Me of Mine

I have “me” in myself. This me of mine is the root cause of all types of greed, distress and diseases.

When I was an infant, I was with my mother only. I always wanted to be with her only. She was my world for everything.
She was my life jacket in the world of problems from my first day on this earth. I learned to swim in this oceanic world under the supervision of my mother. She was my heaven. I was only comfortable with her.

   When first time I was sent to school I felt alone. My troubles started with learning the first letter of the alphabet in my mother tongue. I started facing worldly vices. My mother made me acquainted with such affairs and gave me lessons to cope with them.

One day my mother left me alone in this world for her invisible journey to another world. I became an orphan and easy prey to all nuances of society. I turned from good to bad and from bad to worse and worst.  I forgot to control my tongue and master the time for the sake of me. I could not behave like a sieve to be like a sage.

I was always right on the wrong side. Earlier, I had searched for myself in my mother but now without my mother, I had been a demon with harming tendencies. All earlier teachings were futile. I changed as per my needs and became more selfish. I had lost myself in me.

My love for myself had been a curse later in life. I wanted to regret and regain my childhood notions and thoughts. I wanted my mother to be with me again. But this was not possible.

I did not know the history of souls. My mind had a plethora of thoughts like waves in the ocean. I wanted to use my waves for me and for peace in life. I had recalled my mother’s teaching, –  “the new path starts from where you become helpless and confused about life and devote yourself to the almighty. Then he takes care.”

I have surrendered to almighty for his shelter. This time my me is not for myself but for selflessness. My me has submerged into almighty. I have restricted myself to a minimum for living and requirements. My thoughts start with him and end with him – the almighty. My me is for your cause.

Now I am yours. Sorry, I have never asked – ” how are you “? I am pity on myself for losing you. My repentance may please be accepted for me.   

Cooperation

Everyone has a separate entity, but the existence and continuity need cooperation. It is the primary requirement. One may think of being independent but should be aware that the beginning of life, in humans, demands cooperation. God has made the most developed creature- humans as such –  the most dependent, on each other and nature too.

Cooperation is the soul of the universe. Living and nonliving creatures are dependent on each other. Exchange and exploration vitally play roles in existence. The origin of life on earth became possible only because of cooperation among various essential factors. The same principles still hold.

In nature, ecosystems exist and cooperate for continuity and sustainability. We may observe that birds while eating fruits on trees, take care of living things like insects and ants etc. on the ground by falling some parts of the fruits they eat. If we explore we may get many instances of cooperation for coexistence in nature. In general, nothing is useless for nature. But humans have forgotten the need for cooperation for existence because of technological changes and consider themselves more powerful than nature. They are challenging the rules of balance of nature and the main principle of – live and let live – for their own needs. Nature can take care of all but follows paths of cooperation. We should not forget that in Sanatan Dharma ( Sanatan religion) our ancestors have made rituals to distribute a part of daily meals among birds, animals and others like fish etc. They had explored the importance and need for cooperation.

It is time for humans to be careful and vigilant to avoid extinction at last. We may develop. We may change the course of rivers. We may move on Moon and Mars. We may try to know the life in the universe, elsewhere. We may be the most powerful but we are the weakest creatures on earth. We should not forget that an ant may kill a much bigger and stronger elephant.

God has given unique qualities to humans to excel in but with limits. The moment humans make advancements in the name of progress, the matter of existence get worsens in future. God has made humans strong but emotionally controlled and needy for living.

Humans need the most from nature. We may not dictate terms and conditions to nature. We have to be cooperative as borrowers and not as scavengers for nature’s favouritism.  Cooperation may not be snatched. It needs devotion, sacrifice,  compromise and coordination from all and sundry.

The Great ” ZERO “

The beginning and end of ” zero ” may not be known. For anyone, zero is meaningless and has no value. It is used to express the foolishness of someone also. But this zero is very important in the calculation in this materialistic world.  When it is placed after any number, it changes nothing into something. It changes the place value. A number of zeros, together, become stronger to add value. Though the value of zero is none, its circular shape has meaning. Its size has no limit. The finding of the circular wheel, much before the concept of zero came, matched zero’s shape and speeded the development of civilisation from primitive to modern and technologically advanced societies. We may notice the effective importance of the shape of zero that most of the moving or revolving things are circular and follow a circular path.

Zero echoes that nothing is also important and contributes to making the identity of self and others meaningful. We may find such special issues in life especially related to spirituality and society. Most intelligent people have biased notions toward persons of less importance. However, many persons like zero are important to a leading personality and they become useful to someone. They make difference as a part of the crowd. Their potentialities may be channelized to get fruitful results. Sometimes, they are misused or mishandled for self-interests by mischievous elements. They need utmost attention for a proper respectable share in society. The feeling that I am the best should not always neglect the importance of zero in society. This attitude may disintegrate the social structure. We should have zero tolerance for such attitudes. Individuality is very important.

Spiritually, zero is like a sage who gives meaning to other’s life and pervades sanctity. All desires merge into one eternity to be zero in existence. Ultimately, zero encircles all to be within the limit. This has implicit philosophy to live and let live. Zero is always persistent. We originate from zero. We have to merge into zero.

Zero is a force giving meaning everywhere as per need. It may define others, keeping self unaffected. Zero is the root of all activities and thoughts. 

CONFUSION-The story for beginning

It was a valid question. How long may we go together? She asked. For me ” Why ” was involved in this doubt. So I wanted to know the reason for that question before the beginning of an important phase of life.
She replied that the world is changing fast, so we may also change with the world in time. I smiled to know more. She went on to speak on many examples of having negative impacts and broken lives, full of tears. I agreed for a little but tried to convince her to explore deeply as a social and personal researcher.

We have many types of lives, in one life given and fully controlled by the almighty for duration and extent. In that one life, social responsibilities give this opportunity where two are involved to grow together as one entity to procreate. This life is the main centre surrounded by many types of activities and lives expecting responsibilities. This is a fact where competition should not come in mind to dominate over each other. We should not compromise but cooperate and trust each other for the best results. The natural duties assigned to different genders may not be changed. One may assist or cooperate in such functions.

We are social animals, not like wild animals where most of the duties are responsibilities of females, especially towards children. But such is not the case with us, human beings, as we have developed brains to excel. The moment a relation is given a name, the identity changes with certain terms, as an addition in relation. In your question, this marriage is of this kind.

I agree to accept that society has been very much conservative in this matter towards females, having attitudes mainly restricted to the kitchen and family. Those were the days when education was not in approach of all females and self-reliance was a dream to them. Those conditions began changing when the social revolution started and became successful after a lot of resistance. But still, the plight is not completely over because of male dominating attitudes. Even highly educated males are having such attitudes and their animal instincts dominate occasionally.

Now, after a few generations, the pathetic old conditions of females are changing their course, towards equality and equal terms because of the spread of education among them.

She looked at me differently for more. I continued. Please ignore the doubts and confusion because they kill the future and ruin life. Whatever we are at present, is because of our parents who were not knowing our futures and proceeded in their lives with positive attitudes. We always advance towards an unknown future and our positive attitudes pave the way. Everything will never be smooth and relations are tested in thick and thin. We should always remember that two are better than one to face any situation. One should give inspiration about satisfaction and cooperation. No one is perfect. So more doubt on self’s willpower and control may not bring anticipated results. Yes, there is no doubt that every relationship asks for sacrifice, ignorance, adjustments and tolerance up to a certain extent. The relationship of the mother always demands sacrifice. No one may help you here, beyond a limit because it is above all relationships. Even God needs her.

My views helped her a little. She expressed her doubts because of the unsuccessful marriages of her many friends. She said that most of them are facing court cases. So, she has many doubts. ” Many doubts make someone weak and may lead to loneliness,” I said. You should analyse your confidence before taking a final decision but take lessons from your parent’s life. It is true that relations give rights but brings responsibilities also and life is not like one-way traffic. We should drive carefully. Your words and attitudes play important roles in every relationship. If necessary, one should interfere, otherwise, silence is the best medicine. Honest discussions may bring solutions. If you give a chance someone to be a judge for solutions then one may add fuel to the fire as per his or her interests. Whatever, I have told, is not new but needs refreshments through any means. She smiled a little with a meaningful stare, this time. I thought this is the right time to strike at the right place. I told her that you were too thoughtful to spoil the meaningful life ahead. Moreover, your over consciousness is questioning your self-confidence. Perhaps, you are silently accepting and endorsing the old concepts and traditions related to the conditions of women who were ill-treated, most of the time as slaves. Moreover, educated and self-reliant ladies should take the lead to change the male-dominated society. Rest is in your mind to decide. But one thing, we should never forget that our mothers have made us despite limited liberties. You may also change the world in any circumstance.

Finally, I smiled and said that I could not anticipate your questions to be asked in my old age about future generations, which might have come into existence because of your cooperation and sacrifices. You may not kill God gifted instincts of any gender.

At last, I have a question for you- what will be your reaction if you find out that a girl is proposing to a boy for togetherness in future? You should note in any generation,  natural differences in males and females regarding physique, tenderness, nature, functions and responsibilities etc. may never change except in exceptional cases. You may face many such or other types of questions in times to come with more advancements and the spread of education.

This confession brought emotional reactions to her body from tip to toe. She smiled and proceeded on the important future venture in marriage with confidence. I am with her now blessed in madness in life.    

You and I

I had a link, you had nourished.
I had seed, you had sown.
I had flourished, you had reaped.
I had me in you, you had life for me.
I had a question, you had an answer.
I had given, you had distributed.
I had lust, you had love.
I had a conflict, you had trust.
I had aim, you had desire.
I had flame, you had the fire.
I had words, you had meaning.
I had the body, you had a soul.
I had sound, you had music.
I had flown, you had checked.
I had mate, you had made.
I had cry, you had patience.
I had a call, you had a response.  
I had opened, you had covered.
I had the opportunity, you had implementation.
I had sedition, you had a submission.
I had the decision, you had a creation.
I had the option, you had coordination.
I had passion, you had control.
I had a request, you had consent.
I had a notion, you had cooperation.
I had end, you had beginning.

We were two, you had made us one and many.

Return

I think that a suitable word denoting completion of a cycle is ” Return “. In a wheel, a point returns to its previous location in completion of one circle but it goes ahead and reaches to the location by repeating the cycle. This is applicable to all. No one can move without completing a cycle.

Nature is an open book, where a number of cycles are running continuously maintaining close coordination with each other. There are cycles in air, in the sea and within the earth. If any disturbance is detected its effects may be hazardous. The important seasonal cycle- summer – rain and winter, is well known on the earth. There may be a deviation in other parts of the earth. This cycle mainly depends on the temperature, cloud and wind. The wind cycle depends on the temperature, to carry clouds which depends on low-pressure zones to discharge water as rain. This season’s cycle along with another water’s cycle is the life of nature. Nature maintains her existence with the temperature and the water.

Every creature depends mainly on these cycles. Besides, there are the food cycle, growth cycle and many more essential cycles in nature. But the water cycle is important for sustainability. Nature frugally uses this valuable gift. Nature behaves like a miser. She uses water for creatures, stores water on the  earth for use and sends back surplus water to the ocean for maintaining the continuity of the cycle. Nature, for this, has a unique transportation system of rivers, leading to the ocean.

Nature is very kind. Nature is very cruel also. At last, nature takes all things back from her dwellers, whatever she releases from her warehouses. All creatures from  invisible to visible take essential items from the earth and surroundings for origin, growth and performing worldly duties. Nature very kindly support a life and supply essentials for sustainability. But she has defined return policies for her treasury. When a living thing becomes nonliving, her systems and agents get activated automatically at the proper time to take back all essentials used. The body decays and becomes useful for others. These cycles run continuously in nature.

Humans are also part of nature’s cycles. But they have a brain. They think, because of this, they have interfering qualities through thoughts, behaviours, emotions and greedy attitudes. They do not have their cycles to challenge nature but they have a sequence of karma (actions ) followed by fruits (results). In this sequence, karma controls the type of fruit and fruit may control the further course of actions followed by results to carry on the sequence which controls the life in the human kingdom. Karma is mainly controlled by attitudes, behaviours, surroundings and emotions. But the greed of humans plays a vital role in deciding the path of karma. Though humans, based on experience in the past, may anticipate the relationship between karma and results, yet they are disturbing nature. Humans are fully dependent on nature from day one to the last day of their lives. But in the name of sustainability, they are taking more from nature than they can return. Most of the resources are non-renewable and non- replenishing.

Nature has suffered from humans to the extent that her seasonal cycle and the water cycle have been disturbed the most. The results of karma are backfiring on humans and their existence is in danger. Nature is taking its course to sustain and is giving a warning to humans to be careful to change their thinking before it is too late.

We have potential beyond imagination. We have to rise to the occasion to limit our needs to a minimum. Otherwise, the fruits of actions will be annihilating. We may not save ourselves with all technological advancements. The return may be to the stone age but on the wheel of destruction what we are witnessing in the form of different types of wars between countries in the world. We are forgetting that our cycle is completed from the almighty to the almighty via natural duties with the assistance of nature made by the almighty. We are so intelligent that in this cycle of life we always fight for the existence of the almighty and we fight for my God and your God but we forget to define a human and humanity. We should celebrate a human day also for our sake. We should also think about fixing a day in the name of God, in a year, to remember that we are sons and daughters of only one God.

Gratitude

I am not creator. I am contributor. I have always expressed my gratitude in my applications, written to the appealing authorities with selfish professionalism to extract favour from their arrogance, in  holding a God like position, in their senses.
Professionalism is always for the self first. I have done all this for my self growth and for satisfying my ego. My ego has been a driving force in my professional journey. It has shown me both short and long paths to tread in this journey of life. I opted the path as per situational demand.

I think my sense of gratitude was not by heart, so it never gave me happiness after any achievement. I was deceiting my self. I had many companions in my professional journey, posing as my well wishers in front of me. But they used to dig  my grave behind me for their egos. That was also a way of showing gratitude.

So, I understand that gratitude is a vehicle that carries everyone’s ego forward. The result of ego may be in positive or in negative, affecting the progress of units of executions. Rest lies in the hand of destiny.
Destiny is torch bearer. It is  controlled  by almighty. It is said that one can change destiny but that is also in control of almighty.

So, I think my sincere gratitude is to almighty. In my journey of life, I show my heartiest gratitude to all who have brought smile and happiness for me without expecting anything. My sincere gratitude in reality is for those who gave me experiences through their behaviours and attitudes. They have prepared me for odds and made me bold for existence. I reveal my gratitude and indebtedness to nature who has taken care of everything for my life. I have no sense of gratitude for my parents because I may not be selfish for them. My all thoughts end with them. They are my beginning and they are my termination. The lap wherein I got love,  peace, security, safety and learned lessons of life has no suitable word in any language of the world for measuring and expressing gratitude. I may reserve my will above all for them. I always miss them. My mother is above all and her lap is above God’s heaven. So, all my gratitude are to everyone visible or invisible in life’s journey.
May I give gratitude to me for always being me. I do am, my destiny. My gratitude is to destiny.

POOR- The bread givers

I am not poor. I am not only born with a belly and a mouth but also have two hands. Like every one, I took birth as raw but my parents were categorised as the  poor by human’s  prescribed standards. Since childhood, it appeared that I was special for specific purpose, as if, God had sent me for already continued assignments and I had to bear them as destiny. I was provided opportunities for own developments, on so determined  equal basis, in the name of education and health etc. with separate bases, as securities, for my category, according to my affordability and status.

When I grew with my situational fate, my views analysed that great God never differentiated and provided everyone with same biological qualities but the existing system on earth was human made in the name of management and necessities.

I think poor have a very traditional approach towards life but knowledge on the poor’s history is immaterial. Solutions are expected only from controllers, as provider. Now, I find that all needy are kind of poor and actual poor by categorisation are the foundation of all types of growth. They are the means of employments and engagements. Everyone may agree in principle that  the poverty is a curse, but I  think, it is a boon for many in the society. When I analyse, I observe that poor are bread and butter givers to many like writers, artists, painters, film makers, NGOs and government employees etc. Everyone of each category gives attention to the poor in her or his specialsation to expose plights and earns for own survival. Every government tries to eradicate poverty through schemes but the poorness is still continuing.

The poverty is a fire that is destined to give energy to all activities. Perhaps, not a single work can be done without the poor. We are paid for work but only sufficient for survival to carry on the livelihoods.

The  Poor are letters to start. The Poor are words for depictions. The Poor are sentences for complete meaning. The  Poor are necessities. All government’s schemes may not show the end of poverty because the implementors are very poor and they need more attentions. They always have their first bites from our dishes. So, our continuation appears to be permanent. We may be easily recognised every where without difficulty because of psychological reasons of our surrendering to the situations. We have no honor or place in society and  we are never treated to be honest. These are well accepted thoughts. The Poor are something for every section of society.

Being poor, I am proud that my fate enables me  to make fate of others. My share is with everyone as reminder for caring me. I expect that one day my complete share will reach to me before my departure from this opportunistic world. I want to be real rich person, complete in all respects without any camouflage. May every poor be like that free of small, dirty, poorly drained and stingy huts or small rooms with dilapidated walls in a distant  side of a city or town, as neglected habitats, contributing in richness of others.

Daughter

She comes,
She smiles,
She touches,
She holds,
She hugs,
She cares,
She gives me a name.

She is my friend,
She is my life,
She is my destiny,
She is my love,
She is my flower,
She is my fragrance,
She is my light,
She is my twittering bird,
She is my face ,
She has given me purpose,
She is my blessing,
She is my daughter.

Her future is my future,
Her sound is my path,
Her journey is my journey,
Her smile is my treasure.

She has to fly,
I have to give her wings.
She has to be traditional,
I have to give her rituals,
She has to be for sure,
I have to give her opportunities.
She has her own identity,
I have to give her strength.
She is a gender,
I have to make her perfect.
She is the maker,
I have to give her time.

She should be self,
She should be a book,
She should be easy,
She should be tough,
She should be water,
She should be wind,
She should be earth,
She should be open,
She should be closed,
She should be medium,
She should be maker,
She should be power,
She should be inspiration.

She should be for others,
She should be creative,
She should be for nature,
But she should be for her own.

Life Around Something

When you get something, you think big to excell. When you loose someone you think big to excell. Our lives swing like pendulum between something and someone. This philosophy of life is lone controlling factor
of all activities in the world.

The something instigates  life, one by one, towards completion, but it is never completed and remains alive for something more. That’s why we are struggling with ourselves for something.

The good or bad histories of the world are the results of such somethings. The present days prevailing activities in the world –  corruption, fight for supremacy, economic war, environmental issues, lobbying etc.  are because of this something more. This something may also be desire, encouragement, zeal, enjoyment, greed, and cause of all sorts of social vices.

Something is responsibility. Above all something is essential element of life. Actually something is Carrier for nothing.
In pursuit of something from childhood to adulthood and old age, one day life says goodbye forever. When the someone leaves for unknown place, something is left here in this world, in hands of others, craving for  something. This departure changes the  course of thinking upto highest level of disillusionment. Life appears to be meaningless for something. This is the ultimate truth beyond something.

We should enjoy beginning of life from something to departure from life to unknown. The end of life is imminent. Nothing is permanent. This thought if prevails, the world may become heaven and lust for something may be need based. We may act for salvation. Peace may spread. World may be a global family, caring each other as the God wants.

Competition is bone of contention. We only think all these at funeral ground and after that the world moves on, never stops. We indulge into daily course of existence because we are learned fools. This is the real fact.

In modern time, something is getting more importance as the life is changing to show business knowingly or unknowingly beyond truth. We have reached upto the level of false status symbol expressions, that every one has been  competitor of self. There is need or not but I will tell about myself because I have something to show. But it is to be judged. Sometimes smiling face has hidden griefs. The fake one appears as real due to something.

Something motivates for more and more and controls all activities the world over but someone shows the reality of world. The choice is personal – something or  someone. Both are separate  but sail in the same boat in the river of life.

We should respect and enjoy someone with something within pleasant limits, in true sense, to  create heaven on the earth