I need you

I have the desire.
I have dreams.
I have pain.
I have persuasion.

But I have fear –

to lose,
to leave midway,
to challenges,
to weakness,
to strength,
to satisfaction,
to sink,
to crave more,
to yield.

I need you because –

You give courage.
You are my partner.
You are my companion.
You are my friend.
You are my teacher.
You are my guide.
You are my emotions.

I have a body and a soul. I have fed my body to keep it healthy to meet the worldly affairs, but I have forgotten my soul’s need to be near you my almighty. I am in dire need of you. I have faith in you but am about to face failure. Your faith in me may shatter. I know that you have been behind me in every action. So let me not be down. I want your blessings on the advent of my death. I pray you to be my sailor in this world and be my porter to carry me to your world. My rest is there. My peace is there. My life is there. This world is full of uncertainty and negotiation.

Disturbance

I am busy fighting. Don’t disturb me, please.
I am busy remembering your faults. Don’t disturb me, please.
I am busy recounting your mistakes. Don’t disturb me, please.
I am busy observing others for my sake. Don’t disturb me, please.

I am afraid, I am evaluating myself.
I am disturbed, I am consoling myself.
I am obliged, I am bending myself.
I became human by killing an animal in me.
I am becoming an animal again by killing humanity.
I am changing my face into many faces.

I am hurting,
I am healing.
I am gaining,
I am decorating my inner home.

I am one,
I am for someone.
I am yours,
I am submerging my hidden thoughts.

I am flaring,
I am engulfing.
I am helping,
I am checking.
I am deteriorating,
I am succumbing.
I am denigrating,
I am relinquishing,
I am enjoying it.

I have drawn a line,
I have made a barrier,
I have sent a list.

My almighty –
I intend to understand your creations. I want to leave all my bad habits for my sake to enjoy your world, made with expectations. These are my disturbances. I am the dweller with unclear thoughts and an unknown future. I want to be to meet your intentions and live a life of your aspirations. I want to forget myself and my whimsical reasons to change interests for you. I want to follow your rules. I want to be lost in your search. Please remind your mind to this heinous world.

You- My Life

No tears please,
Let the eyes be treasury.
No distance please,
Let the gap vanish.
No separation please,
Let life be pleasurable.
No anger please,
Let the bud turn into a flower.
No hurrying please,
Let me last with you.
No mercy please,
Let me die in your love.
No confusion please,
Let the tree bear fruits.

You talk to me –
With Your heart,
With your silence,
With your smile,
With your eyes,
With your sound,
With your face,
With your touch,
With your fingers,
With your pleasure,
With your joy.

You have meaning,
You have string,
You have emotions,
You have feelings,
You have mystery,
You have light,
You have descriptions,
You have destinations,
You have everything.

I do not want to lose you in my dreams too. You are to realise our dreams. You are my gift. You tease and deserve it at the same time. But you are my life. You are my present and my future is in you. You write. I read. You have made me optimistic through your heavenly body. Let me be honoured. Let me be devoted. Let me be reciprocal in love. Let me be liberated with you.

You are needed

Trees fly chirping,
Birds, rooted in the earth,
Heroes, as stars in the sky,
Stars, twinkling on earth,
Clouds, in our hands,
Water, sprinkling on the sky.
We want shortcuts.

Time is in our control,
Birth needs submission,
Death needs permission,
We dig water,
We eat air,
Our heads are down,
Our wishes are willing.

Do we dream of these?
A full topsy-turvy.
Why do we want such things?
Our imaginations and aspirations play roles in defining life in all eras. We may not accomplish all, in one life. Our unfulfilled willingness is the hunter of hunger. They are crusaders. We want to change but not ourselves. We worship but sail our ships.

We never examine our roles. We assess others’ roles. We have made God- many Gods for our use. Real God is money. We have aspirations for a virtual world – full of fictitious things in the name of pleasure and comfort. We have written our chapters of life on our terms, satiating our whims. No one wants to surrender for peace and love.

God! your lessons of love and grace are bookish and in practicality are used for fears, curses and pretentious attitudes.

God! You are being tested every day. You are needed. Your silence is taking the price of humanity. You are supposed to tell that you are the creator and you are the annihilator. One day your existence may be questioned. No one has seen you? But we love you for our sake.

You are the only hope. Otherwise, I am the best. God! You will be only a concept. A concept for the supremacy of a few.

They Laughed

When I smiled at flowers, they laughed.
When I cried at my fault, they laughed.
When I wept on my fate, they laughed.
When I fell because of them, they laughed.
When I slipped due to ignorance, they laughed.
When I missed a chance, they laughed.
When I remembered you, they laughed.
When I excused their faults, they laughed.
When I enjoyed my loneliness, they laughed.
When I shared my views, they laughed.
When I cared about their systems, they laughed.
When I failed in my attempts, they laughed.
When I passed the hurdles, they laughed.
When I changed myself, they laughed.
When I worked for them, they laughed.
When I slept in peace, they laughed.
When I wanted a favour, they laughed.
When I wrote my grievance, they laughed.
When I lost my beloved, they laughed.
When I worshipped my God, they laughed.

They judged me. They commented on me and my feelings. They expressed their attitudes, faith and hate. They killed me in their thoughts.

They have different moralities. They have developed their standards. They are doers. They are decision takers. They are implementors. They are assessors. They govern. They are true by themselves. They have a complex of greatness.

My almighty call me back. I have crossed the tolerance limit given by you. Even you have been defined and limited to their whims. They know how to twist your teachings.

Almighty! may you delimit your existence. I am to live in this world as per your wish, but your existence is at stake. You are being exchanged with their attitudes and dictatorships. Fear of your wrath is their strength. You are like a rubber stamp. You are a seal, taken for granted. They are two-edged swords. You have been divided for their convenience.

Now the question comes – who is supreme? Who is the controller? What is the reality? Who will bell the cat? Only darkness appears to be a distinguished reality. Your light is awaited again. You matter the most.

Beauty

The flowers have a beautiful rose,
its beauty is protected by thorns.
Life has games,
its beauty is shown by emotions.
Speech has motivation,
its beauty is decorated by words.
Nature has actions,
Its beauty is expressed by habits.
Touch is the beginning,
its beauty is to allow for allurements.
Memory is to the brain,
its beauty is to forget.
Knowledge has wisdom,
its beauty is known by the implementation.
Time is powerful,
its beauty is to always change.
Grief is teaching,
its beauty is removal.
Failure is a lesson,
its beauty is the path to success.
Power is to protect,
its beauty is to pardon.
Religion is a path,
its beauty is to show the truth.
The relation is needed,
its beauty is to have faith.
Sound is vibration,
its beauty is the origin of music.
Parting is treacherous,
its beauty is a reunion.
Liberty is cosy,
its beauty is discipline.
Love is God,
its beauty is to sacrifice.
Death is the conclusion,
its beauty is to be unforgettable.
Beauty is beautiful,
its beauty is to be meaningful.

Almighty has beautified nature by creatures and for creatures, to be optimistic to do beautiful things for all. Though everything is beautiful at its respective place, in time and space, the real beauty is adjudged by an individual as per liking, attitudes and needs etc. Beauty is a binding force for the amalgamation and continuation of God’s desire. It is hope. Beauty should be beautified for the sake of humanity and God. God has beautiful desires for humans.

Honeymoon

Ouch, you have orchestral touch. I have heavenly pleasure.
No words, no sound, let the music of silence spread.
No boundaries, no pointed indication, let liberty be enjoyed.
No enticing, no sensation, let me be imbibed.
No memory, no repentance, let me be lost.
No more chance, no revival, let me be forgotten.
No objection, no-obligation, let me be admissible.
No permission, no hesitation, let only be submission.
No feeling, no thrilling, let only be healing.
No sorrow, no joy, let only be happy tears.
No summer, no winter, let only be spring.
No solace, no arrogance, let me be in an embrace.

My almighty, I want to mingle with you to forget my entity. You are the reason for my separation from you. I want to restrict to you but you are the reason for my – me, mine, myself – deviation from you. I want to be your object and you are the reason for my devotion. I want to leave but you are the reason for my continuity.

As I am part of you, I have the remorseless right to have demand to be with you. I have many wishes to be fulfilled by you. I have seen your natural world, turning into an artificial trench, holding supremacy on the pretension of your intentions. You are under unprecedented questions by self-declared Gods on earth. Everything is confusing. You have been interpreted on earth, according to the will of the mighty one. You are the virtual means of threatening, in the name of the creator.

Abstaining from all confusion, I want to be with you, on your honeymoon forever. No relation, no self but the spiritual honeymoon. You dive deep into me for spiritual ecstasy. You see and I will sink. Your breathing is my sensation. Your indication is my message. Your grace is my treasure. Your target is my surrender. All celestial bodies will be our homes. We will fly on clouds with windy wings. Sun and Moon will be our path showers. Stars will illuminate our nights.

You are my limit. All wishes start with you and end with you. Let me revolve around you. I want to be no more.