What is mine

The sense of belonging may be considered the universal truth. This sense is the bonding for togetherness. This sense has repercussions on the development of thoughts of ownership, conservation and preservation.

Those who pretend as relinquishers also have interests. I have in my memory the childhood story told by my beloved and handsome grandfather. I was a very stubborn child and used to cry about not getting the desired toys or anything till I got it. I was not knowing to give or share anything, even with my siblings. Then, it had been by habit. One day the same thing was in progress, but this time my grandfather was not in the mood to succumb to my habit. He took me to a house where a child was playing with self-made local and cheap toys given by his father who was not as wealthy as my grandfather was, it appeared. The boy was very happy and invited me to play with him. I played with him in the open ground, ran all around and learned a lot about sharing and giving. I was happy that day. Still, I remember, that my grandfather did not say a single word. I had got a lesson that sharing had real joy. After a few days, I was given another lesson that I came on this earth with nothing in hand and whatever I had, were earlier others’ belongings. So nothing was mine.

We get nothing from ownership of worldly materials but temporary satisfactions followed by cravings for another item. It is a never-ending process. Though we know all from our forefathers we forget it in the nick of time. Any power gets the work done.

We may compare ourselves to the construction of a building. We get construct buildings at selected sites with the erection of frames having holding and sustainability capacity with a particular life period of existence. We construct buildings for different purposes and uses. Accordingly interior of a building is designed which may differ from each other. The tastes of the master and members of the family are also reflected.
At last, after all, worldliness, the fate of a building depends upon the nature of its dwellers and other unexpected situations. But who is the owner of that house? In an actual sense, everyone is the owner because ownership is passed on from one to another at a suitable time. The house is one but the master changes so no one is the owner but everyone is the owner.

Likewise is the case with all of us. The almighty, before whom we all have to surrender someday, indicates that we are having none of our will to say something or do anything without his permission.
He has put the soul in a strong frame of a skeleton with an outer protecting skin cover and many functional systems comprising several organs fitted within the frame. Some of the systems are functional from birth while some become functional at a particular, appropriate time of need and age. The control of all systems is coded in a complicated brain which makes everyone different from each other in behaviours, compassion, submission and protection etc. All scientific developments have not reached the level of solving the complex structure of the controller’s brain. It is a simple looking most complicated structure of almighty.

When a simple creation of God may control the whole body’s systems then think of the unimaginative power of God in controlling the world. We may think of other creatures of God and should be thankful to him for the fraction of controlling power given to us. But alas! this gift of the body is not permanent and is taken back by the almighty at the defined time prescribed by him. The time of departure may or may not be the same for everyone but it is certainly played.

At last, my body is not mine. I am a custodian of it. Then what is mine? Why am I involved in worldly affairs? Why are all these show businesses of might, fight and supremacy? The almighty knows and enjoys.

Once again I am remembering the story told by my grandfather when I was a stubborn child. Nothing is mine.
I have come into the world without anything and will leave it with nothing. I have come from the invisible and I will return to the invisible. Whatever role I play is not written by me but is being played by me and written by a controller, the God.

Is soul mine? The Indian Sanatan religion in the pious book, “the Gita” says that the soul is also because of the almighty. So the soul is also not mine. Whatever, I do, all because of that almighty. Then what is mine? Nothing is mine but everything is mine for satisfaction and happiness for a short duration.

I am grateful to almighty that nothing is mine. Everything and everyone is from him and for him. I am at his disposal. He is my master and I am free of all encumbrances. May God bless all.

My Experience with Truth

I have had alarming experiences, in many aspects of life, with my growth in age and growing needs. But my experience with truth has a special place because it was compromising with the situation, despite having respect for morality. I have regrets for me revealing the facts that I have compelled myself many times to get the favour from virtual truth, in fact, the untruth.

I have followed the concept of flexibility according to convenience to fit into the so-called congenial atmosphere to abstain from falling into oblivion. Perhaps this concept is true for every field of work. Even path showing, knowledge imparting education system is not spared. That system of education which started in childhood at home has always emphasized following the right path of truth for happiness and generosity for society.

I am in my sixties but still remember the truth of the time when I was taught to understand and speak the language with my childish, entertaining, and joy-giving smile and imitating styles. I learned a lot depending on my retaining mental ability. Everything I interacted with and encountered during that time appeared to be true to me. The story of tortoise and rabbit was lesson-giving. The fairy tales and stars in the sky attracted me the most. I always waited for the magic to happen anywhere. Every day I got truth in various forms but the most valuable truth was my mother, always with me, forever for me. I still remember the day when I was sent to school to start earning certificates to be eligible to serve the country, my mother was with me in my comfort zone.

In my early days at school, my fabrication of the truth of home education started getting modified and I tried to adjust to a new environment. My mother waiting for me at the door and preparing my favourite dishes was my shadow on those difficult days. At last, I understood that all religions have the same principles for truth but for survival it was changed by us for situational practicability.

I have learned a lot from my mother’s views. Later both in student life and service life, I found two faces of truth, one hiding the other for benefit. Both appeared to be essential in day-to-day problems and dealings. Alas! the real truth got less volume in time and space. I could easily recognize victims of real truth followers, having a place in a dilapidated corner of the building, holding the high flag of satisfaction and peace. A ray of hope that truth always prevails in every situation, was witnessed many times with such victims. When one day any pious man noticed and recognized their values and importance then they were rescued and got the relevant status.

I have no hesitation in accepting that I have seen the flourishing candidates in all walks of life having upper hands due to their positions and relationships with men made extraordinary VIPs and following immoral, unlawful and unacceptable practices. But in the end real, defined, truth prevailed and the sufferer smiled. Those places where joy-giving sounds of untruth were entertained by masters and family members, ultimately succumbed to their truth and got ruined by the powerful time. There is a delay in his ( almighty ) house but injustice is intolerable. God’s mill grinds slowly but surely.

I have in my memory many examples of rising and falling in a single generation both in student and service lives. Such situations prevailed in past, are prevailing in present and will continue in the future also. I may give many examples from my experiences where truth ultimately won.

I, since my childhood, have been inspired by the story of a fairy tale- cinderella and always waited for such an incident to happen in respect of truth for its spread and acceptance the world over, for peace, love and sustainability.

I know the truth always prevails, I am sure it will always remain. It is in nature’s law of survival of the fittest. It is in the universe for the origin and existence of life on earth. It is in my thoughts. It is a string of untrue events being followed in all fields to excel and it breaks to expose as an eye opener for access to truth.

Truth is as important as breathing.
Truth is the worship of God. Truth hides but never sinks. Truth is a tool to distinguish between love and sorrow. Truth has to prevail for all. Truth is an individual’s habit. I have never searched for truth in fair weather friends and relatives. I am indebted to my mother for truth and its necessity. I am continuing to be with her in memory and experience.

The real truth may never change with technological advancements. Truth is a true inspiring tool to bring heaven on earth.

Helplessness

Grief is my grievance.
Wealth is my mirage.
Wage is my incentive.
Pleasure is my flower.
Peace is my need.
The fight is my end.
Might is my dedication.
Honesty is my friend.
Jealous is my degradation.
Anger is my downfall.
Justice is my right.
Defeat is my firmness.
Failure is my path.
Comfort is my superstition.
Laziness is my enemy.
Proudness is my confusion.
Greed is my illusion.
Lust is my continuity.
Senses are my hindrance.
Knowledge is my weakness.
Wisdom is my foolishness.
Tension is my earning.
Wish is my loneliness.
Fear is my hurdle.
Word is my condition.
Expression is my emotion.
The mood is my sedition.
Truth is my problem.
Thought is my revolution.
The decision is my resistance.
Growth is my temporary phase.
Love is my will.
Generosity is my life.
Worshipping is my belief.
Religion is my faith.

I am sinking and the world is interpreting me like that. I am loosing my chance and the world is advancing like that. I am meeting the challenges and the world is changing. I am moving and the world is fixing like that. I am revealing and the world is assessing me like that. I am meaning and the world is reacting like that.

I am in the hand of the world. I am in the hand of circumstances. I want to be your pet my almighty. Here people hate living ones and love dead people. I am alive so they don’t love me. Their selfless love is nothing but show. Their respect is positional in working and conditional in notions. Their religions are situational and used as weapons of love and hate. Their worship is far from you – the reality. Greatness is their hidden agenda. You are divided. We are divided. I am helpless. May almighty make everything only one to avoid any conflict. May the world be in God’s reset mode.   

Am I unbiased?

It is but natural that I pretend to be unbiased. It is also natural that it is not true. NATURE has the only option for survival of the fittest as a selection procedure. The weaker one succumbs. So unbiased is not possible. Hence, for survival, I am biased too.

It started early in childhood when I got the full support of my parents to know the facts of life for survival. Because my parents knew that the world would give the opportunity through competition for selection of path to excel but in a biased manner to maintain the quality and ecological balance in the society. So, I made myself intelligent enough to fool as unbiased but in a biased manner for survival.

Present days world’s configuration concerning the difference in social and economic developments, various religious and political thoughts etc., is due to unbiased business for mankind in the name of humanity but in a biased manner. We are divided but unbiased. It is a true but pleasure-giving fictitious and deceiving concept for inviting trouble to humankind. Even the world’s written history, whether ancient, medieval or modern may not be unbiased. All are written based on available resources which might have been influenced by the then mighty and biased kings, rulers and administration or by the interests, helplessness and nature of the writers too. This possibility may not be ruled out in any Era because we are human and need survival with comforts. Sometimes, the sword guides the pen. Indeed might is right. It is always true and applicable everywhere. In modern times, we may notice it from local to national to international level.

This quality is necessary for existence in God’s created universe. So, I am unbiased for the goodness of all in the present requirements, every time which waits for none and its opportunity knocks at the door but once-in-a-lifetime. Time and tide wait for none. I could not avoid being unbiased for self’s biased attitudes. I am too biased to be unbiased.

I think there should be some norms in various fields of life to assess the unbiased and biased nature of all. In nature, we may assess the effects and actions of natural agents in the history of earth based on their present-day’s activities. I think they are unbiased in their attitudes. Such is not the case in the human kingdom. Humans’ actions, most of the time, are biased in the present day. So, this might have been the case in the history of humans. Since humans have developed brains capable to think,  conspire and do many things, they may articulate their activities in a sophisticated manner, hiding biased attitudes with the help of modern technologies and developments. The intensities and magnitudes might be different more or less with the anticipated results of somewhat same types as existed earlier in the old time.

Our attitudes may not be exactly interpreted by humans or machines but only God may know our nature of the biased or unbiased category because he is to settle our scores of doings in his created materialistic world. He is the only player who is always unbiased to impart deserving fruits of one’s actions. 

Me of Mine

I have “me” in myself. This me of mine is the root cause of all types of greed, distress and diseases.

When I was an infant, I was with my mother only. I always wanted to be with her only. She was my world for everything.
She was my life jacket in the world of problems from my first day on this earth. I learned to swim in this oceanic world under the supervision of my mother. She was my heaven. I was only comfortable with her.

   When first time I was sent to school I felt alone. My troubles started with learning the first letter of the alphabet in my mother tongue. I started facing worldly vices. My mother made me acquainted with such affairs and gave me lessons to cope with them.

One day my mother left me alone in this world for her invisible journey to another world. I became an orphan and easy prey to all nuances of society. I turned from good to bad and from bad to worse and worst.  I forgot to control my tongue and master the time for the sake of me. I could not behave like a sieve to be like a sage.

I was always right on the wrong side. Earlier, I had searched for myself in my mother but now without my mother, I had been a demon with harming tendencies. All earlier teachings were futile. I changed as per my needs and became more selfish. I had lost myself in me.

My love for myself had been a curse later in life. I wanted to regret and regain my childhood notions and thoughts. I wanted my mother to be with me again. But this was not possible.

I did not know the history of souls. My mind had a plethora of thoughts like waves in the ocean. I wanted to use my waves for me and for peace in life. I had recalled my mother’s teaching, –  “the new path starts from where you become helpless and confused about life and devote yourself to the almighty. Then he takes care.”

I have surrendered to almighty for his shelter. This time my me is not for myself but for selflessness. My me has submerged into almighty. I have restricted myself to a minimum for living and requirements. My thoughts start with him and end with him – the almighty. My me is for your cause.

Now I am yours. Sorry, I have never asked – ” how are you “? I am pity on myself for losing you. My repentance may please be accepted for me.   

Alone

I am alone, I am all. You are alone, you are many. Are such situations possible? Answer may be or may not be in yes. In this answer “no” word is hidden. Likewise, alone is hidden inside everyone. It has been taught that all that glitter are not gold and  such is the case in human kingdom too. Here, everyone lives with crowd, but remains alone. This is the truth that
everyone comes into existence alone, but is the part of crowd and role may be defined. The word “Alone ” has engulfed the other word ” One ” to be meaningful.

We for the whole life think that we have families, friends and relatives as securities  for rainy days. But we should remember – “all that glitter are not gold”, only mother is gold who is always with us. But she becomes alone at the time of her needs and waits for her gold.

This is the only truth that everyone remains alone and makes crowd for survival. Gold in human kingdom is situation dependent.

This situation has been more aggravated after industrialisation and one has been more alone in self. The doctor diagnoses it as depression and world of sages defines it as journey towards almighty. What is the real good? Every expert has self understood categorisation. But the only truth is that everyone is alone. The more the world is advancing the more the loneliness is spreading. 

Machines are replacing crowd and emotions are being exchanged from artificial intelligence and  Robots are well equipped to entertain.  Besides, rockets are traveling high,  searching additional new abode for humans.  But here on earth, life is settling in old age homes that too alone. These arrangements are ours. Home has been now like hotel, without permanent address.

We see the smiling faces, very often. Read the language of smile on sad face. It reveals helplessness for being alone. I am alone. Who will be next to me. We are missing the music of life. Life is to be tuned in the tunnel, having no end. But one is the beginning and alone is the reality.

Famous

Whether to be famous or not to be famous, I was confused to choose. One day, I finally decided to be famous. Now the proper method was to be adopted. I searched all possible ways in this regard but couldn’t take decision. So I decided to meet  a few  people for guidance. 

I first met my friend and told him that I wanted to be famous. He expressed his ignorance and counter questioned me as to why did I want to  be  famous. I said that I did not know but I wanted to be famous. He accompanied me to assist me  in search of reasons and ways in this regard.

We together met a thief and a gangster and asked ways of becoming famous. They replied because  of spreading fear in public, we became famous by beating, killing and robbing them. Our names had been working now.

We did not accept such views because it was harmful to the society and we left for further meetings with  people. We met one by one with teachers, businessmen, musicians, doctors and players etc. in search of reply. We were not satisfied but we found that everyone became famous by their positive devotion to profession and because of knowledge. The teacher taught students well, the doctor treated patients well, the businessman earned well and helped needy, like that. We saluted all of them but we were not satisfied because we thought this would not make famous for ever. Politicians, master of arts, sciences and psychology could not reply, acceptable to us. Even dignitaries could not reply to satiate us. Success had made most of them, arrogant, less humble and proud of their achievements.

We roamed wherever possible in search of guidance but in vain. Ultimately, we met a religious priest and asked the same question. His emphasis was on karma ( action ) without aspirations of fruits and dedication to almighty.  It could take my time forever. As I was busy in my life, I left this thought.

We returned to our world of actions. We found reply in our mothers who were waiting for us on doors worrying about our absence without information.

All mothers, world over, are always famous because they sacrifice their lives for preparing the future generation and the destiny of nations. They never want anything in return. They take risks for their lives for our births and get satisfaction in our smiles. Mothers! you are always famous of all. I am indebted to you and seek your hands to cross the ocean of world, full of problems. No more words for you, as you are above all in universe. Even God has played in your lap.

Your name is only mother, mother and mother, in all periods. No thanks or words of gratitude are suitable for your stature. Every Mother is a living statue of life.

Dreams

Dreams and works have no gender. Everyone is entitled for the both. Most of the time selection of works need dreams. Dreams are encouraging growth engine for individual, societies and nations.

A dream ascertains goal and instigates the brain for determination to tread the path for concerted efforts for fulfillment of dream. Dream of every individual may or may not be same. The prevailing situations control the fulfillment of dreams or compell for changing the dreams. Time is the strongest factor and controller of reality for dreams come true. The government’s schemes and priorities in the interests of nation create opportunities and may change dream of individual.

If we go through the priorities of nation we may analyse that the demand changed from civil engineers to agriculture officials to electronics to computer science and from IT to currently, artificial intelligence and robotics. All these changes were controlled by overall need of a country for generating employments and improving economic conditions, increasing safety and security etc. of people. The  developments of neighbouring countries and relationship  also control the priorities of a nation. All of  these, change dreams of many from time to time.

It is said a man of principle never changes and always strides for dream. This is must and appreciable. But this is also expected that a man should be adjustable to the situations as the bending trees never break in storm and stand erect after passing of storm. Everyone should be like such trees and should wait for the congenial atmosphere for dream’s fulfillment.

If you are hungry you need food first. If your family is in trouble you have to save. You can’t ignore your responsibilities because of your dream.  But you may try to fulfill your dream, the moment you think of being self reliant and get yourself in comfortable situation. There are many examples where age is no bar for fulfillment of dreams. The zeal should  be alive.

Whether we agree or not financial conditions play vital role in life.
Whoever has excelled in any profession has worked hard to the maximum relentlessly. We may learn from the success stories of such achievers that  there is neither short cut for fulfillment of dreams nor wrong means help achieving the dreams. If any student tops the class or institution by adopting unacceptable means then he may be happy but his dreams will seldom be fulfilled. Any one may get degree in engineering or medical from institutions accepting donations but professionally may not be useful.  Most of them may be like a carpenter who quarrells with his tools because of incomplete knowledge. Any unacceptable, illegal method should not be encouraged. We should justify our dreams through our work.

In this complicated and uncertain world we may not realise our dreams alone and need well wishers  and cooperation of all needed for those dreams. It is known that  one swallow does not make summer. Every foundation stone in the construction of a mansion is most important and valuable. We should always have second options to avoid disappointment, if first dream fails to be materialised.

We should not be  sheep and fall into the well. We should analyse our weakness and strength and pros and cons of a dream. We should choose dreams beneficial to the humanity. One fault may be annihilating.

Dream is a driving force. It should be positive to benefit the humanity and the nature. It should be imitative.

Fruits of actions

The known results oriented actions attract the most. It is inherent in our nature. We do not  hesitate to react to routine calls as results are known. It is by nature that we think on actions and their results. It is beyond imagination that any action does not bear fruits. We apply our brains where we have to deal with unknown world or relations. A student knows that the result will be as per study but the future is not known. But we know about most of the actions and their results happening in nature. It is known that a seed germinates and becomes tree and bears flowers and fruits on time. The periods of various seasons in different parts of world, barring some exceptional situations, are defined. We know that all actions in nature are not fruitful to civilisations and some of them are harmful. Accordingly we remain ready for results with cautions, except in a few exceptions.

Human Life is not like that. Our lives start from unknown and end into unknown. We know that only a few actions are common in humans but the brain plays major role in many actions and results may or may not be anticipated. This complications of brain  have affected the most and  play main role in imagination and interpretation.
Perhaps brain enjoys and dives into unknown to drive the humans ahead for a cause. Sometimes, there may not be coordination between brain and  actions, between saying  and doing etc. If these are because of diseases they may be curable, otherwise,  they create problems to the whole world.  The selfish attitudes develop and results create more harm than good.   We are witnessing political turmoil and war in different parts of world because of such type of brains. Even nature is sufferer because of the brains.

Human brain is the director of actions. Actions ultimately control results. Results may be useful or useless. Results may be  beneficial or harmful. It is obvious, if we sow thorn we should not expect flower.
We have been accustomed to many activities and their results in so many years, but the technical advancements are influencing the brains and results. We, for examples, are in discussions and researching on the effects of waves emanating from mobiles and mobile towers on brains of humans of different  ages. Apart from this, artificial intelligence and remotely controlled instruments and apparatuses are affecting the brains and healths. Useful researches are being used for harmful purposes. We may assume that both human civilisation and nature are at stake because of criminal brains and technical advancements.

The age old concepts of fruits of actions are same and will never change, but other developments with time throw effects on thinking, means of actions and results. Ultimately we are not controller of all types of actions. In holy book ” Gita” it is said that overall controller of fruits of actions is almighty and we are to obey him. We may only act but by order of almighty.

The day we become successful in regulating the life and death, we may expect to control fruits of actions.

Prayer

Somewhat I have some wealth to buy,
Somewhat l have some place to rest,
Somewhat I have someone to share,
Somewhat I have something to say,
Somewhat I have something to show,
Somewhat I have everything to enjoy.

               BUT……

Somehow I have lost my morality,
Somehow I have lost my soul,
Somehow I have lost myself,
Somehow I have lost my life,
Somehow I have lost your touch,
Somehow I have lost your love,
Somehow I have lost your teaching,
Somehow I have lost your favour,
Somehow I have nothing to share.

                   NOW……

I am guilty,
I am sinking,
I am loosing,
I am wandering,
I am selfish,
I am sin,
I am  tired,
I am lost.

My almighty forgive me as I am your son and part of your soul. You have sent me and have taken care of me. I search you in all places of worship. I search you under the sky and within four walls with a roof. I am confused. Your name is changed everywhere. Everyone wants to prove his God is superior to other’s God. Their styles of worshipping, methods of teachings and spreading of your existence are different. Their principles are different. They are competing with each other in their own laid down rules.
I am really confused to know as to who are you? You, please, come and see your world, you made a copy of your heaven and we have changed both your world and you, as per our needs. Here, in this world you have shape. You don’t have shape.

I am totally confused. Please call me back. My place is not here where I loose your prayer, where I loose your love and touch. This world is very poor. I am very helpless, need you. I request, ” no second life ” please.