I have seen physical divisions of land, house, sky and ocean. There may be several reasons for divisions which may be described at length. Even our thoughts have divided all humans. However, I do not want to be physically divided. But I am divided. I am being divided. I have been divided. This is not the end of my divisions. I know that I will be divided many times.
My divisions started from the day I took birth. I was pleasurably divided among many relatives with different names as per relationship. I was not knowing them all except for my relationship with my mother. It was determined by God. She was always special in my life. I was tied to her from within when she was taking a risk of her life only for me. She was my protector when I was outside. She was my unconditional supporter with true guidance without any division.
I do not know the exact time of inception of my divisions in the outer world of unknown people. Perhaps, it started with the journey of my education. I met my mental division as a good student or a bad student in different classes. As I grew older my divisions changed their forms. I was divided by my friends, relatives and my colleagues in the office, etc.
Every time divisions of a friend, foe, well-wisher and obedient, etc. were made after mental exercise but they were given emotional touch to the blood pumping station-the Heart. The heart bore all blame. Though the brain played the game, the heart broke into pieces. Someone cheated but the heart sank or the heart became sad. Even my heart wept. The heart was used as a symbol of life.
All emotional breaks originated from the heart. Specially, all events related to love affairs were earmarked for the heart. It was a pity to my heart. The heart mainly suffered because of the brain. The brain always played the safe game, blaming the heart. Even at working place, I was warned to do the work with a full heart. I could not understand such divisions of full or half heart in working when the brain was involved.
I think, on these concepts, that the heart is very important to think about others, to draw conclusions about others and to decide about taking the job. Reality is the opposite of these blame games because the heart’s functions are influenced by the brain. I may not forget the role of the eye because it indirectly controls the heart through the assistance of the brain and adds fuel to the fire. The eye also plays a safe game and the heart becomes the culprit. The heart is a scapegoat.
Whatever the reason may be, the shape of the heart like a betel’s leaf is very attractive and influences the brain. Such a picture of a heart pierced by an arrow attacks the nerves. I do not want to know whether the heart influences emotions or not, its simplified picture attacks the brain to proceed in any direction. Though the emotional roles of the heart are there yet it is the beauty of life. There should be an emotional day keeping in view the “heart”. The greatness of the heart is praiseworthy and has a place in literature. So sentences intentionally using the heart as a saving tool should be avoided. The sentence “You have no heart”, thrusts all problems of emotions of others on a single person.
Ultimately, I have found that I am not divided by the heart but because of the brain due to which everyone is divided, the world is divided and even God has been divided. Only life is with the heart, controlled by the brain because we are declared brain dead.
Let our hearts be alive to spread love. We should be surrounded by hearty people.
Gratitude
I am not creator. I am contributor. I have always expressed my gratitude in my applications, written to the appealing authorities with selfish professionalism to extract favour from their arrogance, in holding a God like position, in their senses.
Professionalism is always for the self first. I have done all this for my self growth and for satisfying my ego. My ego has been a driving force in my professional journey. It has shown me both short and long paths to tread in this journey of life. I opted the path as per situational demand.
I think my sense of gratitude was not by heart, so it never gave me happiness after any achievement. I was deceiting my self. I had many companions in my professional journey, posing as my well wishers in front of me. But they used to dig my grave behind me for their egos. That was also a way of showing gratitude.
So, I understand that gratitude is a vehicle that carries everyone’s ego forward. The result of ego may be in positive or in negative, affecting the progress of units of executions. Rest lies in the hand of destiny.
Destiny is torch bearer. It is controlled by almighty. It is said that one can change destiny but that is also in control of almighty.
So, I think my sincere gratitude is to almighty. In my journey of life, I show my heartiest gratitude to all who have brought smile and happiness for me without expecting anything. My sincere gratitude in reality is for those who gave me experiences through their behaviours and attitudes. They have prepared me for odds and made me bold for existence. I reveal my gratitude and indebtedness to nature who has taken care of everything for my life. I have no sense of gratitude for my parents because I may not be selfish for them. My all thoughts end with them. They are my beginning and they are my termination. The lap wherein I got love, peace, security, safety and learned lessons of life has no suitable word in any language of the world for measuring and expressing gratitude. I may reserve my will above all for them. I always miss them. My mother is above all and her lap is above God’s heaven. So, all my gratitude are to everyone visible or invisible in life’s journey.
May I give gratitude to me for always being me. I do am, my destiny. My gratitude is to destiny.
POOR- The bread givers
I am not poor. I am not only born with a belly and a mouth but also have two hands. Like every one, I took birth as raw but my parents were categorised as the poor by human’s prescribed standards. Since childhood, it appeared that I was special for specific purpose, as if, God had sent me for already continued assignments and I had to bear them as destiny. I was provided opportunities for own developments, on so determined equal basis, in the name of education and health etc. with separate bases, as securities, for my category, according to my affordability and status.
When I grew with my situational fate, my views analysed that great God never differentiated and provided everyone with same biological qualities but the existing system on earth was human made in the name of management and necessities.
I think poor have a very traditional approach towards life but knowledge on the poor’s history is immaterial. Solutions are expected only from controllers, as provider. Now, I find that all needy are kind of poor and actual poor by categorisation are the foundation of all types of growth. They are the means of employments and engagements. Everyone may agree in principle that the poverty is a curse, but I think, it is a boon for many in the society. When I analyse, I observe that poor are bread and butter givers to many like writers, artists, painters, film makers, NGOs and government employees etc. Everyone of each category gives attention to the poor in her or his specialsation to expose plights and earns for own survival. Every government tries to eradicate poverty through schemes but the poorness is still continuing.
The poverty is a fire that is destined to give energy to all activities. Perhaps, not a single work can be done without the poor. We are paid for work but only sufficient for survival to carry on the livelihoods.
The Poor are letters to start. The Poor are words for depictions. The Poor are sentences for complete meaning. The Poor are necessities. All government’s schemes may not show the end of poverty because the implementors are very poor and they need more attentions. They always have their first bites from our dishes. So, our continuation appears to be permanent. We may be easily recognised every where without difficulty because of psychological reasons of our surrendering to the situations. We have no honor or place in society and we are never treated to be honest. These are well accepted thoughts. The Poor are something for every section of society.
Being poor, I am proud that my fate enables me to make fate of others. My share is with everyone as reminder for caring me. I expect that one day my complete share will reach to me before my departure from this opportunistic world. I want to be real rich person, complete in all respects without any camouflage. May every poor be like that free of small, dirty, poorly drained and stingy huts or small rooms with dilapidated walls in a distant side of a city or town, as neglected habitats, contributing in richness of others.
Position
I will see you. You don’t know, who am I? You will bear the consequences. These are lines, generally heard during discussions between any authority and someone on roads or in different offices. This reflects the approach of a man and the importance of a post. Such discussions reveal that someone is applying pressure to do the wrong or to get rid off punishment and penalties etc.
Here the question is about the importance of a man or the post held by the man. It is true that every post has been empowered with rules and regulations, for good governance and importance of post is also as per hierarchy. But lines of threatening are hurdle and instigate corruption and mitigate the importance of rules, regulations and posts. The position held is not permanent and one day, on retirement, all become same in the society. So, the importance exists in post, not in the post holder. As a common man, ones importance is in abiding the rules and regulations. So, our behaviors are most important for respect and the tags of VIP and VVIP are not permanent. Good times do not last too long.
I remember one incident’s happening, during my journey by train. One of my friends was with me, without proper reservation. He was having an importance of being son – in – law of an officer holding very high post in bureaucracy. Because of that he was feeling comfortable for facing the ticket checker and police. I got a very good lesson to tackle such situations. I witnessed that during discussion, after listening the threat of post and probable actions against him, the police man said ” you may be whatever you say but, at first, I will beat you and ask for an excuse from your relative officer by saying that every one tells your name and try to get favour and it is true, he does know.” My friend paid the fine and got lesson that post is important but with dignity.
Human and humanity should get importance because posts in various departments in governing bodies, are created for giving services to public and rules and regulations are framed for their smooth execution, to ease the life with safety and security. So, everyone is to satisfy importance of each other but no one is above law.
It is ridiculous to think that he is more important. Everyone is important. If we observe, we find that in nature everything is important, from invisible creatures to big mammals, from thorns to flowers, and from grass to big trees etc. The ecology of nature is balanced because of all and any disturbance may bring havoc.
Human should learn from the best teacher, the nature, about giving place to everyone.
Our attitudes of giving importance are not limited to posts in service but also in every walk of life. Intelligent students get importance in classroom and schools, human get importance in society by comparing wealth, size of house and no of cars and number of servants etc.
There are different yard sticks for defining the importance, every where. Such attitudes are detrimental to the civilisations and empower to do the wrong things and corruptions spread as termites due to misuse of power. Only respect should get priority.
Everything is important. Everyone is important. When almighty has not differentiated, we may not do like this. Every creature is doing respective business and is equally important. We should not be power crazy. Services with serving attitudes should prevail.
My shadow
Because of me and myself, I have a shadow. My shadow is best companion of me in day or in light. It is black and unseen in dark. I have virtual shadow in night. My shadow increases and decreases in size owing to source and distance of light. I may have many shadows as per number of sources of light. I am in grief that I may not have shadow in dark and in the sky. I may not give colours to it.
My shadow helps me alone in deciding many things. I get knowledge of directions and probable distance of source of light except the distance of Sun. My shadow always has its identity, except one time it has lost its identity informing me because shadow- shadow interaction began for third shadow. Now my shadow is not in my control.
My shadow has no life but has the philosophy of life. Outer shadow needs outer source of light but inner shadow needs own enlightenment because problems of world are due to internal shadow. Our attitudes, thoughts, actions and interactions are controlled by this shadow. My physical shadow shows directions and distance but inner shadow makes blind and covers self consciousness. Inner shadow is limited to self body, but affects the surroundings. I have to search peace. I have to spare me from immoral things. I have to be immortal from mortality. I have to be selfless. I have to be of use for others. I have to leave arrogance. I have to search and follow truth. I have to overcome my inner shadow for all these changes. Every thing is within.
My outer shadow will not be with me forever but inner shadow may make my life heavenly on earth. I have to meet a path shower guru ( teacher ). I have to do noble deeds. I have to be me first, for others.
I read books. I got confused. Every book had its limitation. No book was complete in itself. Some books were for allurements. Some books were self praising.
Ultimately, I have a thought and concluded as under – that worldly duties should be performed in pious manner without harming anyone. I can change the world but I have to change first. Smiling face, soft words, and ready to help attitudes give peace and make life easy. Only deed should speak. Name should be used for identity and not for boasting. No one will carry any thing at the time of departure from this world. So attitude of hoarding should be beyond mind. Opportunities should be shared and needy should get first preference. Everyone should respect each other and should behave as servant, not the master.
All these are possible but inner shadow should be in control through fact finding and removing all greedy attitudes. One should have faith in self. Nothing is mine forever. Everyone is important. Everyone is a tourist in the world and is on tourist visa for certain duration. If I help someone, it means I have helped myself. Such attitudes may be sufficient for control of inner shadow’s hunger. I am ready to bear the fruits of my deeds. I have hope. I have to Judge myself, other may not truly judge me. May God bless me and my soul rest in peace on earth and in heaven.
I know that God is great but I have to give him the chance.
We are to Criticise
I think that We are empowered. We are mainly naturally, socially and politically empowered. Natural empowerment is not in our control. It appear at defined time and occasions to perform the empowered duties. We may not avoid or change it. Whenever, we try to be against it, we pay its price and suffer, sometimes beyond our control.
Besides, the humans made social empowerment is result of age old traditions, beliefs and thinkings. It has seen many changes with passage of time and is always subjected to further improvements or amendments as per the needs. It is progressive and may not be imposed on everyone as we are having brain to apply to understand the good or bad for all within limits. Any deviation from this type of empowerment disturbs the social set up and harmony.
In general empowerment gives strength and teaches us discipline to lead our lives. We have liberty to exercise it in favour or have other options to use.
When we think empowering others to control us, we are supposed to take every step with due diligence and precaution. Otherwise, we have to face the music. We have to mentally prepare ourselves, in this regard before taking final decision.
When we are to start education in childhood, our guardians or parents choose the schools for our bright future. When we want to choose our profession to be independent and serve, we consider many things in selection of a suitable career for comfortable and rewarding lifestyles. We take all precautionary measures in our lives for health, food, marriage, settlement and social lives etc. from time to time.
We always try to do the best from available resources. We give priorities to our personal interests and act accordingly, to use the empowered duties. But, we become casual in exercising the political empowerment. This type of empowerment has been given in any country after many historical events and sacrifices, atleast, in a country which has the history of independent movements against foreign rulers to get rid off slavery. We are politically empowered to decide the future, developments and improvements in the country for the betterment of natives. We are to write our destiny through elections, handing over the decision making and implementing powers to elected members.
A country, as a unit of the world, has to deal both with other countries to carve out a niche and with internal problems for the stability, an essential requirement for growth and developments. All these depend upon us, as responsibilities, because of the political empowerment. But it is found that we miss the bus every time and criticise the governing political party later.
We, on analysis, find that we are on fault. We, in our service or other working places, for recruitment to any post, prescribe many eligibility criteria ranging from education, job experience, character, marks obtained and mental conditions etc. Besides, an aspirant has to go through many stages of examinations, physical tests and interviews. We take utmost care in selection but during election, we forget all such criteria and requirements in a candidate who is supposed to run a state or the country. We seldom try to know about the candidate’s past history for suitability. We only consider by the standards of religion or caste or region or political parties or some thing else. We keep our nationhood a side. We think a party will act for only one particular section of society and others may wait for their turn in future. We become prey to the allurements and bounties of free water, free electricity, free food and free housing facilities. But we never consider the cost at which we are getting all these. We, personally, may not distribute in gratis in our limited incomes. But the political parties dare to give, restricting alround developments.
These political parties have serious concern for having insufficient means with them , for digital propaganda during spread of pandemic, but have never taken care of students residing in villages, for not having Internet and mobiles to study during online teaching to avoid loss of education. Parties have funds but for themselves. Even then they are vying with each other to distribute free things but at our cost. Both, the leaders of different parties and we, voters are responsible for this.
We are always ready to criticise the government but do not want to join politics. Whenever, election comes, we forget the past and our criticism. We start harping on the same string, as usual. We, learned people, talk on government’s responsibilities only, forgetting our onus at the time of election. Ultimately, our rulers are enjoying because of our habits. We, again, become busy in discussions and criticising government on every topics, till the next election comes, as food for our old habits to revive in the form of caste, religion and region etc.
This political empowerment has effects on social empowerment, affecting natural harmony and divide the society. Finally these both are affecting natural empowerment and we create a new category of criticising empowerment on hitting self goals. It is irony that we want to catch the time but at our own costs. We are not ready to learn or take lessons from our mistakes.
If we elaborate our actions, the same may be seen in international geopolitics – deeply rooted divisions on various levels and lines for many unreasonable reasons.
FEAR
Fear has a natural and universal existence. Everyone may fear as if it is a permanent pandemic. The virus of this quality exists in every creature of nature. Perhaps no-one is spared from it.
There may be many types of fear as per the situation and condition. How can one guess, the time of start of any fear and its lasting? There may be descriptions in the concerned subject at length. But for me it starts since birth, related with existence and survival.
We are always in growing stage and fear changes according to expectations of self and society. We always face the challenges of proving self upto the mark.
The great fear may be from childish attitudes to study to delivering results to tolerance to family to social life etc. If you succumb at any time, the ready made judgement of failure or looser will be your trade mark. No one will wait for your explanation until you again prove yourself.
One thing is common for all types of fear that every fear, ultimately, is directed towards one or self.
We always have fear of losing- self, friends, members of family, parents, relatives, health, wealth, near and dear ones and other important things. We may regain health and wealth but loss of persons is not like migratory birds those will come back repeatedly in particular season. It is natural and beyond our control. Such fear may lead to depression and ruin life. Others have consolation and nothing else to share to be useful in formulating strategies to get rid off load.
Fear is not a crime. It may give strength and opportunity to analyze and overcome whatsoever may be, if it does not occupy the gigantic size, to be diagnosed as disease. We know nothing is permanent. We also know there is no limit for maximum. So limit of satisfactions has to be fixed by individual as yardstick. We may overcome worldly fear like that.
If everything is going smoothly and is favorable then fear of maintenance and continuity complicate the things. Hence, it is very difficult to get rid off sense of fear. It will always remain together, in any form, as shadow. We should accept and try to learn its message to be ready for all odds.
We may always have sense of insecurity. So fear will continue till the last breath. Mental strength will make us feel better and more comfortable because fear is part and parcel of life.
If fear is not there, we fear from unseen power. Most of the religious leaders describe it as God’s fear – the most powerful. It has self understood categorisation and trust, to be involved. It is becoming a contagious disease to control.
Best way to say bye bye to fear, may be, to be, what you are, without comparing with others to invite more unwanted trouble and long lasting sense of insecurity. Limit of satisfaction is the best medicine in many cases, to be less fear oriented, because fear does not give safe passage. One day fear becomes source to dare.
Life Around Something
When you get something, you think big to excell. When you loose someone you think big to excell. Our lives swing like pendulum between something and someone. This philosophy of life is lone controlling factor
of all activities in the world.
The something instigates life, one by one, towards completion, but it is never completed and remains alive for something more. That’s why we are struggling with ourselves for something.
The good or bad histories of the world are the results of such somethings. The present days prevailing activities in the world – corruption, fight for supremacy, economic war, environmental issues, lobbying etc. are because of this something more. This something may also be desire, encouragement, zeal, enjoyment, greed, and cause of all sorts of social vices.
Something is responsibility. Above all something is essential element of life. Actually something is Carrier for nothing.
In pursuit of something from childhood to adulthood and old age, one day life says goodbye forever. When the someone leaves for unknown place, something is left here in this world, in hands of others, craving for something. This departure changes the course of thinking upto highest level of disillusionment. Life appears to be meaningless for something. This is the ultimate truth beyond something.
We should enjoy beginning of life from something to departure from life to unknown. The end of life is imminent. Nothing is permanent. This thought if prevails, the world may become heaven and lust for something may be need based. We may act for salvation. Peace may spread. World may be a global family, caring each other as the God wants.
Competition is bone of contention. We only think all these at funeral ground and after that the world moves on, never stops. We indulge into daily course of existence because we are learned fools. This is the real fact.
In modern time, something is getting more importance as the life is changing to show business knowingly or unknowingly beyond truth. We have reached upto the level of false status symbol expressions, that every one has been competitor of self. There is need or not but I will tell about myself because I have something to show. But it is to be judged. Sometimes smiling face has hidden griefs. The fake one appears as real due to something.
Something motivates for more and more and controls all activities the world over but someone shows the reality of world. The choice is personal – something or someone. Both are separate but sail in the same boat in the river of life.
We should respect and enjoy someone with something within pleasant limits, in true sense, to create heaven on the earth
Alone
I am alone, I am all. You are alone, you are many. Are such situations possible? Answer may be or may not be in yes. In this answer “no” word is hidden. Likewise, alone is hidden inside everyone. It has been taught that all that glitter are not gold and such is the case in human kingdom too. Here, everyone lives with crowd, but remains alone. This is the truth that
everyone comes into existence alone, but is the part of crowd and role may be defined. The word “Alone ” has engulfed the other word ” One ” to be meaningful.
We for the whole life think that we have families, friends and relatives as securities for rainy days. But we should remember – “all that glitter are not gold”, only mother is gold who is always with us. But she becomes alone at the time of her needs and waits for her gold.
This is the only truth that everyone remains alone and makes crowd for survival. Gold in human kingdom is situation dependent.
This situation has been more aggravated after industrialisation and one has been more alone in self. The doctor diagnoses it as depression and world of sages defines it as journey towards almighty. What is the real good? Every expert has self understood categorisation. But the only truth is that everyone is alone. The more the world is advancing the more the loneliness is spreading.
Machines are replacing crowd and emotions are being exchanged from artificial intelligence and Robots are well equipped to entertain. Besides, rockets are traveling high, searching additional new abode for humans. But here on earth, life is settling in old age homes that too alone. These arrangements are ours. Home has been now like hotel, without permanent address.
We see the smiling faces, very often. Read the language of smile on sad face. It reveals helplessness for being alone. I am alone. Who will be next to me. We are missing the music of life. Life is to be tuned in the tunnel, having no end. But one is the beginning and alone is the reality.
I want to be
I want to hate for love,
I want to check, to be speedy,
I want to loose, to be suitable,
I want to be rare, to be common,
I hide myself, to cast shadow,
I want to be myself, to be yours,
I want to fill, to be meaningful,
I want to be a gap, to be a way of flow,
I want to shrink, to cover the whole world,
I want to be criticised, to be heard,
I want to be quiet, to be useful stone,
I want to be hated, to be a star of magnet,
I want to be independent, to be restricted,
I want to be famous, to be handled,
I want to be rejected, to be acceptable,
I want to be an entry, to be used,
I want to be part, to be with me,
I want to be silent, to be known,
I want to be real, to be tried,
I want to confine, to be overviewed,
I want to be being, to be into the aggression,
I want to be dark, to be enlightened,
I want to be serious, to be individual,
I want to be gathered, to be distributed.
I want to be, to you my God, without any lust. I want to be secured in this competitive world, my lord. I want Your hand of love as my destiny. I want to be fixed in you, by you for your abode.
God, you sent me with everything, without anything. I wanted to take everything from your world, despite nothing to carry at last. I craved for everything but missed you. I knew much to remind, than to serve others. You loved me but I forgot you. I muse to be good but it is too late. I may be useful in instalments. Who is responsible? I have used you. You are God of all, for all. I want to be poor, to be rich by you.
santable 