of gratitude was not by heart, so it never gave me happiness after any achievement. I was deceiting my self. I had many companions in my professional journey, posing as my well wishers in front of me. But they used to dig  my grave behind me for their egos. That was also a way of showing gratitude.

So, I understand that gratitude is a vehicle that carries everyone’s ego forward. The result of ego may be in positive or in negative, affecting the progress of units of executions. Rest lies in the hand of destiny.
Destiny is torch bearer. It is  controlled  by almighty. It is said that one can change destiny but that is also in control of almighty.

So, I think my sincere gratitude is to almighty. In my journey of life, I show my heartiest gratitude to all who have brought smile and happiness for me without expecting anything. My sincere gratitude in reality is for those who gave me experiences through their behaviours and attitudes. They have prepared me for odds and made me bold for existence. I reveal my gratitude and indebtedness to nature who has taken care of everything for my life. I have no sense of gratitude for my parents because I may not be selfish for them. My all thoughts end with them. They are my beginning and they are my termination. The lap wherein I got love,  peace, security, safety and learned lessons of life has no suitable word in any language of the world for measuring and expressing gratitude. I may reserve my will above all for them. I always miss them. My mother is above all and her lap is above God’s heaven. So, all my gratitude are to everyone visible or invisible in life’s journey.
May I give gratitude to me for always being me. I do am, my destiny. My gratitude is to destiny.

Daughter

She comes,
She smiles,
She touches,
She holds,
She hugs,
She cares,
She gives me a name.

She is my friend,
She is my life,
She is my destiny,
She is my love,
She is my flower,
She is my fragrance,
She is my light,
She is my twittering bird,
She is my face ,
She has given me purpose,
She is my blessing,
She is my daughter.

Her future is my future,
Her sound is my path,
Her journey is my journey,
Her smile is my treasure.

She has to fly,
I have to give her wings.
She has to be traditional,
I have to give her rituals,
She has to be for sure,
I have to give her opportunities.
She has her own identity,
I have to give her strength.
She is a gender,
I have to make her perfect.
She is the maker,
I have to give her time.

She should be self,
She should be a book,
She should be easy,
She should be tough,
She should be water,
She should be wind,
She should be earth,
She should be open,
She should be closed,
She should be medium,
She should be maker,
She should be power,
She should be inspiration.

She should be for others,
She should be creative,
She should be for nature,
But she should be for her own.

FEAR

Fear has a natural and universal existence. Everyone may fear as if it is a permanent  pandemic. The  virus of this quality exists in every creature of nature. Perhaps no-one is spared from it.

There may be many types of fear as per the situation and condition. How can one guess, the time of start of any fear and its lasting? There may be descriptions in the concerned subject at length. But for me it starts since birth, related with existence and survival.

We are always in growing stage and fear changes according to expectations of self and society. We always face the challenges of proving self upto the mark.

The great fear may be from childish attitudes to study to delivering results to tolerance to family to social life etc. If you succumb at any time, the ready made judgement of failure or looser  will be your trade mark. No one will wait for your explanation until you again prove yourself.
One thing is common for all types of fear that every fear, ultimately, is directed towards one or self.

We always have fear of losing- self, friends, members of family, parents, relatives, health, wealth, near and dear ones and other important things. We may regain health and wealth but loss of persons is not like migratory birds those will come back repeatedly in particular season. It is natural and beyond our control. Such fear may lead to depression and ruin life. Others have consolation and nothing else to share to be useful in formulating strategies to get rid off load.

Fear is not a crime. It may give strength and opportunity to analyze  and overcome whatsoever may be, if it does not occupy the gigantic size, to be diagnosed as disease. We know nothing is  permanent. We also know there is no limit for maximum. So limit of satisfactions has to be fixed by individual as yardstick. We may overcome worldly fear like that.

If everything is going smoothly and is favorable then fear of maintenance and continuity complicate the things. Hence, it is very difficult to get rid off sense of fear. It will always remain together, in any form, as shadow. We should accept and try to learn its message to be ready for all odds.
We may always have sense of insecurity. So fear will continue till the last breath. Mental strength will make us feel better and more comfortable because fear is part and parcel of life.

If  fear is not there, we fear from unseen power. Most of the religious leaders describe it as God’s fear – the most powerful. It has self understood categorisation and trust, to be involved. It is becoming a contagious disease to control.

Best way to say bye bye to fear, may be, to be, what you are, without comparing with others to invite more unwanted trouble and long lasting sense of insecurity. Limit of satisfaction is the best medicine in many cases, to be less fear oriented, because fear does not give safe passage. One day fear becomes source  to   dare.

Life Around Something

When you get something, you think big to excell. When you loose someone you think big to excell. Our lives swing like pendulum between something and someone. This philosophy of life is lone controlling factor
of all activities in the world.

The something instigates  life, one by one, towards completion, but it is never completed and remains alive for something more. That’s why we are struggling with ourselves for something.

The good or bad histories of the world are the results of such somethings. The present days prevailing activities in the world –  corruption, fight for supremacy, economic war, environmental issues, lobbying etc.  are because of this something more. This something may also be desire, encouragement, zeal, enjoyment, greed, and cause of all sorts of social vices.

Something is responsibility. Above all something is essential element of life. Actually something is Carrier for nothing.
In pursuit of something from childhood to adulthood and old age, one day life says goodbye forever. When the someone leaves for unknown place, something is left here in this world, in hands of others, craving for  something. This departure changes the  course of thinking upto highest level of disillusionment. Life appears to be meaningless for something. This is the ultimate truth beyond something.

We should enjoy beginning of life from something to departure from life to unknown. The end of life is imminent. Nothing is permanent. This thought if prevails, the world may become heaven and lust for something may be need based. We may act for salvation. Peace may spread. World may be a global family, caring each other as the God wants.

Competition is bone of contention. We only think all these at funeral ground and after that the world moves on, never stops. We indulge into daily course of existence because we are learned fools. This is the real fact.

In modern time, something is getting more importance as the life is changing to show business knowingly or unknowingly beyond truth. We have reached upto the level of false status symbol expressions, that every one has been  competitor of self. There is need or not but I will tell about myself because I have something to show. But it is to be judged. Sometimes smiling face has hidden griefs. The fake one appears as real due to something.

Something motivates for more and more and controls all activities the world over but someone shows the reality of world. The choice is personal – something or  someone. Both are separate  but sail in the same boat in the river of life.

We should respect and enjoy someone with something within pleasant limits, in true sense, to  create heaven on the earth