The Gap

I think that every gap reveals something like continuity or something like discontinuity. It may also tell about the endeavours of something to achieve. The gap may be natural or man-made but is found everywhere. The natural gap, depending upon many factors, may be abridged, but the human-made gaps in humanity control nature and humans’ history of concepts or developments or conflicts. Both types of gaps have common features. They separate. They are also important to give a fillip to think and plan for betterment.

I think that the gap is more evident in human history. I have interacted with at least four generations. I have seen changes. I have listened to the changes. I have heard different stories from my grandparents and learnt about their tough lives. They were physically strong and had faced adversaries. They had time for themselves, relationships and humanity. They were mentally strong also. My parents were in a better position than my grandparents in many aspects but not in terms of the facilities that my generation had.

If we conclude thinking, it becomes evident that every generation thinks of facing more trouble and lesser opportunities than the preceding generation. It may be true but not for every aspect.

Older generations had many things limited and even not easily available. They had less with more satisfaction and were alive to humanity with miserable situations. They had close-knit interdependent societies. Their plights may be known from the study of the literature of their times.

I had seen, in my generation, the first single-lane tar road making in my town in the mid-seventies and electricity in the early eighties. After that, when the economy of our country got a boost, then lives started changing in all fields because of developments. The distance in space and time got reduced from hours, and minutes to seconds. We have a lot from the biggest to nono and pocket-sized technologies. The changes in all aspects of life have affected our generation a lot. Our needs increased manifold in terms of greed. We have gained many things in the form of problems. Our developments have brought comfort and ease in life, along with many conflicts and dissatisfaction. We have lost our peace and our temperament developed regarding questioning the rituals for scientific proof. Even age-old beliefs are doubted. All such activities have made miserable situations for the present generation, giving rise to unnecessary tension.

The present new generation is more informed than older generations but not channelized for stipulated results due to a lack of proper guidance. It has resulted in a thematic approach and sectoral attitudes in social harmony endangering humanity. We do not have sharing attitudes and time for others. We want fast lives and multilane roads with dividers but never try to think of accidents due to hurrying habits. We want everything at once. We are trying to unveil the secrets of the universe but are not ready to learn the meaning of life. We have given control of our lives to various technologies and artificial gadgets and are becoming a slave. Even the mind is guided by others.

We should not forget that despite all developments and self-reliance in many requirements’ fulfilment, every generation has common problems of hunger and basic needs. The brain needs food and the hand needs engagement. Both needs of the physique should be healthy and positive. Above all, our requirements may be assessed as per time and changes in the world for sustainability.

We should have open eyes and agile minds to foresee the future. We should be ready to meet changes and challenges in every generation. We may not always get everything suitable and favourable. We have to be ready to bear the fruits of our actions. We may not follow the pick-and-choose policy. Every second is changing. Developments are continuously ongoing processes. Present-day achievements may be futile in the future.

So every new generation gets more opportunities and more problems and has to be ready to rise to the occasion in absolute terms as a versatile organism, to be acceptable everywhere. In short, a multi-purpose robotic life, controlled from a remote without emotions and reactions, will be hard facts to accept. This may be harmful to the humanity and sustainability of our community.

It is the duty of every generation to have coordination between old and new refined moral values as a guide for humanity, culture and peace in life with modernisation. Amendments in thinking as ingredients for developments are continuous processes to be in a race with time. A risk-taking spirit always pays in every generation.

Now, in the modern context, the worst is being noticed within one generation. There are many types of gaps in every front of life full of conflicts. Many types of pressure are mounting in life. That may cause different types of developments and emanate problems in the human kingdom. The world is changing at a faster speed than earlier and affecting the new generation every moment by modifying established concepts.

Developments and changes in human history are the reasons for differences in generations. It will always happen, but the contributions of every generation in human history should not be overlooked.

I need you

I have the desire.
I have dreams.
I have pain.
I have persuasion.

But I have fear –

to lose,
to leave midway,
to challenges,
to weakness,
to strength,
to satisfaction,
to sink,
to crave more,
to yield.

I need you because –

You give courage.
You are my partner.
You are my companion.
You are my friend.
You are my teacher.
You are my guide.
You are my emotions.

I have a body and a soul. I have fed my body to keep it healthy to meet the worldly affairs, but I have forgotten my soul’s need to be near you my almighty. I am in dire need of you. I have faith in you but am about to face failure. Your faith in me may shatter. I know that you have been behind me in every action. So let me not be down. I want your blessings on the advent of my death. I pray you to be my sailor in this world and be my porter to carry me to your world. My rest is there. My peace is there. My life is there. This world is full of uncertainty and negotiation.

Disturbance

I am busy fighting. Don’t disturb me, please.
I am busy remembering your faults. Don’t disturb me, please.
I am busy recounting your mistakes. Don’t disturb me, please.
I am busy observing others for my sake. Don’t disturb me, please.

I am afraid, I am evaluating myself.
I am disturbed, I am consoling myself.
I am obliged, I am bending myself.
I became human by killing an animal in me.
I am becoming an animal again by killing humanity.
I am changing my face into many faces.

I am hurting,
I am healing.
I am gaining,
I am decorating my inner home.

I am one,
I am for someone.
I am yours,
I am submerging my hidden thoughts.

I am flaring,
I am engulfing.
I am helping,
I am checking.
I am deteriorating,
I am succumbing.
I am denigrating,
I am relinquishing,
I am enjoying it.

I have drawn a line,
I have made a barrier,
I have sent a list.

My almighty –
I intend to understand your creations. I want to leave all my bad habits for my sake to enjoy your world, made with expectations. These are my disturbances. I am the dweller with unclear thoughts and an unknown future. I want to be to meet your intentions and live a life of your aspirations. I want to forget myself and my whimsical reasons to change interests for you. I want to follow your rules. I want to be lost in your search. Please remind your mind to this heinous world.

Joy of giving

I wanted to show my strength and prove my calibre from the day society started judging me. I wanted to be a successful man to get a place in society. I thought that every successful man had been pursuing money. I had views that money makes the mare go. I had seen that wealthy people had respect and were welcomed everywhere in society without considering their attitudes and behaviour. So, the day I started my carrier in service, I made money my first and last resort to prove to society. I became famous as a money butcher. My house was big with all the possible modern facilities. My family was respected and invited to every function in society. Sincerely, I was busy ploughing the money’s field to multiply in the coffer. I had been a money printer by hook or crook.

I was not alone in that field of greediness. Before me, there were many souls. I was trained by many of them. Everything was well planned and well shared. I was enjoying myself a lot with all comforts missing my future. I could not say whether I was happy or not. I was depressed about money. The more the depression in me the more the urge for robbing the money was in me.

However, I think that the earth may never be deprived of even a single good human who may not change the thought process in favour of humanity. A single incident may change the behaviour and whole life of a human. The day it happens that day is the real beginning of life in a human. That enlightenment is the need in everyone’s life to make heaven on earth. Before that, any human would be having a life a little bit superior to animals.

My life was changed not by a Saint but by an incident of helplessness of a pious soul. Yes, I say him a pious soul because he has sacrificed his last shelter for the cause of others. He had sold his house to satiate my lust and quench the thirst of others in the system to give meaningful life to orphans. The day I got that information I died in me. I wept for my sin. I became a carcass for myself. I found myself nowhere in the universe but that man was twinkling in the sky as a beautiful, attractive star in my dreams. I lost my sleep for nights. The reality was that I remained a beggar with all comforts stored for the coming generation. My life was a curse. So, I decided to be a human and bring life to myself. I searched for that man and he became my path shower in this world. He became my real teacher who taught me the meaning of life. I learnt only one sentence- sacrifice to the sacred life of others without scaring of outcomes because God is there. God shows the path. Whoever treads, becomes a changer. He told me that I have changed because of God. I was owing to the incident that changed me.

I have changed to writing words and making sentences from words to be on the right path to meet a meaningful life for others. Confidence in me is now defining life. I have realised the joy of giving. I am enjoying positive thinking. I am relishing peace in me. Now, I accept you are somewhere my almighty.

Acknowledgement

I hope this mail reaches you well to read me. My mail is blank, you may interpret me. Life is like that. I am not solely myself. Only a few things are mine in your name. I struggle to be noticed in this life because I have been prepared to struggle. The struggle has been my fate and I want to get rid of factors deviating me from drowning in your ocean.

My almighty! I have sent a blank mail because my life has begun like a blank slate or like a white sheet. I was not aware of the circumstances of worldly affairs until I got the sense to be responsive to situations. Since then, on the blank slate of my life, many things have been written. These are controlled by many factors- local, social, regional, traditional, cultural, religious and national etc.

I know that I am a part of this world and the world gives opportunities but with many hidden controlling contents. Whatever I see, are allurements. I am fish in the net. Net is made of controlling factors. These factors are brain teasers. All factors have been written on my slate of life as per time, space, requirements, intensity, expectations, use and outcomes. They have modified me into business material. I have been monetized. I have a fiscal value. I have been made materialistic in this mortal world.

My almighty, though I have developed a professional attitude and body language because of worldly factors yet your natural factors and embedded codes in my physique has affected me also. I have also performed accordingly as and when every factor has influenced me from outside and from within to be as per your will. But I have not trodden paths to be near you because of worldly factors and dissatisfaction in life due to competitive attitudes and habits to grab more to exist and sustain with maximum benefit, though minimum may have been sufficient to survive.

I have missed the bus leading to you my almighty. I have entertained virtual beauty instead of your real beauty coded in nature and humans. Your all factors have activated me in time but I have been camouflaged by need, deed and greed.

According to human-made factors I may be considered successful and suitable for everything. But I find myself on the verge of bankruptcy for thoughts for you almighty. The world thinks that I am independent but I think that it is a relative term and everyone is dependent on many things. Here, in this world, humanity and human rights are the talks of everywhere with controversial discrimination for self-praise. Humans have always missed real facts for existence because of self-centred complexes and every time a new harmful concept is occupying the central stage in the world. Here, respect is paid to the rising Sun, in every concept and It is common everywhere.

I am succumbing to my situation and have sent a blank mail to you with the hope of your light overshadowing worldly factors to be near you. I have been running on a very smooth surface and having falls continuously. I want to be in your shelter. I am a missing drop of your ocean. I want to acknowledge you only. Whatever problems hinder me, you know the solution. I am medium to blame but still, I know that you are doing good for your creatures. So, I do not want to acknowledge the mortal world. I want your love before I start hating myself.

The letter “I ” and its effects

” I ” is a letter in the alphabet of the English language. ” I ” has also a meaning as a word. ” I ” has many qualities and influences a human the most. It may affect the brain and life of someone. It has very much vicious spiritual concerns.

It independently or with a combination of other words makes me feel proud, arrogant, self-oriented and stubborn. This keeps me away from exploring myself and keeps me alone in the crowd. I may not mingle with others. I may not understand anyone. I may not respect someone older or younger. I may not accept my everyday responsibilities. I, because of it, feel all in one and I get myself above all at the top. It has infused merciless pride in me because I think that I am the best of all. ” I ” has occupied my brain that much.

I think that ” I ” is the main culprit of all problems in this world. It is the reason for my ego and greed. This has generated a sense of insecurity in me. Because of this, I am losing myself and going away from everything and everyone. It appears like a simple small vertical line, but it may hide all human’s good qualities. It is cunning also. It has the psychological qualities to hide and expose them at the proper time without giving time to the opponents. The dominance of ” I ” in my head is a curse to me.

I want to know the reason for this issue of ” I ” and its inventor. Perhaps the feeling of ” I ” comes from within because of the issue of survival. In nature, according to experience, the fittest one survives. Survival may be the main issue. Otherwise, surrendering before a stronger one may be the only option to survive. This ” I ” makes someone a fighter. At last, ” I ” makes greedy, craving for maximum to dominate over others. Even then, despite all ill qualities like disease, I think that ” I ” has one good quality and that is to get rid of slavery. This ” I ” gives a sense of self-respect in certain cases.

When the self-centred attitudes inculcated by ” I ” are left, then the godly behaviours of someone may influence the whole world. When all bad notions of ” I ” are eliminated to make it ” we,” then a sense of one family appears in the mind. Then, it cares for everyone and shares everything. This ” I ” is the reason for my God and your God.

” I ” is a character. ” I ” is a psychological guide. ” I ” is a science of behaviour. ” I ” acts as a curtain before the eyes. ” I ” acts as a wall before the brain. ” I ” is like a shadow. ” I ” makes life treacherous. The dominance of ” I ” is a hurdle in movements toward spirituality. ” I ” keeps ego as a hindrance to thinking of God. ” I ” should be demolished in everyone’s mind from childhood. When we forget “I ” in us, everything appears to be pleasant and life becomes peace-loving. ” I ” is the reason for hell on the earth dividing and robbing everything given by God in the name of survival. Everyone should get rid of the destructive ” l ” to be happy, hopeful and useful for all.

You- My Life

No tears please,
Let the eyes be treasury.
No distance please,
Let the gap vanish.
No separation please,
Let life be pleasurable.
No anger please,
Let the bud turn into a flower.
No hurrying please,
Let me last with you.
No mercy please,
Let me die in your love.
No confusion please,
Let the tree bear fruits.

You talk to me –
With Your heart,
With your silence,
With your smile,
With your eyes,
With your sound,
With your face,
With your touch,
With your fingers,
With your pleasure,
With your joy.

You have meaning,
You have string,
You have emotions,
You have feelings,
You have mystery,
You have light,
You have descriptions,
You have destinations,
You have everything.

I do not want to lose you in my dreams too. You are to realise our dreams. You are my gift. You tease and deserve it at the same time. But you are my life. You are my present and my future is in you. You write. I read. You have made me optimistic through your heavenly body. Let me be honoured. Let me be devoted. Let me be reciprocal in love. Let me be liberated with you.

The Heart and I

I have seen physical divisions of land, house, sky and ocean. There may be several reasons for divisions which may be described at length. Even our thoughts have divided all humans. However, I do not want to be physically divided. But I am divided. I am being divided. I have been divided. This is not the end of my divisions. I know that I will be divided many times.

My divisions started from the day I took birth. I was pleasurably divided among many relatives with different names as per relationship. I was not knowing them all except for my relationship with my mother. It was determined by God. She was always special in my life. I was tied to her from within when she was taking a risk of her life only for me. She was my protector when I was outside. She was my unconditional supporter with true guidance without any division.

I do not know the exact time of inception of my divisions in the outer world of unknown people. Perhaps, it started with the journey of my education. I met my mental division as a good student or a bad student in different classes. As I grew older my divisions changed their forms. I was divided by my friends, relatives and my colleagues in the office, etc.

Every time divisions of a friend, foe, well-wisher and obedient, etc. were made after mental exercise but they were given emotional touch to the blood pumping station-the Heart. The heart bore all blame. Though the brain played the game, the heart broke into pieces. Someone cheated but the heart sank or the heart became sad. Even my heart wept. The heart was used as a symbol of life.

All emotional breaks originated from the heart. Specially, all events related to love affairs were earmarked for the heart. It was a pity to my heart. The heart mainly suffered because of the brain. The brain always played the safe game, blaming the heart. Even at working place, I was warned to do the work with a full heart. I could not understand such divisions of full or half heart in working when the brain was involved.

I think, on these concepts, that the heart is very important to think about others, to draw conclusions about others and to decide about taking the job. Reality is the opposite of these blame games because the heart’s functions are influenced by the brain. I may not forget the role of the eye because it indirectly controls the heart through the assistance of the brain and adds fuel to the fire. The eye also plays a safe game and the heart becomes the culprit. The heart is a scapegoat.

Whatever the reason may be, the shape of the heart like a betel’s leaf is very attractive and influences the brain. Such a picture of a heart pierced by an arrow attacks the nerves. I do not want to know whether the heart influences emotions or not, its simplified picture attacks the brain to proceed in any direction. Though the emotional roles of the heart are there yet it is the beauty of life. There should be an emotional day keeping in view the “heart”. The greatness of the heart is praiseworthy and has a place in literature. So sentences intentionally using the heart as a saving tool should be avoided. The sentence “You have no heart”, thrusts all problems of emotions of others on a single person.

Ultimately, I have found that I am not divided by the heart but because of the brain due to which everyone is divided, the world is divided and even God has been divided. Only life is with the heart, controlled by the brain because we are declared brain dead.

Let our hearts be alive to spread love. We should be surrounded by hearty people.

I am woman

I am purpose –
Though I think of myself I have opportunities for others. I am simple for mountains. I am complicated with rivers. I am tough for negotiations. I am zeal. I am zest. I am margin. I am the path. I am a pathmaker. I am a pathfinder. I am a problem. I am the solution. I am predictable. I am unpredictable. I am open. I am closed. I am certain.

I have a historical image –
My smile is mesmerizing. My touch is firing. My eyes are enticed. I am lively from tip to toe. I am a magnetic attraction. I am living the art of life. I am a bundle of happiness. I am a beautiful realization. I never accept. I return wholeheartedly. I am weak. I am soft. I am strong. I am hard. But others decide my fate. When I write my destiny others become objectors. I am a tradition. I am rituals. I have morals. I am beginning. I am an end. I am a drop. I am deeper than the ocean. I am a transformer. I am devoted. I am beyond the boundaries of interpretations.

I am progress –
I am motion. I have momentum. When I am connected with others, I become accommodative. I become supportive. I become an acceptor. I become a rejector. I have weaknesses. I have strength.

I construct and destruct at the same time- I am the source of the unknown. I am expanding from invisible to visible. I am not a commodity. I am not for interaction and interests only. I have values also. I bring the light from the darkness. I sacrifice. I surrender to nature. I am nature too. I give others the right to explore me. I restrict movements. I bind thoughts. I am medium. I am a meditation. I am the ship. I am like worship. I am salvation. I am a challenge and a surprise by heaven. I am deeper than what you know.

I am continuity –
I am journey. I am memory. I am history. I am earth. I am a link between two ends. I am a woman. I am always an individual. I am never an individual. I am a secret. I have wings. My majesty should be given the honour.

My tolerance limit is continuously tested.
You try to know me before you understand me. I lead to reach joys where all questions subside and you obtain positivity to mould your ability towards salvation if you can.

Age is a number

It is the nature of humans to reiterate the common favourite lines to be said on a particular occasion. It has to be, as we wish someone on a birthday, new year and anniversary etc. Those lines are used with somewhat changes, having the same fervour.

I have always heard many beautiful lines on such dates, in my case, also but one line being told at the time of retirement from service, has attracted me the most. The line always being told during wishing for happy retirement life is that – age is a number. Though this notion instils positivity yet we forget that facts reflect their shadow. The fact is that with every day, a number of changes in the present life and body, along with mental health occur. Such changes have effects. Otherwise, the retirement age should have been different or something else.

It is true regarding age, but we should remember that every number has a face value and has increasing or decreasing value relations with preceding and succeeding numbers. Likewise, the number in age has only increasing value in the preceding year in terms of experience, expectations, aspirations and responsibilities etc. The time, for self, decreases and attention towards a name or position, in most cases, gets priority over the future to be realities.

This phase of service life is getting professional advice in the present situation when the longevity of both female and male have increased because of congenial developments. The retiring persons are being imparted knowledge on savings, investments, expenditures and careful handling of lucrative offers in the digital world. These are important, because of limited sources of income and changing social and personal relations.

The most important requirement for the earlier active person after retirement is the engagement for the routine period earmarked for official engagement in service. There becomes a sudden vacuum.
They are considered exhausted.

Many suggestions for their engagement may be given but dignity, flexibility in duty hours and respect etc. should be taken care of. Most of the time, they are emotionally blackmailed and become prey to cheating people in the name of engagements. We forget that they are treasures of experience and are ready to share them. They may easily be ready to return to the society to which they feel indebted. A fully respectful system, for engaging them, is needed at the time.

They need care with the passage of time also. They should not be left unattended to feel neglected. Their healths deteriorate faster because of this. They become more dependent as the number in age increases. They become helpless and take shelter in old age homes, because of family problems or otherwise.

There is no controversy in considering that age is a number but this appears to be true in the case of such professions where separations are to be decided by self. In every profession, whatever engagement, separation has to happen and age has to reflect its effects.

Age is a number for counting. It has demands also. But positivity is there. Everyone should have it, as age has many things in store to return.

We should not forget that God is there and love is life. We should not forget that we are successors also, so we have ideas about age.


HAPPY NEW YEAR 2023 TO ALL MY FRIENDS