It appears that we have seen our ripping time. I told my wife at the dining table. She was taking care of my dishes and instructing my caretaker rather than my well-wisher as per my health condition. She stared at me in a style opposite to the stare that we enjoyed at a young age. Stares in the history of young age have different meanings at different times and on different occasions. I think that staring is a good, silent example of a homonym figure of speech in life. But at dining time at this phase of life, it is always used as a warning of repercussions, later in solitude in my phase of life. As usual as a right of control, her reply was every time the same related to my health issue. I always retaliated but submitted to her with pleasure.
She is my friend, well-wisher, all-weather partner and caretaker from my childhood. Yes, we have grown together, fought for silly things, protected each other and shared our toys, as we have been neighbours. We do not know when childhood friendship converted into natural love and attraction to be together. Our friendship got one more name of binding in marriage with the consent of both sides’ families.
Since marriage, she has become my companion wholeheartedly. Though we have been in marriage, yet we are friends first and we have no hesitation in conversations and giving meaning to life concerning each other with due respect. In other’s views, the flower had timely blossomed for us and our lives had been disciplined to be rational to have “our” times.
As time is like a bird, it has flown to turn us older and older. Health has sent a warning to be careful. On the front of prospects, we have been blessed with one son and one daughter, but God has taken back our parents for continuity of his cycles.
There is no need to write in detail that many concepts have changed, emotions have been saleable, relationships have been self-oriented and many unexpected heinous things have taken space with our greying hairs. But only she is with me and I may say that she has taken my all problems. I always express my indebtedness to my mother, who has handed over me to another good, sensible, supportive and comprehensive woman. She is the guardian and like a dictator for me but becomes a friend in my time of need.
After my retirement, she has become more conscious related to my health and engagements to be busy. She has a plan to pass the time without repentance on our previous life, which has seen negligence for herself. We mostly play games of our childhood to pass the time together. The only difference is that we are now freer while playing these games. But this is not the solution. We search for pleasures for our smooth survival.
Life may not always be smooth, we know. The time has changed for our son after the change in his status. He has been employed and independent. We have done our duties as parents and grandparents, but our traditional expectations have failed. We do not need monetary support, but only emotional and timely care are required. The main concern is about the situation of being one in the world due to God’s actions.
Still, we are talking about rituals. I have seen many old parents who are like us. We are happy that our children are making their way. But we are waiting for the last breath in life. We do not have opportunities to be busy or to utilize our expertise. Even print media or electronic media or other organisations take notice of we old folks at special times as a token of recognition.
This phase of the life cycle is not well planned. There is no sufficient institutional support for old people dealing with their problems. There are negligible management systems for them. An old-age care system may be evolved into an industry of professionals like health sectors. Robots and artificial intelligence may be modified for the care of older people. Olders are like children. They need care like children. They are useful with their capabilities. They may always be contributors in many ways.
We old folks need graceful farewell and termination from this world.
The word “No”
I know that the word “no” has saved me a lot in this world. I think that knowledge of “no” is very important and its application is most important. “No” has many meanings as refusal or denial or something else. “No” may give the next opportunity. But I think that ‘n’ of word “no” is more considerate and useful. ‘N’ of “no” is the instrument while ‘O’ of “no” is the operating part. Both together become more effective and result oriented.
It is a responsible word. It is an alarming word. It is a warning word to check, stop and inspect before taking any action or decision. It is like a pause to be ready for the next. It has psychological importance. It shows the attitude and behaviour of the user.
Though this word expresses negativity, it should be used with utmost precautions analysing the situation and evaluating repercussions. Sometimes, “no” becomes naughty. It brings a knot in relationships. It may not give way to the next opportunity or leave scope for redressal. Positional utilisation of this escaping word may bring havoc in any field of growth or improvement or may affect the future of individuals, communities, or policymakers.
The continuous use of the word “no” by an individual may get the tag of psychological negativity or habitual practice. But cumulative use of this word has the effect of denial with respect to differences affecting life or national interests. When the system uses the word “no” to impose restrictions related to traditions, rituals or religious orthodox or thinking of hardliners to curb the progressive nature of society, a revolution takes birth and mass protests start and spread like wildfire. We may trace the role of “no” as a catalyst in many revolutions in the world’s history. In many wars between countries, the word “no” has an igniting impact. Lobbying among countries, in the world, is the outcome of “no” at any point in time because of vested interests and want of supremacy to dictate terms and conditions of survival and slavery.
Every “no” has some purpose, but it should be evaluated judiciously before any conclusion because it has hidden intentions. I think only “No” of a child may not fall in any category except expressing acceptance, satisfaction, dislike, or refusal. Mother nature, a gift of God for our survival, also expresses her “no” in many ways to warn us that we may recklessly not change her. Even animals express their “no” by using horns and legs or anything else that appealed suitable for the occasion. Insects or other organisms play for “no” in their styles. “No” is effectively used against any kind of suppression.
There may be written at length about the proper, wise and thoughtful use of the word “no,” but I think that humans should think twice before saying no. We may use the word “no” without any hesitation whenever we have to leave bad habits and addictions dragging away from God. The beauty or role of “no” always changes controlled by the ecological disturbance in the conditions, situations and attitudes or behaviours of living things. Sometimes, mischievous habits ignite the fire of the silent “no.” Only “no” leading towards God may be acceptable in any case. In fact, “no” requires wise use.
Problems
Problems are shields around solutions. Problems are invitations to develop solution-seeking attitudes. Problems are like special spices in life to make it easier, lovable and livable with full energy and introspection. Problems are like time-testing teachers. Someone has to break the ice to show the light of hope.
Everyone faces different types of problems throughout life as if there is no life without problems. We may say problems start with the birth of every single one in this materialistic world. Despite all acceptable facts, I think that the plethora of problems is because of our desire.
Our ancestors started lives at a time when present days facilities were not available. They might have started their lives like animals in terms of food habits and dwelling styles. They might have led lives actually with great difficulties, most unsafe and might always have faced threats to lives from animals and other creatures. I think that our ancestors might have taken steps for safety with the passage of time, noticing the behaviours of other creatures in the locality.
As a safety measure, our ancestors might have started living above the ground on trees or in safe dwellings. Whatever the steps might have been taken by our ancestors I assume that the number and complexity of problems started since then.
The moment we leave the earth’s surface, in the name of our safety, to stay a few feet high above it, we start inviting problems. The first problem for the same is to get the means to stay at a certain height. Nature is the sole supplier of such means of safety from time immemorial mainly wood from trees.
Since then we humans are facing problems to maintain that height above the ground. Problems are changing every day in many forms and ways. Now problems have increased manifold with the passage of time. With developments and technology’s upgrading, we have given birth to many unimaginative problems. Sometimes, while solving one problem, the solution has given birth to other problems.
Now, l have reached on conclusion that still we are facing threats to our lives because of our selfish thoughts.
Our ancestors started from scratch and judiciously used resources from nature as per need. But, later on, the growth of civilisations in different parts of the earth might have faced local, regional and geographical challenges as problems, followed by efforts in search of solutions. As a result, there might have been differences in mental ability, language, knowledge of nature and the universe etc. But despite differences, there was one thing in common, and that was the belief in the almighty, as a creator.
However, different types of problems cropped up when interactions between those civilisations occurred, mainly for establishing supremacy which has given birth to the rat race in the form of war and many more. In these tugs-of-war, the main injuries are born by the nature, the provider of all sorts of resources for existence.
We have advanced a lot and now work diplomatically, as such it becomes difficult to differentiate between friends and foes. The whole game is being played under the carpet. No one knows who is a winner or who is the loser but one thing is common humanity is the loser and the whole world is on the verge of annihilation as a result. Now, mother nature has started taking revenge and paying in the same coin.
It may be accepted that the thought of maintaining the height above the ground is the main cause of all present days problems being witnessed. But problems are weapons of success and survival. We should deal with them as opportunities for the sustainability of humanity. No one can ignore the surrounding for a long time. Our thoughts to prove to be in the world should be for one, everyone and no discrimination.
I need you
I have the desire.
I have dreams.
I have pain.
I have persuasion.
But I have fear –
to lose,
to leave midway,
to challenges,
to weakness,
to strength,
to satisfaction,
to sink,
to crave more,
to yield.
I need you because –
You give courage.
You are my partner.
You are my companion.
You are my friend.
You are my teacher.
You are my guide.
You are my emotions.
I have a body and a soul. I have fed my body to keep it healthy to meet the worldly affairs, but I have forgotten my soul’s need to be near you my almighty. I am in dire need of you. I have faith in you but am about to face failure. Your faith in me may shatter. I know that you have been behind me in every action. So let me not be down. I want your blessings on the advent of my death. I pray you to be my sailor in this world and be my porter to carry me to your world. My rest is there. My peace is there. My life is there. This world is full of uncertainty and negotiation.
Joy of giving
I wanted to show my strength and prove my calibre from the day society started judging me. I wanted to be a successful man to get a place in society. I thought that every successful man had been pursuing money. I had views that money makes the mare go. I had seen that wealthy people had respect and were welcomed everywhere in society without considering their attitudes and behaviour. So, the day I started my carrier in service, I made money my first and last resort to prove to society. I became famous as a money butcher. My house was big with all the possible modern facilities. My family was respected and invited to every function in society. Sincerely, I was busy ploughing the money’s field to multiply in the coffer. I had been a money printer by hook or crook.
I was not alone in that field of greediness. Before me, there were many souls. I was trained by many of them. Everything was well planned and well shared. I was enjoying myself a lot with all comforts missing my future. I could not say whether I was happy or not. I was depressed about money. The more the depression in me the more the urge for robbing the money was in me.
However, I think that the earth may never be deprived of even a single good human who may not change the thought process in favour of humanity. A single incident may change the behaviour and whole life of a human. The day it happens that day is the real beginning of life in a human. That enlightenment is the need in everyone’s life to make heaven on earth. Before that, any human would be having a life a little bit superior to animals.
My life was changed not by a Saint but by an incident of helplessness of a pious soul. Yes, I say him a pious soul because he has sacrificed his last shelter for the cause of others. He had sold his house to satiate my lust and quench the thirst of others in the system to give meaningful life to orphans. The day I got that information I died in me. I wept for my sin. I became a carcass for myself. I found myself nowhere in the universe but that man was twinkling in the sky as a beautiful, attractive star in my dreams. I lost my sleep for nights. The reality was that I remained a beggar with all comforts stored for the coming generation. My life was a curse. So, I decided to be a human and bring life to myself. I searched for that man and he became my path shower in this world. He became my real teacher who taught me the meaning of life. I learnt only one sentence- sacrifice to the sacred life of others without scaring of outcomes because God is there. God shows the path. Whoever treads, becomes a changer. He told me that I have changed because of God. I was owing to the incident that changed me.
I have changed to writing words and making sentences from words to be on the right path to meet a meaningful life for others. Confidence in me is now defining life. I have realised the joy of giving. I am enjoying positive thinking. I am relishing peace in me. Now, I accept you are somewhere my almighty.
The letter “I ” and its effects
” I ” is a letter in the alphabet of the English language. ” I ” has also a meaning as a word. ” I ” has many qualities and influences a human the most. It may affect the brain and life of someone. It has very much vicious spiritual concerns.
It independently or with a combination of other words makes me feel proud, arrogant, self-oriented and stubborn. This keeps me away from exploring myself and keeps me alone in the crowd. I may not mingle with others. I may not understand anyone. I may not respect someone older or younger. I may not accept my everyday responsibilities. I, because of it, feel all in one and I get myself above all at the top. It has infused merciless pride in me because I think that I am the best of all. ” I ” has occupied my brain that much.
I think that ” I ” is the main culprit of all problems in this world. It is the reason for my ego and greed. This has generated a sense of insecurity in me. Because of this, I am losing myself and going away from everything and everyone. It appears like a simple small vertical line, but it may hide all human’s good qualities. It is cunning also. It has the psychological qualities to hide and expose them at the proper time without giving time to the opponents. The dominance of ” I ” in my head is a curse to me.
I want to know the reason for this issue of ” I ” and its inventor. Perhaps the feeling of ” I ” comes from within because of the issue of survival. In nature, according to experience, the fittest one survives. Survival may be the main issue. Otherwise, surrendering before a stronger one may be the only option to survive. This ” I ” makes someone a fighter. At last, ” I ” makes greedy, craving for maximum to dominate over others. Even then, despite all ill qualities like disease, I think that ” I ” has one good quality and that is to get rid of slavery. This ” I ” gives a sense of self-respect in certain cases.
When the self-centred attitudes inculcated by ” I ” are left, then the godly behaviours of someone may influence the whole world. When all bad notions of ” I ” are eliminated to make it ” we,” then a sense of one family appears in the mind. Then, it cares for everyone and shares everything. This ” I ” is the reason for my God and your God.
” I ” is a character. ” I ” is a psychological guide. ” I ” is a science of behaviour. ” I ” acts as a curtain before the eyes. ” I ” acts as a wall before the brain. ” I ” is like a shadow. ” I ” makes life treacherous. The dominance of ” I ” is a hurdle in movements toward spirituality. ” I ” keeps ego as a hindrance to thinking of God. ” I ” should be demolished in everyone’s mind from childhood. When we forget “I ” in us, everything appears to be pleasant and life becomes peace-loving. ” I ” is the reason for hell on the earth dividing and robbing everything given by God in the name of survival. Everyone should get rid of the destructive ” l ” to be happy, hopeful and useful for all.
Twin Questions
I have many questions causing a high degree of depression. I have medicine for that but I do not have treatment for that. If I accept the present, I am okay. If I think of myself and my life, I find that my journey starts from knowing about my whereabouts which is not seen but imagined.
I have read many suggestions and different views in literature on life’s real journey. But in this world, I am having an independent identity, so I have to have my responsibility for this mission. I have benefited from doubts from earlier experiences. I know that I have infinity as a route and the present-day GPS ( GLOBAL POSITIONING SYSTEM ) can not assist. Our end is the new beginning and our beginning is the pleasant movement toward the end. I think that the end is more important in this journey. The vital question in this quest is of the starting point, to begin with. Who am I? Where have I come from? Where will I go? I again took the support of our ancestors’ views and thinking in this search for the truth of life. The time is the ladder taking towards refinement in thinking for these questions and doubts.
I have a name given by my parents. That is my identity to deal with in the journey of life in this materialistic and mortal world. The achievements in this journey are outcomes of my actions. I accept them as my destiny. But the questions of life remain unanswered and always alive. The search for their answers continues till last. I may guess that the limit of my speculation is beyond real answers. Even the great developments in scientific fields are unable to reach any conclusion. Science has found many answers to the secrets of nature and the universe. Science has become a creator in many aspects like God. But l think that the answers to my twin questions are in the black holes of the almighty. These black holes are invisible to scientific developments. May I imagine that all games of the almighty start from black holes? These are beyond the capacity of eyes to capture, as we may not listen to sounds after certain limits of frequency. So, I think all games of almighty may only be guessed as per individual’s limit.
Everything in the lap of the almighty is invisible. The path of our journey is through the physical body. We start from invisible through invisible in the dark place, to begin with. But I think life’s journey begins from and ends in the black holes of the almighty.
The day science will be the creator by such types of black holes the answers to my twin questions may be recorded. Till then scientific principles of the origins of both life and the universe hold acceptable barring religious theories because for the whole life of our existences and livelihoods we accept the scientific approaches in our answers in all exams.
We remain busy our whole life and forget to address many realities of life. At last, we feel frustrated and try to pass the time willy-nilly. I think that till that day of the conclusion of my twin questions, HUMANITY should get the upper hand in the world because everyone is important and has been destined to do jobs. No one is perfect and needs proper respect and support. We may bring heaven on earth like that.
Till that day of getting answers to my twin questions of life and death, we should not forget that God is the only controller of all activities. Visible and invisible are instruments of his music. But we may not listen because we are limited. We are smaller than a drop in his ocean of secrets and our knowledge is like a tiny island to boost having a niche in his world. We should not boast of that.
Life Like Sand
May I give thought to myself? I don’t want to disturb you every time. You are precious. But I do not know whether your time is yours or not. I think I should not know everything about everyone. This may cause psychological disorders and I may forget many things which need my attention for exploration of this world. Firstly, I have to explore myself. If I meet success in this journey, I have worth. But who will decide my success? I may have a series of questions. Decisions should be free of all encumbrances. Is it possible? Is it like art or creativity that everyone has something to deliver controlled by one’s concepts? Concepts do come from where? Who does give concept? What is the basis? It is sure that someone has deep exploratory thinking and gives some concepts. We accept that to avoid confusion as we do in examinations in student life. We write the accepted concepts to pass them. We may not give our thoughts because time remains limited and knowledge has to be assessed for future rat races. We are like lamb and think unidirectional. We may not think of compartments, to make whole. The system never allows us to be independent and to be ourselves. So when we start thinking of ourselves, it becomes too late in life. We spend maximum time analyzing others, both critically and affectionately depending upon relations or our comfortable approaches. We aim to get favour from every resource. We become selfish and forget ourselves.
I think we are having inner shadows veiling our realities, which may give more to the prevailing concepts. We may not get rid of such shadows until we have time for ourselves. I think creativity requires privacy, corner and zero disturbance. Life is not a business that may be sold with a sweet audible slogan. There may be an investment and someone is the investor. I think that the almighty is an investor. The almighty invested in us. He never asks for anything in return but only loves. Love of speaking truth, love of kindness, love of pardon and above all, love for each other. I think if we love each other we may explore anything. We don’t need someone to teach us, love. The best teacher, I think is a baby who loves unconditionally, not willing anything from everyone except the mother who is a multiplier of love. I think so. Mother does with love, in love, for continuity of love of hope of exploring the meaning of life someday by son or daughter of almighty. Mother is a path. Mother is a link between the invisible and visible worlds.
Love is an accepted fact for peace we should not spoil time and love each other. I think this is the only way to know oneself. The almighty will be more generous to bless us in this life. Firstly, one should judge self and assess others later. Life is like sand, not holdable at a fist. One should not wait and watch for others to take lead.
They Laughed
When I smiled at flowers, they laughed.
When I cried at my fault, they laughed.
When I wept on my fate, they laughed.
When I fell because of them, they laughed.
When I slipped due to ignorance, they laughed.
When I missed a chance, they laughed.
When I remembered you, they laughed.
When I excused their faults, they laughed.
When I enjoyed my loneliness, they laughed.
When I shared my views, they laughed.
When I cared about their systems, they laughed.
When I failed in my attempts, they laughed.
When I passed the hurdles, they laughed.
When I changed myself, they laughed.
When I worked for them, they laughed.
When I slept in peace, they laughed.
When I wanted a favour, they laughed.
When I wrote my grievance, they laughed.
When I lost my beloved, they laughed.
When I worshipped my God, they laughed.
They judged me. They commented on me and my feelings. They expressed their attitudes, faith and hate. They killed me in their thoughts.
They have different moralities. They have developed their standards. They are doers. They are decision takers. They are implementors. They are assessors. They govern. They are true by themselves. They have a complex of greatness.
My almighty call me back. I have crossed the tolerance limit given by you. Even you have been defined and limited to their whims. They know how to twist your teachings.
Almighty! may you delimit your existence. I am to live in this world as per your wish, but your existence is at stake. You are being exchanged with their attitudes and dictatorships. Fear of your wrath is their strength. You are like a rubber stamp. You are a seal, taken for granted. They are two-edged swords. You have been divided for their convenience.
Now the question comes – who is supreme? Who is the controller? What is the reality? Who will bell the cat? Only darkness appears to be a distinguished reality. Your light is awaited again. You matter the most.
ASSESSMENT
We are assessed at every stage in life from very childhood in terms of colour, height, health, physique, features, education, profession, behaviours, status, and many other qualities. Assessment is a process for the betterment of the concerned one. But this may not always be acceptable and true when humans are involved. We may find that in many cases of assessments in offices where bosses are all in all and assessments are targeted.
Assessment is a good process but the procedure followed for that differs in various working places of importance. In schools, the performance of students in board exams is the criteria for the assessment of teachers. It is acceptable as the futures of students and country are mainly dependent on good quality education. Professional institutions are assessed by students, parents, guardians and employers etc in terms of quality of education, fame, acceptability and employability etc. But the same is not the truth in the case of official assessment. There are certain criteria fixed for such assessment. This system is doing more harm than good. There may be an assessment at various levels before the conclusion. But it solely depends on the views of bosses. The most acceptable thought that the boss is always right, prevails in every office. That is the main criteria and other norms that are secondary for this job, affecting the careers of employees. The mood of the boss and the loyalty of employees toward the boss and his or her family play important roles in such a system. Even the dog of the boss plays a role. If someone is a relative or has good family relations with the boss, he or she has the upper hand over others. It is also found that an employee who has been judged excellent by one boss becomes average under another boss. If we research this system of assessment being termed as CR (Confidential report) in the official culture we may find many examples of ill assessment. This is also an astonishing secret to know as to how the assessment changes at different levels for the same employee and an excellent grade given by the immediate boss appears to be meaningless. Thus assessment may not be real and unbiased every time.
Sometimes, we may find the influence of affinity to the same discipline in such assessment. It is true in many cases where performance is linked with incentives. This system may allow the undeserving candidates to rise to the highest post, affecting the entire working culture. In this system, we may listen highest degree of praises delivered, even a comparison of the boss with the life-giving Sun from the universe.
This existing system is a deterrent to the efficiency and promotion of real, technically sound, good and honest workers and also affects the growth and achievements of the company. Negativity in the official atmosphere pervades and detaches from work. This, in turn, changes the working culture of devoted, enthusiastic, energetic workers into a depressed, time-passing, boring workforce. We may find that good workers are leaving organizations for better pasture.
In this system, the ultimate sufferers are the country’s progress and the citizens as this system is not flawless. So this system needs continuous evaluation with the progress of technologies and education in society. We should hammer on the right place for remedy and that is in the selection of a right and capable boss. The seniority in the hierarchy may not only be a criterion but also should have good records of achieving the goals of the office. The assessment of the boss may be linked with the performance of subordinates and feedback, as is the case in the education system. We should not forget that selection of candidates is made through very arduous processes and a single boss having vested interests in self may not be allowed to question the selection process by mere whimsical assessment, instead, the boss should be updated on the importance of subordinates in changing world. We should emphasize the hierarchy of ideas and not the fear of the boss for the performance of the individual.
Such types of assessments may be witnessed in many fields of life. We may get both sufferers and gainers. But the best continuous assessment is being done by the almighty and that is the final. He is the supreme who gives incentives, based on our actions. One human may not assess another human with limited thinking capacity, but he, the creator and controller of the universe can. We should wait for his assessment.
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