Human-made life cycle- a story

I was indebted to time to face the changes in my life. I was accepting the truth of life that day when my only son was to leave for abroad after attending the last rites of my wife, who was with me for about a golden jubilee period. He knew that I would be alone in that mere house, which was a sweet home because of his mother, so he emphasised me to be careful regarding diet and health. I knew that my bird had flown forever with the memory of the past.

I had a memory of three generations, sufficient to recall – my childhood with grandparents and parents and life with a devoted wife who was in the photo then, leaving me alone. She had broken her promise to be with me forever to take a last breath together. It was not in our control and time again proved to be a strong ruler.

We had been married at the time when the country was taking strides towards growth and development, to be at par with other developed countries. In those days, a boy, either having a government job or remarkable ancestral properties, was considered suitable for marriage. She came into my life because of my job. We played the music of time together and wrote many memorable chapters for ancestors and self. One day, she wrote a beautiful living chapter to add one baby to the new generation, endangering her life, to be complete to pay the debts of our forefathers.

Time was not waiting for anyone or anything. But many things were changing and many old concepts had paved the way for new thinking, controlled by the outcomes of developments. We were also affected. Those villages, where we grew up and saw less selfishness in relationships, appeared to be unattractive, unhealthy, and backwards, as compared to growing cities. We visited our villages on certain occasions to complete rituals but decided to restrict ourselves to cities for the sake of our son, and better education and infrastructure. My parents never lived with us for a long time due to the village’s attraction and we could not leave the city because of our son’s better future. My parents, one by one, left the world forever for the unseen world and our joint family disintegrated into a nuclear family. All brothers and sisters were scattered in the country in pursuit of a better life and the village’s population had declined. We all met occasionally. Our children could not get time to mingle and they became unknown to each other. Our interests, with the passage of time, became detrimental to many established thoughts and we tried to be part of the show business of society.

We were developing. The wheel of progress was moving. The self-contained time passed at the same pace. One day, our son got admission, in the desired subject, to the top-ranking institute in the country. He left the home for his wings to fly. I got a promotion in my job with more responsibilities and less time for my family. The son was away. I was involved mostly both in the office and at home, paying the price of the job responsibilities. My wife, who had her life for us, became alone in that big home, which was her heaven. She became silent. Her smile was occasional. One day, she lost all hopes to be together again when our son declared his decision to go abroad for a lucrative job. We tried to convince him to stay in the country but he became prey to the brain drain.

History repeated the self. Our son had left the country for a good job. I had left my village for the city for a better pasture. We both had the same attitudes but in different ways. We, barring our parents, became part of the crowd. The development and desire to excel consumed relations. The stories were the same but the scene was affected differently. We were in the nearby city to our village and could go regularly to meet our parents but, in our case, that was not possible. That condition affected my wife the most. It was aggravated by my job’s condition. It had not permitted me more time for family, as if the company was fully dependent on me. My wife became very alone, only active to complete her duties for me. She became very silent.

My home had been a hotel for me and she had been a statue. One day, I analysed my financial needs and decided to leave the job for ourselves. But my request was rejected by the authorities. Even my application for leave was not accepted. I could not give more time to her. One day, her condition deteriorated and she was hospitalised for treatment. All symptoms were related to her anxieties. I knew the reason and called the son to be with her for some days. She recovered fast and I got my wife back in normal condition.

I asked, rather than requesting my son to continue here forever, for his mother. But he logically and diplomatically expressed his helplessness. Once again, history repeated itself when he told that we settled in the city due to a lack of basic needs related to infrastructure. That was also applicable in his case on a larger scale. He recalled the memory of difficulties in getting the work done in various offices. There were no facilities as compared to his present country of stay. I smiled to know the change in attitude. He said that he had seen venomous political debates on channels of TV, wherein everyone tried to be right, dividing the society on various grounds and having strategies for the growth of the country. Most of them had changed political parties many times. Their principles had changed for getting tickets in elections. People did not have traffic sense and respect for children and aged persons on the roads. Ease of living norms was not present even after so many years.

I could not admire his analysis. I guessed that his stay was not possible because of his experiences in a new country. I took a chance to convince him. I recalled the thinking and analytical potentials of our ancestors and valuable literature, full of findings, related to all walks of life from nature to the universe to the almighty, given to the world. Those were useful in the present day also. Because of those abilities, we had the qualities to excel. When opportunities knocked, we grabbed them but other countries were using us in the form of a brain drain, alluring us, as the money mattered and facilities attracted. We had many things to give to the world as a family. Everyone is looking towards our country for peace and cultural richness. You might be missing there in a new country.

I accepted his denial to continue as the fate and destiny of my wife. We, as parents, blessed him with a bright life ahead. I had seen waves deep in the eyes of my wife while kissing the head of her son. She missed him a lot. I took voluntary retirement after continuous persuasion to look after her. We had a memory as treasures.

The success of our son in life had bought pleasure and recognition in society. We were judged as the best parents. We had seen proud moments and now we were facing problems. After a few years, my wife left me alone. She, at the last time, was seeing towards the door, waiting for her son. Her son came to attend her last rites, but he was worried about me. I was thankful for his concern but he could not continue in this country. I was not having hope anymore.

After his departure, I enquired in many institutions and old age homes about my stay for the rest of my life. I realised, for the first time, the plights of old people in society. In our youth phase, I gave priority to hay days and forgot about doomsday. I was alone with many problems. Developments took their toll. I felt that life was not financial management controlled by fund managers but it needed a highly devoted service manager. Money in the bank’s account chided me. I assumed the conditions of my parents, the last time when I had become a parent.

We should not forget

We always like to listen to the good over the bad. Why? It is nature – I guess the reply. Should it be? As a human – yes. We do not want to meet the bad. But bad gives a lesson. We may analyze our strengths, and weaknesses and prepare ourselves to face the music. Our experience becomes relief measures for others. What after that? What should we remember? What should we forget? I know the reply – remembering the good, useful and pleasure-giving things and memories. But forgetting the bad, hurting and displeasing moments are peace-giving, life-saving and adding life to relationships.

We always act as a sieve to filter and separate useful things. What after that? Is it possible to be choosy? Again the reply guessed is ” no”. Sometimes everything is required whether friendly or not. May we complete the cycle of happenings without the combination of those? Never is the reply. Then by nature, we think of favourites only. What after that? This question is endless and chases up to infinity. After that what? I think all assumptions are competitive to influence all creatures. I think, when we forget ourselves, we procreate. Seeds change into trees to procreate. But this change is inevitable and needs to be forgotten. This forgetting is admirable and is the first step toward continuity and sustainability.
In our day-to-day life, we have options of bad and forgetting others. Selfishly heaven is imagined in these attitudes.

Most of the time we say that we should not or you should not forget. It will be better to say that we should remember. Whenever someone says that you should forget anything, the attention of the listener is lost why do give stress to things to be forgotten? But it is a mistake.

When we start our lives on earth, everything is new and our elders emphasise remembering all. So our habit is to remember. This word plays a role throughout life in every field. But the word ” forget ” reminds us of unwanted things and the addition of another negative word ” not ” makes it hammering. In long run, we forget many things. We have forgotten many good things about our ancestors and for our convenience, we term them as superstitions. Many of those superstitions related to children, morality, knowledge, food habits, nature, environment and behaviours are being found to be scientifically true, after spending time and lots of money. In modern times we have superstitions, but mostly for luck. We have forgotten many old sayings, short stories and proverbs. A number of stories are related to the origin of those sayings and proverbs and the moral of stories gives good lessons to remember for life. Earlier education was not well spread, so such superstitions were a kind of education to remember. We may get many fairy tales, short stories and stories on animals giving lessons to children on moralities, behaviours, emotions and all aspects of life.

When the sense of ” not forgetting ” overshadows memories we may not get the best out of everyone. We may give priorities to shorter and lower levels of services for aplomb. We are witnessing deterioration everywhere. In construction, we are finding weak buildings, forgetting the history of our historical strong buildings. Why? Because we are having less time for history as we pretend to be too busy in this modern, materialistic time for our comfort and selfishness. We are going away from our roots.

I may say this is a mistake of our decision-takers having short-sightedness without considering indirect effects on other aspects of life, the environment and natural things. Our basic education system is firstly towards not forgetting, leading to scoring and passing the exams for livelihoods. We have little knowledge of our ancestors’ glorious history of development. Someone not, but many groups are taking benefit of this ” not remembering ” and dividing society into various sections, for their causes of establishing their truths. They are getting success. But problems have started with resistance to new truths and the spread of old stories.

Better late than never. This saying’s lesson should be considered to save the ” remembering ” from repenting later on spilt milk. Time and tide wait for none and someone will grind his or her axe. He or She is advancing like a tortoise. So we should keep vigil. Our praise of achievements is no self-recommendation. But who will cross the rubicon? We should be careful and sniff like a dog to identify imminent problems. We should start timely as one stitch in time saves nine. We should not forget rather we should remember. Remember to coordinate. Remember to cooperate. Remember to excel together.

Checking

As we grow, the tendency of checking develops, and as such that it becomes a habit in long run. It starts from a safety point of view and finally becomes unchecked, in nature. In childhood, everything remains good until a child gains strength and starts using two legs to take the first step to tread the world. The child becomes like a vehicle without brakes. The first step is always encouraged and admired by all. But the moment a child starts using the brain to think and expresses curiosity to learn and touch because everything is new, unknown and amazing, the checking starts. For a child, rope and snake are the same. A child gets attention and parents become over-conscious about the security of the child and the loss of valuable materials. It is ensured that all things should be beyond the reach of a child. Though the intention is very clear that the child may touch, engulf, get hurt and damage things, attention gets top priority. But this habit of continuous checking has psychological effects on a child in the overall development and gives mostly negative results. The situation becomes worse when a caretaker is posted for this purpose for a child because the effects of checking may be multiplied as the appointee may become extra conscious of the secured self’s service. Ultimately, because of this, the interest of the child is not properly developed. We should enjoy childhood by reasonably checking, what we don’t remember due to forgetting. They should be treated friendly to prepare for the changing world.

Children are always children. They need directions and channelling of vibrant energy along with checking for their benefits. Let them be children till they start learning worldly vices.

Such encounter with checking in the name of prohibitions from the beginning of life in day-to-day work becomes a habit when we grow. We face in life more checkings than permissions in the name of society, moralities, discipline, religions, status and culture etc.

The method of checkings may be different at different places but the aim is the same everywhere- safety, security discipline and good governance etc. – to live and let live. In checking, the law of the land is supreme and for that different departments with defined responsibilities in government offices, legal courts and vigilant agencies are established.

Apart from these, there is moral policing of social contractors, checking social life and morality, according to age-old traditions. They go to any extent in the name of cleaning society. One step ahead, religious preachers and teachers impose their checking norms on the respective communities to strictly stick to laid down rules without fail. They have their concepts developed and concluded from the prevailing thoughts of religion to hold supremacy in society. They may define every single word of religious books to check and inculcate the community. They may go to any extent in this regard, in the name of competition with each other to influence and make new followers to satiate their thirst to impose restrictions on all, in the name of heaven and God.

Sometimes, these moral policing and religious thinking are playing roles of checking above the law of land and are used by political parties to grab the seats to form a government. They add fuel to the fire. This type of stringent checking is a serious threat to unforeseen consequences in future, where self will be above nation and law.

We may not reach on conclusion in the name of liberty that checking should not be there at any stage. But we should understand that we are not wild animals and the law of the jungle ( forest ) may not be allowed in civil society. Otherwise, life will be hell and we will be worse than animals with developed brains. Civic sense should prevail.

Checking is the essential devil for certain essential requirements for all without distinction, based on age, caste, creed, community and religion. Hardliners must be checked at every stage and place for the sake of humanity, social justice, peace, growth and security of the nation.

Checking pervert thinking and teaching must draw attention before they pollute the whole system. We should check before declaring OK for all concerned.

Twin Questions

I have many questions causing a high degree of depression. I have medicine for that but I do not have treatment for that. If I accept the present, I am okay. If I think of myself and my life, I find that my journey starts from knowing about my whereabouts which is not seen but imagined.

I have read many suggestions and different views in literature on life’s real journey. But in this world, I am having an independent identity, so I have to have my responsibility for this mission. I have benefited from doubts from earlier experiences. I know that I have infinity as a route and the present-day GPS ( GLOBAL POSITIONING SYSTEM ) can not assist. Our end is the new beginning and our beginning is the pleasant movement toward the end. I think that the end is more important in this journey. The vital question in this quest is of the starting point, to begin with. Who am I? Where have I come from? Where will I go? I again took the support of our ancestors’ views and thinking in this search for the truth of life. The time is the ladder taking towards refinement in thinking for these questions and doubts.

I have a name given by my parents. That is my identity to deal with in the journey of life in this materialistic and mortal world. The achievements in this journey are outcomes of my actions. I accept them as my destiny. But the questions of life remain unanswered and always alive. The search for their answers continues till last. I may guess that the limit of my speculation is beyond real answers. Even the great developments in scientific fields are unable to reach any conclusion. Science has found many answers to the secrets of nature and the universe. Science has become a creator in many aspects like God. But l think that the answers to my twin questions are in the black holes of the almighty. These black holes are invisible to scientific developments. May I imagine that all games of the almighty start from black holes? These are beyond the capacity of eyes to capture, as we may not listen to sounds after certain limits of frequency. So, I think all games of almighty may only be guessed as per individual’s limit.

Everything in the lap of the almighty is invisible. The path of our journey is through the physical body. We start from invisible through invisible in the dark place, to begin with. But I think life’s journey begins from and ends in the black holes of the almighty.

The day science will be the creator by such types of black holes the answers to my twin questions may be recorded. Till then scientific principles of the origins of both life and the universe hold acceptable barring religious theories because for the whole life of our existences and livelihoods we accept the scientific approaches in our answers in all exams.

We remain busy our whole life and forget to address many realities of life. At last, we feel frustrated and try to pass the time willy-nilly. I think that till that day of the conclusion of my twin questions, HUMANITY should get the upper hand in the world because everyone is important and has been destined to do jobs. No one is perfect and needs proper respect and support. We may bring heaven on earth like that.

Till that day of getting answers to my twin questions of life and death, we should not forget that God is the only controller of all activities. Visible and invisible are instruments of his music. But we may not listen because we are limited. We are smaller than a drop in his ocean of secrets and our knowledge is like a tiny island to boost having a niche in his world. We should not boast of that.

Life Like Sand

May I give thought to myself? I don’t want to disturb you every time. You are precious. But I do not know whether your time is yours or not. I think I should not know everything about everyone. This may cause psychological disorders and I may forget many things which need my attention for exploration of this world. Firstly, I have to explore myself. If I meet success in this journey, I have worth. But who will decide my success? I may have a series of questions. Decisions should be free of all encumbrances. Is it possible? Is it like art or creativity that everyone has something to deliver controlled by one’s concepts? Concepts do come from where? Who does give concept? What is the basis? It is sure that someone has deep exploratory thinking and gives some concepts. We accept that to avoid confusion as we do in examinations in student life. We write the accepted concepts to pass them. We may not give our thoughts because time remains limited and knowledge has to be assessed for future rat races. We are like lamb and think unidirectional. We may not think of compartments, to make whole. The system never allows us to be independent and to be ourselves. So when we start thinking of ourselves, it becomes too late in life. We spend maximum time analyzing others, both critically and affectionately depending upon relations or our comfortable approaches. We aim to get favour from every resource. We become selfish and forget ourselves.

I think we are having inner shadows veiling our realities, which may give more to the prevailing concepts. We may not get rid of such shadows until we have time for ourselves. I think creativity requires privacy, corner and zero disturbance. Life is not a business that may be sold with a sweet audible slogan. There may be an investment and someone is the investor. I think that the almighty is an investor. The almighty invested in us. He never asks for anything in return but only loves. Love of speaking truth, love of kindness, love of pardon and above all, love for each other. I think if we love each other we may explore anything. We don’t need someone to teach us, love. The best teacher, I think is a baby who loves unconditionally, not willing anything from everyone except the mother who is a multiplier of love. I think so. Mother does with love, in love, for continuity of love of hope of exploring the meaning of life someday by son or daughter of almighty. Mother is a path. Mother is a link between the invisible and visible worlds.

Love is an accepted fact for peace we should not spoil time and love each other. I think this is the only way to know oneself. The almighty will be more generous to bless us in this life. Firstly, one should judge self and assess others later. Life is like sand, not holdable at a fist. One should not wait and watch for others to take lead.

Helplessness

Grief is my grievance.
Wealth is my mirage.
Wage is my incentive.
Pleasure is my flower.
Peace is my need.
The fight is my end.
Might is my dedication.
Honesty is my friend.
Jealous is my degradation.
Anger is my downfall.
Justice is my right.
Defeat is my firmness.
Failure is my path.
Comfort is my superstition.
Laziness is my enemy.
Proudness is my confusion.
Greed is my illusion.
Lust is my continuity.
Senses are my hindrance.
Knowledge is my weakness.
Wisdom is my foolishness.
Tension is my earning.
Wish is my loneliness.
Fear is my hurdle.
Word is my condition.
Expression is my emotion.
The mood is my sedition.
Truth is my problem.
Thought is my revolution.
The decision is my resistance.
Growth is my temporary phase.
Love is my will.
Generosity is my life.
Worshipping is my belief.
Religion is my faith.

I am sinking and the world is interpreting me like that. I am loosing my chance and the world is advancing like that. I am meeting the challenges and the world is changing. I am moving and the world is fixing like that. I am revealing and the world is assessing me like that. I am meaning and the world is reacting like that.

I am in the hand of the world. I am in the hand of circumstances. I want to be your pet my almighty. Here people hate living ones and love dead people. I am alive so they don’t love me. Their selfless love is nothing but show. Their respect is positional in working and conditional in notions. Their religions are situational and used as weapons of love and hate. Their worship is far from you – the reality. Greatness is their hidden agenda. You are divided. We are divided. I am helpless. May almighty make everything only one to avoid any conflict. May the world be in God’s reset mode.   

Am I unbiased?

It is but natural that I pretend to be unbiased. It is also natural that it is not true. NATURE has the only option for survival of the fittest as a selection procedure. The weaker one succumbs. So unbiased is not possible. Hence, for survival, I am biased too.

It started early in childhood when I got the full support of my parents to know the facts of life for survival. Because my parents knew that the world would give the opportunity through competition for selection of path to excel but in a biased manner to maintain the quality and ecological balance in the society. So, I made myself intelligent enough to fool as unbiased but in a biased manner for survival.

Present days world’s configuration concerning the difference in social and economic developments, various religious and political thoughts etc., is due to unbiased business for mankind in the name of humanity but in a biased manner. We are divided but unbiased. It is a true but pleasure-giving fictitious and deceiving concept for inviting trouble to humankind. Even the world’s written history, whether ancient, medieval or modern may not be unbiased. All are written based on available resources which might have been influenced by the then mighty and biased kings, rulers and administration or by the interests, helplessness and nature of the writers too. This possibility may not be ruled out in any Era because we are human and need survival with comforts. Sometimes, the sword guides the pen. Indeed might is right. It is always true and applicable everywhere. In modern times, we may notice it from local to national to international level.

This quality is necessary for existence in God’s created universe. So, I am unbiased for the goodness of all in the present requirements, every time which waits for none and its opportunity knocks at the door but once-in-a-lifetime. Time and tide wait for none. I could not avoid being unbiased for self’s biased attitudes. I am too biased to be unbiased.

I think there should be some norms in various fields of life to assess the unbiased and biased nature of all. In nature, we may assess the effects and actions of natural agents in the history of earth based on their present-day’s activities. I think they are unbiased in their attitudes. Such is not the case in the human kingdom. Humans’ actions, most of the time, are biased in the present day. So, this might have been the case in the history of humans. Since humans have developed brains capable to think,  conspire and do many things, they may articulate their activities in a sophisticated manner, hiding biased attitudes with the help of modern technologies and developments. The intensities and magnitudes might be different more or less with the anticipated results of somewhat same types as existed earlier in the old time.

Our attitudes may not be exactly interpreted by humans or machines but only God may know our nature of the biased or unbiased category because he is to settle our scores of doings in his created materialistic world. He is the only player who is always unbiased to impart deserving fruits of one’s actions. 

Me of Mine

I have “me” in myself. This me of mine is the root cause of all types of greed, distress and diseases.

When I was an infant, I was with my mother only. I always wanted to be with her only. She was my world for everything.
She was my life jacket in the world of problems from my first day on this earth. I learned to swim in this oceanic world under the supervision of my mother. She was my heaven. I was only comfortable with her.

   When first time I was sent to school I felt alone. My troubles started with learning the first letter of the alphabet in my mother tongue. I started facing worldly vices. My mother made me acquainted with such affairs and gave me lessons to cope with them.

One day my mother left me alone in this world for her invisible journey to another world. I became an orphan and easy prey to all nuances of society. I turned from good to bad and from bad to worse and worst.  I forgot to control my tongue and master the time for the sake of me. I could not behave like a sieve to be like a sage.

I was always right on the wrong side. Earlier, I had searched for myself in my mother but now without my mother, I had been a demon with harming tendencies. All earlier teachings were futile. I changed as per my needs and became more selfish. I had lost myself in me.

My love for myself had been a curse later in life. I wanted to regret and regain my childhood notions and thoughts. I wanted my mother to be with me again. But this was not possible.

I did not know the history of souls. My mind had a plethora of thoughts like waves in the ocean. I wanted to use my waves for me and for peace in life. I had recalled my mother’s teaching, –  “the new path starts from where you become helpless and confused about life and devote yourself to the almighty. Then he takes care.”

I have surrendered to almighty for his shelter. This time my me is not for myself but for selflessness. My me has submerged into almighty. I have restricted myself to a minimum for living and requirements. My thoughts start with him and end with him – the almighty. My me is for your cause.

Now I am yours. Sorry, I have never asked – ” how are you “? I am pity on myself for losing you. My repentance may please be accepted for me.   

Engagement

We have divided day and night into twenty-four hours. We have most of these times for ourselves. Even then, we think of some engagement for the rest of the time we feel free. The rest of the time is a main controlling enzyme of the quality of life we lead. This controls the “me” time of an individual for the whole life.

Everyone has complete time for themselves in childhood. That time decreases as the age grows but twenty-four hours of day and night remain static. Everyone has to adjust the life every day within this stipulated duration. The making or devastation of life depends on self-controlled activities. So the activities should be well planned considering all  prospects. If they are governed by moral values, the future of individuals and society, in turn, will be progressive, free of all sorts of shortcomings. Otherwise, the reverse is also possible in life, due to immoral practices.

The moment selfishness overshadows all positive norms, the trouble starts, greediness occupies front seats and life becomes hell. These types of thoughts ruin the present and future of family and society.

The past of life is mainly influenced by the behaviours and attitudes of parents, friends and relatives. The best of those should be taken for building the life in the present. This legacy is passed on like that from generation to generation. The dominance of positivity in actions, emotions and attitudes etc. makes life heaven and peace prevails in the surrounding. The godly environment inculcates thoughts – live and let live- everywhere. There may always be additions in life. This type of engagement we may get from religious thoughts.

Engagements should be both professional and personal. Personal engagements, controlled by mental ability and maturity, give direction to all types of engagements. Professional engagements give means to survive and do good for society. Purposeful life depends on both in the changing world.

Sitting idle without ideals is harmful. Engagement is a must. Otherwise, life will be like stagnant water. Stagnant water becomes rotten. Thinking, for the betterment of humanity, should be a continuous process with respect to developments. Short goals pave the path for large goals. These are steps on a stair to reach on top to see the world and give return gifts to the society which has given opportunities and meaning to one’s life.
What the world, we find at present, is built by deep thoughts of ancestors in a progressive manner. We should have similar types of thoughts for engagements.

The negative thoughts may ruin self-life. Selfless is always better than selfishness. The present is the gate to the future. The present demands utmost utilization. What we sow so we reap. The fruit of action may not be personal.

Engagement is extremely private and a privilege of every individual. But its effects may be long-lasting. We may take a few qualities from nature’s creatures for timely engagements. Engagement is the necessary content of life. We should be engaged both mentally and professionally. Engagements as per interests fetch pleasures and satisfactions. The best engagement is forgetting self for others’ welfare. Even God loves it as the first step towards salvation.

Gratitude

I am not creator. I am contributor. I have always expressed my gratitude in my applications, written to the appealing authorities with selfish professionalism to extract favour from their arrogance, in  holding a God like position, in their senses.
Professionalism is always for the self first. I have done all this for my self growth and for satisfying my ego. My ego has been a driving force in my professional journey. It has shown me both short and long paths to tread in this journey of life. I opted the path as per situational demand.

I think my sense of gratitude was not by heart, so it never gave me happiness after any achievement. I was deceiting my self. I had many companions in my professional journey, posing as my well wishers in front of me. But they used to dig  my grave behind me for their egos. That was also a way of showing gratitude.

So, I understand that gratitude is a vehicle that carries everyone’s ego forward. The result of ego may be in positive or in negative, affecting the progress of units of executions. Rest lies in the hand of destiny.
Destiny is torch bearer. It is  controlled  by almighty. It is said that one can change destiny but that is also in control of almighty.

So, I think my sincere gratitude is to almighty. In my journey of life, I show my heartiest gratitude to all who have brought smile and happiness for me without expecting anything. My sincere gratitude in reality is for those who gave me experiences through their behaviours and attitudes. They have prepared me for odds and made me bold for existence. I reveal my gratitude and indebtedness to nature who has taken care of everything for my life. I have no sense of gratitude for my parents because I may not be selfish for them. My all thoughts end with them. They are my beginning and they are my termination. The lap wherein I got love,  peace, security, safety and learned lessons of life has no suitable word in any language of the world for measuring and expressing gratitude. I may reserve my will above all for them. I always miss them. My mother is above all and her lap is above God’s heaven. So, all my gratitude are to everyone visible or invisible in life’s journey.
May I give gratitude to me for always being me. I do am, my destiny. My gratitude is to destiny.