My Fairy – a story

I, at the end of my last phase of life, need a fairy to solve all my problems, as my mother and grandmother used to tell me in childhood about her unpredictable power. I know since then that she has had ways for all problems. So, I like fairy always every time in a story and want her in life.

Every night, in my childhood, fairy came at least in the story to feed me, to make me strong and to fulfil my wish after my sleep. I always insisted on the story of a fairy cladded in pink dress. All stories of birds and animals were not as effective as that of my favourite fairy’s sayings were.

One day, I was very worried, not willing to eat, because I had observed that all adult members in the family did not listen to fairy’s tales at night. I wanted to know as to how they eat without the story of my pinky fairy. I asked my grandmother for that doubt. She smiled and said that every adult had been having a fairy for the whole day and night after a definite age. They take care of each other for all their needs and share lives. She had, further, told that I would get a fairy after some age in reality.

I enjoyed my childhood with my pinki fairy and at a suitable time, my living fairy, as wife, was given to me with prescribed rituals and responsibilities. That day, I laughed and got the realities of situations.

After marriage, life started with full gusto. In adulthood, my fairy took her bite at her will. She had been satiating me but at what cost? Who did pay the most? I guess both shared equally for good causes of individual but as together, one by two. We divided together to multiply to add to the time that was always tested and gave opportunities for continuity.

My fairy was enticing and giving meaning to my senses to reciprocate the same. The time was stolen by both of us to mesmerise to forget ourselves. My fairy gave directions and purposes to proceed and process the opportunities to be in dreams to realise the emotional consequences for quenching the thirst of time. What I got was of use for a defined duration. After that, I became accustomed to my life’s fairytale.

Later in life, this fairytale was my treasure to smile and relax whenever I felt free to swing the memories of youth. Sometimes, I wanted to ask for pardon on my extremism without considering its repercussions. I was, as per my teasing attitude, a fool but she loved me.

It should have continued till last for both of us. But, one day, without any early warning, my fairy left to another world. I interpreted that she wanted to take sweet revenge from me with her last smile, holding my hands. I was helpless as usual. Her perpetual slumber created a void in my life.

As a companion, she had shown me the path leading to satisfaction from senses to peace in mind to salvation. She had translated my silence into meaningful words and sentences.

Love never ends. I remember my life started from zero. I recall my life started with zero. I know that life will end into zero. I am playing on the tunes of time. How can I forget my living fairy and fairytale? I want her again and again in my dreams as well as in life.

Beautiful

What is beautiful?

Positive is beautiful.
But negative is also beautiful,
It shows the means.
Beautiful is beautiful.
But ugly is also beautiful,
It gives comparative terms.
Success is beautiful.
But failure is also beautiful,
It instigates the wills.
Life is beautiful.
But death is also beautiful,
It hides the beginning.
Light is beautiful.
But dark is also beautiful,
It gives time and space to create.
Taking action is beautiful.
But not taking any action is also beautiful,
It may check catastrophes.

Beautiful is respective aspect.
But it depends,
It is an individual’s liking.

There are two ends that support each other and fix the limits. These are beginning and end also. These give meaning to any aspect and grace to beauty.

What is not beautiful?

Biasness is not beautiful,
It may devastate the growth.
Pretentiousness is not beautiful,
It may lead to oblivion.
Ignorance is not beautiful,
It may bring extinction.
Compromise is not always beautiful,
It may make cowardice.
Uncertainty is not beautiful,
It may check the development.

I think changes may or may not be beautiful and depend upon their repercussions.

Time is always beautiful. Time judges the time.

The Gap

I think that every gap reveals something like continuity or something like discontinuity. It may also tell about the endeavours of something to achieve. The gap may be natural or man-made but is found everywhere. The natural gap, depending upon many factors, may be abridged, but the human-made gaps in humanity control nature and humans’ history of concepts or developments or conflicts. Both types of gaps have common features. They separate. They are also important to give a fillip to think and plan for betterment.

I think that the gap is more evident in human history. I have interacted with at least four generations. I have seen changes. I have listened to the changes. I have heard different stories from my grandparents and learnt about their tough lives. They were physically strong and had faced adversaries. They had time for themselves, relationships and humanity. They were mentally strong also. My parents were in a better position than my grandparents in many aspects but not in terms of the facilities that my generation had.

If we conclude thinking, it becomes evident that every generation thinks of facing more trouble and lesser opportunities than the preceding generation. It may be true but not for every aspect.

Older generations had many things limited and even not easily available. They had less with more satisfaction and were alive to humanity with miserable situations. They had close-knit interdependent societies. Their plights may be known from the study of the literature of their times.

I had seen, in my generation, the first single-lane tar road making in my town in the mid-seventies and electricity in the early eighties. After that, when the economy of our country got a boost, then lives started changing in all fields because of developments. The distance in space and time got reduced from hours, and minutes to seconds. We have a lot from the biggest to nono and pocket-sized technologies. The changes in all aspects of life have affected our generation a lot. Our needs increased manifold in terms of greed. We have gained many things in the form of problems. Our developments have brought comfort and ease in life, along with many conflicts and dissatisfaction. We have lost our peace and our temperament developed regarding questioning the rituals for scientific proof. Even age-old beliefs are doubted. All such activities have made miserable situations for the present generation, giving rise to unnecessary tension.

The present new generation is more informed than older generations but not channelized for stipulated results due to a lack of proper guidance. It has resulted in a thematic approach and sectoral attitudes in social harmony endangering humanity. We do not have sharing attitudes and time for others. We want fast lives and multilane roads with dividers but never try to think of accidents due to hurrying habits. We want everything at once. We are trying to unveil the secrets of the universe but are not ready to learn the meaning of life. We have given control of our lives to various technologies and artificial gadgets and are becoming a slave. Even the mind is guided by others.

We should not forget that despite all developments and self-reliance in many requirements’ fulfilment, every generation has common problems of hunger and basic needs. The brain needs food and the hand needs engagement. Both needs of the physique should be healthy and positive. Above all, our requirements may be assessed as per time and changes in the world for sustainability.

We should have open eyes and agile minds to foresee the future. We should be ready to meet changes and challenges in every generation. We may not always get everything suitable and favourable. We have to be ready to bear the fruits of our actions. We may not follow the pick-and-choose policy. Every second is changing. Developments are continuously ongoing processes. Present-day achievements may be futile in the future.

So every new generation gets more opportunities and more problems and has to be ready to rise to the occasion in absolute terms as a versatile organism, to be acceptable everywhere. In short, a multi-purpose robotic life, controlled from a remote without emotions and reactions, will be hard facts to accept. This may be harmful to the humanity and sustainability of our community.

It is the duty of every generation to have coordination between old and new refined moral values as a guide for humanity, culture and peace in life with modernisation. Amendments in thinking as ingredients for developments are continuous processes to be in a race with time. A risk-taking spirit always pays in every generation.

Now, in the modern context, the worst is being noticed within one generation. There are many types of gaps in every front of life full of conflicts. Many types of pressure are mounting in life. That may cause different types of developments and emanate problems in the human kingdom. The world is changing at a faster speed than earlier and affecting the new generation every moment by modifying established concepts.

Developments and changes in human history are the reasons for differences in generations. It will always happen, but the contributions of every generation in human history should not be overlooked.

Indices of life

Many human-made indices in the world are assumed and are used to determine the quality of life of humans and rank a nation. These may not be unbiased or non-controversial. These are human-made standards. But I think that, in humans, maturity and saturation determine the quality of life and are the best indices. Both inculcate interactions with living and nonliving things in the surroundings. Both have no upper limits but govern life. Maturity and saturation limits may be interrelated. In most cases, maturity controls saturation. When maturity increases the limit of saturation may be ascertained. Though it may vary from person to person yet it happens.

Maturity never comes in one day. It takes a lifetime. History teaches many lessons to be mature to get favourable results. Even then the age of an individual may be a maturity factor but this may not be true every time. There is no doubt that maturity changes with age but the level of maturity, matures based on experience, incidents and surroundings. An individual facing many tough situations in life from childhood may be more mature than someone who has not seen rough weather, being of the same age.

Whatever the reason may be, maturity is a must in life. But the immaturity of children should not be missed. Their saturation in getting anything of desire after long persuasion gives peace for a while. Their desire to get to the moon reminds our helplessness and limited achievements in this world. Their immaturity reflects saturation in stories of animals and fairy tales, sufficient for their good sleep. Their immaturity teaches us to be happy with limited desires. Every child with growth and increasing analytical power leaves behind all saturation to be part of the crowd and search for the maturity of various kinds in life.

Maturity gives chance. Maturity creates opportunity. Maturity gives satisfaction and saturation. Maturity claims its cost. The more we become mature the more we have a chance to lose our well-wishers and relationships. At last, maturity inculcates and gives direction to life if saturation is attained. Minimum needs bring satisfaction and saturation with maximum maturity. This stage, on arrival in life, affects the most.

Maturity may ultimately instigate an inclination towards good deeds which may lead to living up to the expectations of God. When saturation, as the aftermath of maturity, will prevail then the nearness to God may approach.

Without maturity and saturation, everyone is like an aimless wanderer and may mislead into wrongdoings. I think, despite all views on maturity and saturation, we should remember the highest level of the fact of maturity that we come to and go from this world empty-handed. This fact of maturity, if learned in the early stage of life, may control all vices, common in the world. This emptiness is the maturity followed by saturation. This emptiness is the guide at every stage and in all spheres of life for maturity and saturation.

Everything is transferable from one hand to another hand in a life of desire. Nothing is permanent. With this concept of maturity, We may always be nearer to God and enjoy life fully. Everyone will be happy if we forget ourselves for others.

You- My Life

No tears please,
Let the eyes be treasury.
No distance please,
Let the gap vanish.
No separation please,
Let life be pleasurable.
No anger please,
Let the bud turn into a flower.
No hurrying please,
Let me last with you.
No mercy please,
Let me die in your love.
No confusion please,
Let the tree bear fruits.

You talk to me –
With Your heart,
With your silence,
With your smile,
With your eyes,
With your sound,
With your face,
With your touch,
With your fingers,
With your pleasure,
With your joy.

You have meaning,
You have string,
You have emotions,
You have feelings,
You have mystery,
You have light,
You have descriptions,
You have destinations,
You have everything.

I do not want to lose you in my dreams too. You are to realise our dreams. You are my gift. You tease and deserve it at the same time. But you are my life. You are my present and my future is in you. You write. I read. You have made me optimistic through your heavenly body. Let me be honoured. Let me be devoted. Let me be reciprocal in love. Let me be liberated with you.

The Heart and I

I have seen physical divisions of land, house, sky and ocean. There may be several reasons for divisions which may be described at length. Even our thoughts have divided all humans. However, I do not want to be physically divided. But I am divided. I am being divided. I have been divided. This is not the end of my divisions. I know that I will be divided many times.

My divisions started from the day I took birth. I was pleasurably divided among many relatives with different names as per relationship. I was not knowing them all except for my relationship with my mother. It was determined by God. She was always special in my life. I was tied to her from within when she was taking a risk of her life only for me. She was my protector when I was outside. She was my unconditional supporter with true guidance without any division.

I do not know the exact time of inception of my divisions in the outer world of unknown people. Perhaps, it started with the journey of my education. I met my mental division as a good student or a bad student in different classes. As I grew older my divisions changed their forms. I was divided by my friends, relatives and my colleagues in the office, etc.

Every time divisions of a friend, foe, well-wisher and obedient, etc. were made after mental exercise but they were given emotional touch to the blood pumping station-the Heart. The heart bore all blame. Though the brain played the game, the heart broke into pieces. Someone cheated but the heart sank or the heart became sad. Even my heart wept. The heart was used as a symbol of life.

All emotional breaks originated from the heart. Specially, all events related to love affairs were earmarked for the heart. It was a pity to my heart. The heart mainly suffered because of the brain. The brain always played the safe game, blaming the heart. Even at working place, I was warned to do the work with a full heart. I could not understand such divisions of full or half heart in working when the brain was involved.

I think, on these concepts, that the heart is very important to think about others, to draw conclusions about others and to decide about taking the job. Reality is the opposite of these blame games because the heart’s functions are influenced by the brain. I may not forget the role of the eye because it indirectly controls the heart through the assistance of the brain and adds fuel to the fire. The eye also plays a safe game and the heart becomes the culprit. The heart is a scapegoat.

Whatever the reason may be, the shape of the heart like a betel’s leaf is very attractive and influences the brain. Such a picture of a heart pierced by an arrow attacks the nerves. I do not want to know whether the heart influences emotions or not, its simplified picture attacks the brain to proceed in any direction. Though the emotional roles of the heart are there yet it is the beauty of life. There should be an emotional day keeping in view the “heart”. The greatness of the heart is praiseworthy and has a place in literature. So sentences intentionally using the heart as a saving tool should be avoided. The sentence “You have no heart”, thrusts all problems of emotions of others on a single person.

Ultimately, I have found that I am not divided by the heart but because of the brain due to which everyone is divided, the world is divided and even God has been divided. Only life is with the heart, controlled by the brain because we are declared brain dead.

Let our hearts be alive to spread love. We should be surrounded by hearty people.

Checking

As we grow, the tendency of checking develops, and as such that it becomes a habit in long run. It starts from a safety point of view and finally becomes unchecked, in nature. In childhood, everything remains good until a child gains strength and starts using two legs to take the first step to tread the world. The child becomes like a vehicle without brakes. The first step is always encouraged and admired by all. But the moment a child starts using the brain to think and expresses curiosity to learn and touch because everything is new, unknown and amazing, the checking starts. For a child, rope and snake are the same. A child gets attention and parents become over-conscious about the security of the child and the loss of valuable materials. It is ensured that all things should be beyond the reach of a child. Though the intention is very clear that the child may touch, engulf, get hurt and damage things, attention gets top priority. But this habit of continuous checking has psychological effects on a child in the overall development and gives mostly negative results. The situation becomes worse when a caretaker is posted for this purpose for a child because the effects of checking may be multiplied as the appointee may become extra conscious of the secured self’s service. Ultimately, because of this, the interest of the child is not properly developed. We should enjoy childhood by reasonably checking, what we don’t remember due to forgetting. They should be treated friendly to prepare for the changing world.

Children are always children. They need directions and channelling of vibrant energy along with checking for their benefits. Let them be children till they start learning worldly vices.

Such encounter with checking in the name of prohibitions from the beginning of life in day-to-day work becomes a habit when we grow. We face in life more checkings than permissions in the name of society, moralities, discipline, religions, status and culture etc.

The method of checkings may be different at different places but the aim is the same everywhere- safety, security discipline and good governance etc. – to live and let live. In checking, the law of the land is supreme and for that different departments with defined responsibilities in government offices, legal courts and vigilant agencies are established.

Apart from these, there is moral policing of social contractors, checking social life and morality, according to age-old traditions. They go to any extent in the name of cleaning society. One step ahead, religious preachers and teachers impose their checking norms on the respective communities to strictly stick to laid down rules without fail. They have their concepts developed and concluded from the prevailing thoughts of religion to hold supremacy in society. They may define every single word of religious books to check and inculcate the community. They may go to any extent in this regard, in the name of competition with each other to influence and make new followers to satiate their thirst to impose restrictions on all, in the name of heaven and God.

Sometimes, these moral policing and religious thinking are playing roles of checking above the law of land and are used by political parties to grab the seats to form a government. They add fuel to the fire. This type of stringent checking is a serious threat to unforeseen consequences in future, where self will be above nation and law.

We may not reach on conclusion in the name of liberty that checking should not be there at any stage. But we should understand that we are not wild animals and the law of the jungle ( forest ) may not be allowed in civil society. Otherwise, life will be hell and we will be worse than animals with developed brains. Civic sense should prevail.

Checking is the essential devil for certain essential requirements for all without distinction, based on age, caste, creed, community and religion. Hardliners must be checked at every stage and place for the sake of humanity, social justice, peace, growth and security of the nation.

Checking pervert thinking and teaching must draw attention before they pollute the whole system. We should check before declaring OK for all concerned.

You are needed

Trees fly chirping,
Birds, rooted in the earth,
Heroes, as stars in the sky,
Stars, twinkling on earth,
Clouds, in our hands,
Water, sprinkling on the sky.
We want shortcuts.

Time is in our control,
Birth needs submission,
Death needs permission,
We dig water,
We eat air,
Our heads are down,
Our wishes are willing.

Do we dream of these?
A full topsy-turvy.
Why do we want such things?
Our imaginations and aspirations play roles in defining life in all eras. We may not accomplish all, in one life. Our unfulfilled willingness is the hunter of hunger. They are crusaders. We want to change but not ourselves. We worship but sail our ships.

We never examine our roles. We assess others’ roles. We have made God- many Gods for our use. Real God is money. We have aspirations for a virtual world – full of fictitious things in the name of pleasure and comfort. We have written our chapters of life on our terms, satiating our whims. No one wants to surrender for peace and love.

God! your lessons of love and grace are bookish and in practicality are used for fears, curses and pretentious attitudes.

God! You are being tested every day. You are needed. Your silence is taking the price of humanity. You are supposed to tell that you are the creator and you are the annihilator. One day your existence may be questioned. No one has seen you? But we love you for our sake.

You are the only hope. Otherwise, I am the best. God! You will be only a concept. A concept for the supremacy of a few.

Protection

Our concept that nature is an open book, has been understood from the day our ancestors came into existence and interacted with mighty nature. We are solely dependent on nature for our every activity from water to food and from death to life. This has given us the courage to survive, exist and protect. I think that our survival and existence are mainly food and fight-based, but protection is fear-based, depending on experience.

Nature has given us several means of natural protection. One such means is armour which gives the confidence to fight and be safe. Natural things have protective armours in different forms of covers, colours and shapes changing etc. of the outer skin or venomous liquid emitting capability and many more. But the highly developed and equipped with intelligent brains, humans need both God-gifted natural as well as self-made artificial armours. The natural armours are probably the same for all but the additional artificial armours are many and differ from individual to community to nation with the sole purpose of protective measures for safety, security and existence. This artificial aspect of armours is subjected to experimental and innovative changes for mainly holding supremacy over others. In this field of artificial development, humans are missing humanity and are confined to selfish attitudes. They have developed varieties of armours in various fields of life as per needs. Even humans are fighting with the provider, nature, for resources, for artificial armour.

Humans know about analysing problems and finding out solutions but never imagine the long-term effects or repercussions. Because of these artificial attitudes we have lost many species, rivers have dried and many civilisations that flourished near rivers are no more in existence.

Humans have checked flowing rivers for water storage in huge dams for various purposes as armour but these are proving to be water bombs in long run. Our developments have given passage to the Sun’s ultraviolet rays to harm the world. The air hasn’t been left unaffected because of pollution caused by harmful gases and dust. The earth and ocean, providers of all natural resources have been turned into dumping grounds of pollutants and are taking their last breath. Humans have not stopped here but have surrendered to their greed, lusts, unjust needs and desires of being masters of all creatures. They are peeping into the universe to prove their supremacy. They have dug their graves and have prepared cremation grounds themselves because of unwise activities.

The ultimate sufferers are humanity and nature. Humans have given emphasis to ” protection is better than cure “, in place of ” precaution is better than cure “. The cure is becoming worse due to lack of care. The care of both humanity and nature is at stake. We should not forget that ” never is not better than late ” and late should be deferred forever by being rational about minute things in mindful use.

Humanity has developed two types of cultures for protection – firstly, human rights culture and secondly, under-the-carpet culture suiting the wits. The thoughts of liberty and independence are playing nerves in such cultures. Humans have reached too far ahead to retreat from impossible artificial levels. Such protections’ unexpected outcomes are giving a number of movements. But the difference between rich and poor is a hindrance. Rich is dominating in dictating the terms. It is reflected in the policies of rich countries to give, make slaves and engulf territory as cannibal sharks. They forget to take the lesson that fire has no discrimination and will reach their area also.

Self-centred protectionism has devastated nature too. But nature which has made a congenial environment for humans’ evolution has the capacity to show the doors to extinction. The change is in the hand of nature which is occasionally giving indications in her style, silently and covertly. However, nature has cycles of an offer to exchange at par with good steps taken by humans for betterment. We have to grab the opportunities. The more one sucks, the more is chance of bleeding, causing harm to self. The balance between giving and taking is essential. The silence has enormous energy to ignite, to take precautions, to protect, care, cure and overhaul entire systems to restore originality.

Most of us are not enjoying the God-gifted life and are always in competitive mode. In a nutshell, we have lost ourselves for nothing, knowing all facts of life. Nature has shown the reality in this century’s pandemic due to which all means of protection have proved to be futile and the whole of humanity has been failing to the condition but the fight for supremacy is continuing at the same pace as before. Artificial armour is considered to be more reliable than natural ones. May almighty save humans and humanity. Artificial armour is doing more harm than good.

Twin Questions

I have many questions causing a high degree of depression. I have medicine for that but I do not have treatment for that. If I accept the present, I am okay. If I think of myself and my life, I find that my journey starts from knowing about my whereabouts which is not seen but imagined.

I have read many suggestions and different views in literature on life’s real journey. But in this world, I am having an independent identity, so I have to have my responsibility for this mission. I have benefited from doubts from earlier experiences. I know that I have infinity as a route and the present-day GPS ( GLOBAL POSITIONING SYSTEM ) can not assist. Our end is the new beginning and our beginning is the pleasant movement toward the end. I think that the end is more important in this journey. The vital question in this quest is of the starting point, to begin with. Who am I? Where have I come from? Where will I go? I again took the support of our ancestors’ views and thinking in this search for the truth of life. The time is the ladder taking towards refinement in thinking for these questions and doubts.

I have a name given by my parents. That is my identity to deal with in the journey of life in this materialistic and mortal world. The achievements in this journey are outcomes of my actions. I accept them as my destiny. But the questions of life remain unanswered and always alive. The search for their answers continues till last. I may guess that the limit of my speculation is beyond real answers. Even the great developments in scientific fields are unable to reach any conclusion. Science has found many answers to the secrets of nature and the universe. Science has become a creator in many aspects like God. But l think that the answers to my twin questions are in the black holes of the almighty. These black holes are invisible to scientific developments. May I imagine that all games of the almighty start from black holes? These are beyond the capacity of eyes to capture, as we may not listen to sounds after certain limits of frequency. So, I think all games of almighty may only be guessed as per individual’s limit.

Everything in the lap of the almighty is invisible. The path of our journey is through the physical body. We start from invisible through invisible in the dark place, to begin with. But I think life’s journey begins from and ends in the black holes of the almighty.

The day science will be the creator by such types of black holes the answers to my twin questions may be recorded. Till then scientific principles of the origins of both life and the universe hold acceptable barring religious theories because for the whole life of our existences and livelihoods we accept the scientific approaches in our answers in all exams.

We remain busy our whole life and forget to address many realities of life. At last, we feel frustrated and try to pass the time willy-nilly. I think that till that day of the conclusion of my twin questions, HUMANITY should get the upper hand in the world because everyone is important and has been destined to do jobs. No one is perfect and needs proper respect and support. We may bring heaven on earth like that.

Till that day of getting answers to my twin questions of life and death, we should not forget that God is the only controller of all activities. Visible and invisible are instruments of his music. But we may not listen because we are limited. We are smaller than a drop in his ocean of secrets and our knowledge is like a tiny island to boost having a niche in his world. We should not boast of that.