Me of Mine

I have “me” in myself. This me of mine is the root cause of all types of greed, distress and diseases.

When I was an infant, I was with my mother only. I always wanted to be with her only. She was my world for everything.
She was my life jacket in the world of problems from my first day on this earth. I learned to swim in this oceanic world under the supervision of my mother. She was my heaven. I was only comfortable with her.

   When first time I was sent to school I felt alone. My troubles started with learning the first letter of the alphabet in my mother tongue. I started facing worldly vices. My mother made me acquainted with such affairs and gave me lessons to cope with them.

One day my mother left me alone in this world for her invisible journey to another world. I became an orphan and easy prey to all nuances of society. I turned from good to bad and from bad to worse and worst.  I forgot to control my tongue and master the time for the sake of me. I could not behave like a sieve to be like a sage.

I was always right on the wrong side. Earlier, I had searched for myself in my mother but now without my mother, I had been a demon with harming tendencies. All earlier teachings were futile. I changed as per my needs and became more selfish. I had lost myself in me.

My love for myself had been a curse later in life. I wanted to regret and regain my childhood notions and thoughts. I wanted my mother to be with me again. But this was not possible.

I did not know the history of souls. My mind had a plethora of thoughts like waves in the ocean. I wanted to use my waves for me and for peace in life. I had recalled my mother’s teaching, –  “the new path starts from where you become helpless and confused about life and devote yourself to the almighty. Then he takes care.”

I have surrendered to almighty for his shelter. This time my me is not for myself but for selflessness. My me has submerged into almighty. I have restricted myself to a minimum for living and requirements. My thoughts start with him and end with him – the almighty. My me is for your cause.

Now I am yours. Sorry, I have never asked – ” how are you “? I am pity on myself for losing you. My repentance may please be accepted for me.   

Cooperation

Everyone has a separate entity, but the existence and continuity need cooperation. It is the primary requirement. One may think of being independent but should be aware that the beginning of life, in humans, demands cooperation. God has made the most developed creature- humans as such –  the most dependent, on each other and nature too.

Cooperation is the soul of the universe. Living and nonliving creatures are dependent on each other. Exchange and exploration vitally play roles in existence. The origin of life on earth became possible only because of cooperation among various essential factors. The same principles still hold.

In nature, ecosystems exist and cooperate for continuity and sustainability. We may observe that birds while eating fruits on trees, take care of living things like insects and ants etc. on the ground by falling some parts of the fruits they eat. If we explore we may get many instances of cooperation for coexistence in nature. In general, nothing is useless for nature. But humans have forgotten the need for cooperation for existence because of technological changes and consider themselves more powerful than nature. They are challenging the rules of balance of nature and the main principle of – live and let live – for their own needs. Nature can take care of all but follows paths of cooperation. We should not forget that in Sanatan Dharma ( Sanatan religion) our ancestors have made rituals to distribute a part of daily meals among birds, animals and others like fish etc. They had explored the importance and need for cooperation.

It is time for humans to be careful and vigilant to avoid extinction at last. We may develop. We may change the course of rivers. We may move on Moon and Mars. We may try to know the life in the universe, elsewhere. We may be the most powerful but we are the weakest creatures on earth. We should not forget that an ant may kill a much bigger and stronger elephant.

God has given unique qualities to humans to excel in but with limits. The moment humans make advancements in the name of progress, the matter of existence get worsens in future. God has made humans strong but emotionally controlled and needy for living.

Humans need the most from nature. We may not dictate terms and conditions to nature. We have to be cooperative as borrowers and not as scavengers for nature’s favouritism.  Cooperation may not be snatched. It needs devotion, sacrifice,  compromise and coordination from all and sundry.

My shadow

Because of me and myself, I have a shadow. My shadow is best companion of me in day or in light. It is black and unseen in dark. I have virtual shadow in night. My shadow increases and decreases in size owing to source and distance of light. I may have many shadows as per number of sources of light. I am in grief that I may not have shadow in dark and in the sky. I may not give colours to it.

My shadow helps me alone in deciding many things. I get knowledge of directions and probable distance of source of light except the distance of Sun. My shadow always has its identity, except one time it has lost its identity informing me because shadow- shadow interaction began for third shadow. Now my shadow is not in my control.


My shadow has no life but has the philosophy of life. Outer shadow needs outer source of light but inner shadow needs own enlightenment because problems of world are due to internal shadow. Our attitudes, thoughts, actions and interactions are controlled by this shadow. My physical shadow shows directions and distance but inner shadow makes blind and covers self consciousness. Inner shadow is limited to self body, but affects the surroundings. I have to search peace. I have to spare me from immoral things. I have to be immortal from mortality. I have to be selfless. I have to be of use for others. I have to leave arrogance. I have to search and follow truth. I have to overcome my inner shadow for all these changes. Every thing is within.

My outer shadow will not be with me forever but inner shadow may make my life heavenly on earth. I have to meet a path shower guru ( teacher ). I have to do noble deeds. I have to be me first, for others.

I read books. I got confused. Every book had its limitation. No book was complete in itself. Some books were for allurements. Some books were self praising.

Ultimately, I have a thought and concluded as under – that worldly duties should be performed in pious manner without harming anyone. I can change the world but I have to change first. Smiling face, soft words, and ready to help attitudes give peace and make life easy. Only deed should speak. Name should be used for identity and not for boasting. No one will carry any thing at the time of departure from this world. So attitude of hoarding should be beyond mind. Opportunities should be shared and needy should get first preference. Everyone should respect each other and should behave as servant, not the master.

All these are possible but inner shadow should be in control through fact finding and removing all greedy attitudes. One should have faith in self. Nothing is mine forever. Everyone is important. Everyone is a tourist in the world and is on tourist visa for  certain  duration. If I help someone, it means I have helped myself. Such attitudes  may be sufficient for control of inner shadow’s hunger. I am ready to bear the fruits of my deeds. I have hope. I have to Judge myself, other may not truly judge me. May God bless me and my soul rest in peace on earth and in heaven.

I know that God is great but I have to give him the chance.

FEAR

Fear has a natural and universal existence. Everyone may fear as if it is a permanent  pandemic. The  virus of this quality exists in every creature of nature. Perhaps no-one is spared from it.

There may be many types of fear as per the situation and condition. How can one guess, the time of start of any fear and its lasting? There may be descriptions in the concerned subject at length. But for me it starts since birth, related with existence and survival.

We are always in growing stage and fear changes according to expectations of self and society. We always face the challenges of proving self upto the mark.

The great fear may be from childish attitudes to study to delivering results to tolerance to family to social life etc. If you succumb at any time, the ready made judgement of failure or looser  will be your trade mark. No one will wait for your explanation until you again prove yourself.
One thing is common for all types of fear that every fear, ultimately, is directed towards one or self.

We always have fear of losing- self, friends, members of family, parents, relatives, health, wealth, near and dear ones and other important things. We may regain health and wealth but loss of persons is not like migratory birds those will come back repeatedly in particular season. It is natural and beyond our control. Such fear may lead to depression and ruin life. Others have consolation and nothing else to share to be useful in formulating strategies to get rid off load.

Fear is not a crime. It may give strength and opportunity to analyze  and overcome whatsoever may be, if it does not occupy the gigantic size, to be diagnosed as disease. We know nothing is  permanent. We also know there is no limit for maximum. So limit of satisfactions has to be fixed by individual as yardstick. We may overcome worldly fear like that.

If everything is going smoothly and is favorable then fear of maintenance and continuity complicate the things. Hence, it is very difficult to get rid off sense of fear. It will always remain together, in any form, as shadow. We should accept and try to learn its message to be ready for all odds.
We may always have sense of insecurity. So fear will continue till the last breath. Mental strength will make us feel better and more comfortable because fear is part and parcel of life.

If  fear is not there, we fear from unseen power. Most of the religious leaders describe it as God’s fear – the most powerful. It has self understood categorisation and trust, to be involved. It is becoming a contagious disease to control.

Best way to say bye bye to fear, may be, to be, what you are, without comparing with others to invite more unwanted trouble and long lasting sense of insecurity. Limit of satisfaction is the best medicine in many cases, to be less fear oriented, because fear does not give safe passage. One day fear becomes source  to   dare.